Alone ..... with a dog.

 Yes, I am alone for a couple hours this morning - well, except for Sheeba that is.  Hubby had an early meeting wanted to go to so left around 6:30AM I think it was.  I was in my quiet time so I finished up after he left and made ready to take Sheeba for a walk.  That was a struggle, cause I love my alone time here at home, and I really didn't want to take Sheeba for a walk.  But I sucked it up and walked her around the block.  I could have walked more, yes, because I am not on a timeline this morning, but I wanted to get back home.  And, because she did her business before we made the round by the house, I decided to stop after one block.  We were only a half mile short of our usual walk.  I didn't have any more bags with me so didn't want to take a chance on another 'dump'.  I always pick it up.

I guess really that was too much information about Sheeba, but I came home and we sat outside for a few minutes before coming in.  I fixed myself another cup of coffee and a couple eggs for breakfast, and a couple for Sheeba.  Hmmm she didn't eat hers this morning.  Great.  We'll have to dump the food later cause I don't like her eating it later.  Guess she just wasn't hungry yet.  Usually she inhales it when we put eggs in it.  Oh well.  

I started to get up and start bringing boxes in to unpack and throw away and get rid of things but remembered I didn't write in here this morning.  Not that anyone really cares, but I've kind of gotten into the habit of writing nonsense and stuff so want to keep it up, although there are times I make sense. :-)  Maybe.  So here I am, attempting to write something creative before I start on the unpacking.

Hmmm.  A song came on with the lyrics "have you been praying, and you still don't have the answer"... wow, how many of us can say that?  I know I have prayed many times and God doesn't answer.  He doesn't always give me what I ask for.  But sometimes He does answer, but I just haven't seen it yet.  He will do it in His timing, and not mine.

For example, in thinking about that statement, I prayed for years that we could leave our house on Paradise because I felt it was too expensive for us in upkeep, and there were a lot of things that needed to be done and hubby would not even attempt to do it - until something broke and then he would pay someone to fix it.  We couldn't afford that either.  We basically lived from check to check and with little in between.  It was really hard and I poured many tears into my prayers for what we should do.  But, because hubby had always been so hard about moving, I gave up hope.  I thought that would be where we were until I died.

But God.

Boom.  All of a sudden this year hubby decided we ought to move.  Out of the blue, he said it.  And as soon as my daughter and son-in-law heard those words, "I'm ready to move", they acted.  Our son-in-law and grandson started working on the house all the things that needed to be done.  And there was a lot.  Within a couple weeks it was on the market, the house was 90% packed up (thanks to my daughter who took two weeks out of her busy schedule to pack for me), and it was sold.  They had taken us to look at a few houses, but I just didn't feel the peace about living there.  I felt at one it could work, with the changes my son-in-law suggested, but it didn't work out.  

We were shown photos of this duplex.  At first I didn't think it would work because I wanted a yard for Sheeba, and there is none that she can run in (but we have 5 dog parks in this area).  I liked the layout of the duplex, but I didn't know.  So they brought us out here a couple times to let us walk through it and imagine.  And I did imagine, and I saw that it could work.  Painting and new carpeting was done.  We made the move.

Yes, I've had to get rid of a lot of "treasures", but don't ask me to identify what all I let go of because I don't remember!  Yeah, they were treasures all right - I can't even remember what they are.  I still have more things to get rid of and will when I start going through the boxes.  I get it.  I have to let go.

Just as I had let go of my dream of moving out of Paradise and to another place, God answered.  He provided this place for us.  He made it happen. He has given me all I've asked for (except for quitting work, and that will happen in its time) and more.  True, I do have a few more requests out there, but I've learned to put them in His hands and allow Him to make that decision if I need them, or if they are of any value.  Sometimes I just want what I want because I want it.  Know what I mean?  I'm sure you know exactly what I'm saying.  Our kids do it all the time (when mine were smaller, of course!)

I love our new place.  It is perfect for us.  It is roomy, it gives us our own space, and even with working from home, it has worked out.   And as long as hubby lets me make the decisions on where things go (yeah, we fight about some of that - like putting MY books on HIS bookshelves doesn't leave him much room - seriously?),  things go well.  I love being able to go sit on the front porch area and enjoy the sun, or the coolness of the air.  It's fenced in and I let Sheeba walk freely.  I just wish she'd quit eating the bugs that fly around!  All I have to do is ask "Sheeba, do you want to go out front?" and off she runs to the front door.  She's so funny.  

God has truly blessed us with this place.  Financially, we can afford this much easier than the house on Paradise.  Our landscape is done by the HOA - which I didn't want at first, but figuring what we paid for a pool guy and a landscaper every month it pays close to the same.  I love having windows that I can let light in throughout the house.  Every room has windows that we can open the shutters and let the light in and I love it.  

All the time God is good.  And all the time God answers our prayers.  It may be no, yes, or maybe, or even wait.  He had me waiting a long time before He answered my prayers to move, but He did answer and gave me my hearts desire.  A house I can make into a home.

Don't give up praying.  Don't give up asking for God's intervention into your situations.  Ask Him.  That's what He wants.  Even the simplest things, He is waiting for you just to ask.  True, the answer may be no and most of us know when we do ask for some things that the answer will be no.  But then, there are those that His answer is Yes. Trust Him.  He loves you.

Don't Quit.  Keep Praying. Keep Asking.  He's waiting.

Blessings!