I am so ready for time off.....

Work has been so busy lately with the merger of another company with ours. At first it didn't make any difference, but now that the actual merging of the two companies is imminent, it is getting crazy. And I'm getting annoyed. Don't want to get this person on my "bad" side - but she reports to MY boss.... and is only a Director.... and it feels like she is very aggressive and 'taking over' some things. And this is a silly feeling I'm having. Merging of some areas is normal - but .. well... ok -

Our director asked this other director had she thought any more about having a 'meet and greet' for the two departments. Now mind you, about 10 of the people from this company - and this person's department - will be moving directly into our offices to work with our people. Others will stay at the other company about 3 miles away for now. So I get copied on this email yesterday from this director (she had sent it to her AA) that for the AA to work with me - and we will have a breakfast HERE in our building NEXT WEEK.

I don't have time to coordinate anything in our building right now!! However, as I was on a project yesterday, the AA is calling me in about 20 minutes to discuss this. I did talk to our director about it - and she wasn't aware it was being set up so quickly. (wouldn't you think one director would talk to the other?) I DID tell our director that this other director had better watch out - I am territorial and I will not let her walk over 'my' people here! This person is very aggressive so it will prove interesting.

My boss is not in town this week so I can't go in and spout off to her. I just feel it needs more thought than just 'do this' attitude. I'm annoyed. I'm busy, and I'm sure the other AA is as well. Now if they wanted to do it there - I don't care - but if it's here, then I have to be involved and I have a lot of things to get done. PLUS it would need to start about 6:30am-ish and then there is overtime for the hourly people to come in (and some may not if they have small children they have to get off to school). There is a lot of things to take into consideration.

Well, I did IM my boss and she just responded, "let's do it." Boo. I thought she would be on my side.... but then, I didn't give her all the details, I just asked the question. Maybe I am too territorial and don't want this director involved in MY area.... I guess we started off on the wrong foot..... The first day I met her she was 'name-dropping' that she was 'friends' with the President of our Corporation in St. Louis and how he had hired her (now mind you, over 20 years ago and she only worked for the company 3 years before going elsewhere and eventually coming back to the Corporation about six-eight years ago). He probably doesn't even remember who she is, but she made sure I knew she had been hired by him and knew him personally. Name droppers. sigh. It's actually become a joke for she not only told me, I found out she also told our company President, my boss, our chief medical officer - and who knows who else.

She isn't happy that she has to report to MY boss who is a VP.... in the beginning she was put under the company President but now that we are lining things up - he can't wait to get rid of her. This should prove interesting cause I will have to have contact with her. I just feel she is going to try to push OUR director (of the same department) out and take it all over. I'm already annoyed just thinking about it.

Ok - I guess I've grumbled long enough. It's time for the AA to call me.

But on a good note - I was singing to the Lord on my way to work this morning the song "open up the heavens, I want to see You, open up the flood gates, a mighty river" and I kid you not - the cloudy sky opened up a hole and sun shined through it for about five minutes.

God is good.

Blessings!

What God is showing me....

seems to be a lot of waiting. It seems the more I ask, the more I seek His face, the more He has me wait.

This is the toughest part of all. I then begin to question the things I ask of Him.

Does He want me to do this? Or does He want me to do that? Should I get this? Should I not get this? Should I remain silent and just keep doing what I do? Or should I speak up and give suggestions as to what I think I should do? What should I do? So many questions, and right now I don't seem to be getting many answers.

So I wait.

And during this time of waiting, God is gently drawing me to Him. As I sit and be silent, He knows He has my attention. He doesn't speak, He doesn't move, but I know He is there. And it is comforting, and loving, and peaceful. I know that no matter what is going on, no matter what I feel, no matter what I am going through, no matter how many questions I ask, or what kind of questions I ask, I know beyond all doubt that He hears me.

He doesn't answer the way I want Him to. He doesn't respond to my pleading. At least, not in ways that I hear or see. But I know He is showing me love and great patience. He knows what is best for me, and for those I pray for. He knows when it is time to accomplish what He wants them to, and when I should remain silent.

How can I speak my opinions when He hasn't shown me they are right? I know, I seem to voice my opinions frequently, but that doesn't mean they come from Him. Some opinions come from my frustrations, from my hurt, from my anguish, or from me.

Through it all, God shows me He has good things planned for me, and for those I pray for. He is totally in charge and loves each of us individually. He cares for us and wants only the best for us.

I need to continue to just wait. And Listen. He is teaching me of Himself.

Blessings!

Saying prayers....

Every morning I say my prayers. Well, not always verbally, but sometimes in my mind, sometimes writing them out in my journal, sometimes in silence I just yield to what and how the Spirit leads me.

Many times my prayers are for healing of others, or even myself. Sometimes it is just to help me through another day. Or to bring blessings of financial rescue for someone in need. Or for a job for someone. Sometimes my prayers are just prayers of praise and blessings to God.

And it all depends on what is going on. Sometimes it is all of these - blended together in prayers that plead the blood of Jesus over those I care for, that they will feel the Presence of God and know that they are in His hands.

Have you ever driven down the road and felt you were not alone, yet you were? Could it be that someone has prayed for you, that Jesus would be with you as you go to work, go to the store, or wherever you are going?

What if you paused in your thinking at that moment, and talked with Him? What if you shared what was on your mind, on your heart?

What if you just told Him that you need some guidance, some wisdom, cause you just don't know what to do?

What if you just told Him that you know you have strayed from Him, and would like to find your way back?

He won't accuse you, He won't make you feel bad. He doesn't beat you up and tell you how terrible you are, how much you have sinned and how disappointed He is in you.... no, Jesus doesn't do that.

What He does do, is open His arms wide and wrap them around you, your heart, your mind, and whispers in your ear how much you are loved.

No matter what you have done, no matter how bad it is, how difficult life has become, Jesus is right there with you. He is walking with you in this journey of life.

And He is interceding for you to our Heavenly Father. Why? Because He loves you.

Take some time to talk with Him today. Ponder your life and where you see it going - and where it could go with Jesus in it. Trust Him. He's on your side. He's got your back.

Blessings!