It is Sunday and I should get up and walk....

but I'm feeling somewhat lazy.  I checked outside at 5:30 and it was still dark.  It's 6:05AM right now and probably getting light, and yet, here I sit.  What is wrong with me that I just can't get going?  I think I know, and it creeps upon me periodically.  I have to work through it and then I'm ok for awhile.  Yeah, that D word.  Depression.

I think it comes and goes with most of us at one time or another.  Yet, I know other people who seem to be happy all the time - and maybe they are.  Or maybe they hide the down times.  I've had a couple of those down times this past week.  Only one day was really bad, but I got through it and it seems I am just lazy now.

But we do have good things happening.  My granddaughter FINALLY got engaged.  That has been painful for me and I have tried not to judge or let it get to me.  I was thrilled when she finally was proposed to yesterday.  It's been a long, long time, and now if we can just get to a wedding, this grandma would feel much better.

It was so fun to see another granddaughter yesterday who happened to be in town.  Got to spend a little time with her to catch up while at a baby shower.  She will be in town through today at least and we both are hopeful that we can find time to meet up and see their little one - who is not so little anymore at 3 years old!  I am fearful this little one won't really know us or remember us, but we can live on in photos.

Speaking of photos, when I was going through boxes on Friday - you know, the day I wanted to do things and get things done and it didn't happen the way I wanted it to....  anyway, I found a box full of photos.  In talking with the granddaughter yesterday, she offered to scan them all, but I declined.  I'll have my 'photo' day with my kids - those who want to come go through photos - then she said she would take what they or I didn't want and would scan.  Especially for her dad, who said he didn't want to go through any photos.  My least photo child.  She would like to have them for her child(ren).  I found another box of albums too so there are so many photos.  Of course now there aren't so many since we have our phone cameras.  But sometimes I still print the photos cause it is so nice to look back over fun memories.  But as I have gotten older, I begin to think of what I need to let go of and get rid of - and photos are one of them.  If my kids don't want them, of what use are they?  I

In my day, we loved getting the photos of our ancestors - how else could we know who we might look like, and if they were taken too soon - for example, my dad died when I was six.  What if I didn't have any photos of him?  I have a few, and I treasure those.  I have a few of my grandparents, my granny.  And, as I show photos of my granny, especially, I can relate stories of how she would sit in her rocking chair on the porch of the house, rarely talking, but loving us all.  How she would make sure we had plenty to eat when we visited.  How she lived in the right side of the house that her husband had built for her when they first married, and her daughter and her family lived in the other half. 

Memories.... how I treasure them! 

Interesting.... I started this bemoaning the fact of being lazy and needing to go walk and not wanting to go walk - and here I am in memorylane.

And 'celebrating' my middle child's 49th birthday today.  I don't dare text him until later, but I have already thought of him, as he would already know.  I'm not sure if we will join him tonight in his celebration.... we have said we were, but I get the impression he really doesn't want us to - and that would be ok.  I wouldn't want to embarrass him among his friends.  It would just be stopping in for a coke anyway.  So, I'm not sure what we will do just yet. 

And I need to get off here and make a decision as to whether or not I'm going to walk.  It is nearly 6:30 and I'm sure it is light enough to walk now.  I've heard Sheeba stirring some, waiting for us to get up and get moving. 

It's Sunday and am looking forward to the message for today via online services.  There are so many out there to choose from - and we have several pastor friends who have online services, but we really like Jentezen Franklin from Free Chapel church.  He is on now, but we wait until the next service which starts at 8AM.  Then at 10:30AM we watch our church.

Labor Day is tomorrow and I'm hoping to get more unpacking done.  It's been a quiet, yet busy, weekend thus far.  Hope you have a safe one.

Blessings.