What God is showing me....

seems to be a lot of waiting. It seems the more I ask, the more I seek His face, the more He has me wait.

This is the toughest part of all. I then begin to question the things I ask of Him.

Does He want me to do this? Or does He want me to do that? Should I get this? Should I not get this? Should I remain silent and just keep doing what I do? Or should I speak up and give suggestions as to what I think I should do? What should I do? So many questions, and right now I don't seem to be getting many answers.

So I wait.

And during this time of waiting, God is gently drawing me to Him. As I sit and be silent, He knows He has my attention. He doesn't speak, He doesn't move, but I know He is there. And it is comforting, and loving, and peaceful. I know that no matter what is going on, no matter what I feel, no matter what I am going through, no matter how many questions I ask, or what kind of questions I ask, I know beyond all doubt that He hears me.

He doesn't answer the way I want Him to. He doesn't respond to my pleading. At least, not in ways that I hear or see. But I know He is showing me love and great patience. He knows what is best for me, and for those I pray for. He knows when it is time to accomplish what He wants them to, and when I should remain silent.

How can I speak my opinions when He hasn't shown me they are right? I know, I seem to voice my opinions frequently, but that doesn't mean they come from Him. Some opinions come from my frustrations, from my hurt, from my anguish, or from me.

Through it all, God shows me He has good things planned for me, and for those I pray for. He is totally in charge and loves each of us individually. He cares for us and wants only the best for us.

I need to continue to just wait. And Listen. He is teaching me of Himself.

Blessings!