I'm sure many of you will say the same thing. You want to do something, you plan to do something, and yet, it doesn't happen. I am thinking about yesterday morning. I almost went back and put an 'addendum' to my post for I had talked about taking Sheeba for a walk, and I wanted to get out early to do it. I had it all planned out. 6AM or just before, we would start on the walk and I would get a large amount of my steps in. It didn't work that way.
I stop my quiet time and go get dressed. I'm ready to go, have taken Sheeba out for her morning duty, and am ready to go. Then hubby is fussing. We've had a problem occasionally of a breaker shutting off and it affects the bathroom lights and maybe another one or two lights. Hubby has had to go out and flip the breakers - and usually ends up turning them ALL off (think resetting clocks) and then back on to get the one that was off to work. Don't know why it keeps shutting off. Son-in-law is having an electrician come out today to check it out and see why it keeps shutting off. Anyway, I had to stick around and keep checking to see if the light came on as he flip switches. It was nearly 6:30AM before I was able to start walking so we didn't get very far.
I had a plan, and it was a good plan. It just didn't work out the way I had planned. Dare I plan it again today? I would like to, and yet, my body is saying 'uh-uh'. But I must. I had a full day of work yesterday and didn't get everything done that I should have. It was a little after 4PM when hubby came in to ask if I was going to stop working. I was only gone about 45 minutes to get my blood drawn yesterday and that was about the only time during the day that I wasn't working. I have a two hour meeting this morning so I have another full day ahead of me. Oh joy. I ended up taking Sheeba out for another walk last night so that I could get my 10,000 steps in. I don't care if I am not in first place; I just want to get my 10,000 steps in. If I can maintain that, I will feel better and strengthen my body. And, at my age, I definitely need to keep my body strong.
I must admit it really feels odd to think that way. I have to do things now that I wouldn't have really paid much attention to before. I have to make sure I am more careful and not fall, or break a bone. I think I am about due for a bone density scan, but with COVID I don't know if that can happen. So it tells my bones are getting weaker - then what? Would all the calcium in the world cause my bones to regrow in strength? I take my vitamin D every morning. I admit I don't always take a calcium pill. I am currently out of them so I rely on the food I eat to supply what I don't take. I really feel I do not need to take a pill (I hate to take pills!) but by eating foods with that nutrient in it, and exercising and keeping my body healthy and strong, it should be sufficient.
But again, things do not always go as planned. But I do think I am in much better shape even now with my haphazard way of getting exercise, than others my age. My older sister is 6 years older than I am, which makes her 77. Yes, she does have rheumatoid arthritis and she says she has very slow-growing stomach cancer. She has refused treatment for the stomach cancer, of which she said she was diagnosed 2 1/2 years ago. They told her then she had 5-10 years without treatment. Because her RA is very painful, she decided no treatment. That's fine, but she also doesn't take care of herself. She rarely will get up out of bed and walk and now falls frequently, even with a walker. A couple weeks ago she was in the hospital because she had fallen outside - and she also had a UTI so wasn't making any sense. She is only 77 years old!! She spent a week in the hospital then they moved her to rehab. She stayed there a week then went AMA. She's back home and says she has PT coming out - but she keeps them only a short time and then 'fires' them. She has a practical nurse who comes out who she can't fire because her PCP sends them to monitor her. She whines all the time she doesn't want to live; whines about her children and grandchildren who don't want to have anything to do with her because she has a hateful tongue and lashes out. And she forgets NOTHING. She can bring up something in the past that she did for you, or something you did to her, and she will not let it go. Which, to me, affects her life. She is my motivation to move, to walk, to keep living.
Have you ever thought that what you do and what you say can affect others? I know that I am not perfect by any means. I have done a lot of stupid things that I regret. I have been, and am, naive about a lot of things. I try to do better, but I don't always succeed. And I'm sure that others are the same way.
This morning I was reading in a book that really hones in on what we think. Listen to this:
"But you should also ask yourself what would happen if the power of God, able to raise the dead, should rest upon a person whose heart still bears the wounds of the past and has not forgotten how or by whom he was conceived? The Lord longs to give you a healthy heart, rather than wandering around from place to place with the power of God, yet still bearing the wounds of your past. He wants to anoint and transform you, but He also wants to heal you and make you whole. It is time to meditate on this and to understand that God loves you and gave His Son for you, regardless of where you came from or how your were raised or how you were brought into this world. God has a future for your life... Whatever the case may be you might be questioning the reason for your life or even complaining that you never asked to be born. All this can easily impede your potential and limit your achievements, but let me clarify here that the circumstances surrounding your birth are irrelevant; what is important is for you to understand that God gave you this life because you are valuable and priceless to Him. That is why He put His hand inside your mother's womb and with great care and gentleness formed you, regardless of how, when or where you were conceived. From this day forward, stop complaining. Appreciate your life, because you are unique. You cannot do anything about your past, but you can do a whole lot about your future. You were born on this earth because God has wonderful plans for you."
Wow. That says a lot, doesn't it? We're born, some of us have a difficult life. Some end up abused, some with divorced parents, some orphaned, some left behind to care for themselves. But do we 'live there' or do we raise ourselves up to make something of ourselves and see the wonderful plans that God has for us?
Something to think about today. Is where you are at in life today, where you planned to be? Are you finding the joy in what you do or in your life? I'm not always, I have to admit. I never thought I'd be where I am today. But I can choose how to respond to it. Sometimes I don't always choose rightly, but it is still my choice.
What are you choosing about your life today? First step is trusting God in the process. You can't do it alone.
Blessings!
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