I.am.overwhelmed.

 Yesterday I sat down and took the time to review all that I have to do through the end of the year. I am overwhelmed and last night was falling into a deep depression.  I'm ok today, I think, but I feel I am out of control.  Some of it is work-related; some is personal related.  I want to run away by myself and be alone. I have something going either at work or in personal life going nearly every week for the next two months.  I don't know when I can fit in the things I love to do (baking with grandchildren and great-grandchildren and working on my own Christmas things) because of the other things I have on the calendar.  I'm overwhelmed.  I won't share it ... it's my own doing.  I've got to draw the line and do some things, and I don't know even what I can do and get out of.  I don't want to take away the things I enjoy doing; I have several Christmas projects I want to complete yet and I am unfortunately sure that I won't get them all done - and that disappoints me.  Which doesn't help my heavy heart.  I've got to come out of this.  It's another reaction to the bed bug bites, right?  This broken heart syndrome and heaviness of life? I can't do this; it's killing me.  Lord, please help.

Psalm 61:2-4 (NKJV):  From the end of the earth I will cry to You, when my heart is overwhelmed; lead me to the Rock that is higher than I.  For You have been a shelter for me, a strong tower from the enemy. I will abide in your tabernacle forever; I will trust in the shelter of Your wings.  Selah.

There is only one place that I can run to - and that is to my Lord.  He is the only One who can rescue me from the pits I have fallen into.  Help me not to set up housekeeping, Lord!  Open the windows and let Your light come in.  I am so burdened with 'things' and 'situations' and I am helpless on my own to do anything.  So I turn to You, Father, and ask Your intervention in these things.  Look down upon me, O God, and see my troubled heart.  Take away the things that distract me from You.  My tears fall unbidden, Lord, and I have no place else to turn.  Hold me, Jesus.  Help me overcome what is burdening my heart. Only You can, Lord.  

Have you ever felt completely overwhelmed with life?  With your job? With your personal life? With family issues? With stress? With - well, with anything?  Sometimes we don't know how to break it apart and look at things differently.  But God always can help us see - but sometimes we only need to see one day, one situation, one problem, at a time.  

And the main thing - really, the only thing - that we can do is trust God that He will work all things out for my good.  His Word says so.

Romans 8:28 (NKJV): And we know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to His purpose.

I can trust in what the next two months hold because I know that whatever is before me, God has gone there before and knows what is ahead.  He always sees the big picture and even in my wildest imagination of things happening or going wrong, He can turn them around and none of it happen. My God can bring good out of all things.  I just need to let the things that trouble me go and give them to Him, and surrender that situation, that problem that looms in my mind, and let it go.  The heaviness will lift; the overwhelmed feeling I feel will dissipate; and I will be filled with peace and joy in His presence. I know it.  It's just hard not to keep thinking about what is ahead.  Lord, help me to let it go.  For Your glory alone, Lord, for Your glory alone.

Sorry about this - my heart is heavy this morning. I'm 'feeling my age', perhaps.  I feel every bit of life has been sucked out of me.  I know that is not true.  I do have joy in the midst of my pain. My joy cometh from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth.  

Been thinking about getting a KJV bible to read for 2025.  I see Amazon has one on sale for about $23.  I put it in my cart and then take it out.  I don't really need another bible, do I?  I have one KJV but it is a small one from my uncle Win many years ago.  This one is larger and easier to read.  I have an NIV I haven't read through yet; but something keeps holding me back from reading it.  Perhaps I am to give it to someone, and that is why.  I don't know.  I keep reading my NKJV and I love it.  But I grew up on the KJV so I have a fondness for it as well.  And now I'm rambling.

Hubby is getting ready to head off to his bible study and I will be turning the work computer on shortly.

This, too, shall pass.  My mama always said so.  And mama was usually always right.

Pray for me as I pray for you.  I will be ok.  God will take care of all things.  See, you are never alone when you think you are.  God is always there.  And sometimes a friend is.

Blessings!