It's May 1st - where is the time going! But I do want to share some great news I just received on my phone from my boss! Her daughter delivered her 3rd child at 3:40AM this morning - her name is Daisy. She is beautiful - as is her mother and grandmother! My boss sent me a photo of herself holding little Daisy. And now, my workload just increased - I have to clear her calendar this morning first thing as she is taking the day off. Obviously she has been at the hospital for awhile and will need to rest. I'm so excited for her. As I have known my boss for years, I know her children as they grew up, and I officiated the wedding of all three of them. Yeah, we're that close. I love my boss and her husband and their family. And now all my thoughts are offtrack about what I was thinking about writing! Such exciting news - a new baby!
Oh yeah - I had another odd dream last night - and I can't remember the dream but of one thing. You are really going to think it weird as well, I'm sure. Me, who never travels........ I was in Prague, and the city was besieged with gnats. The gnats were everywhere and on everything. And I woke up. I don't recall any other thing but that one. What is it with these weird dreams I've having? I need to get all these stupid and weird dreams down on paper and pray about them. Maybe God is trying to tell me, or show me something? Or am I just having weird dreams?
And what is really odd as well, this week I have not felt my alarm on my watch go off at 4AM, but am sleeping through until 5AM. Granted, I need the extra hour of sleep, but my alarm goes off every 10 minutes until I respond to it - am I shutting it off without knowing it? I did waken at 3:45AM yesterday and got up and came in here - only to fall asleep in my chair until 5AM. Hubby isn't waking up until 5AM as well. Sleep off, (I have gone to bed about an hour later this week; could it just be I'm getting my hours in? - but still, the alarm....) Alarm not being felt. Weird. Now mind you, what woke me this morning WAS my watch buzzing, but it was telling me I had only 10% battery life left. I'm not real fond of my Apple watch for that reason - it has to be charged every single morning. But, it is what it is.
Got to see my grandson's last school concert last night and it was really good and I am so glad I went. Enjoyed the time with my oldest son and his wife as we watched. This was the last of the band concerts for this family, unless the great granddaughter takes it up - but then, she is in another city. That could be a thought for a road trip - once I retire of course. Something to dream about.
I have several emails for work for which I need to work on right away, plus clear my favorite boss' calendar for today. I think it will be another busy day. I haven't gotten any requests from my co-workers' doctors so I'm hoping they are doing things on their own and not waiting to give me several things at once. I know I will be overwhelmed if they do. I need to take some time off this month too - next Monday I have my eye specialist appointment in the morning and it's a 45 minute drive to that specific office for the testings. Then May 20th, I found out last night my grandson is graduating so I will be taking off work for the afternoon.... if tickets are available for us to go. I have a life too and if work gives me flack - I'll get even - I'll retire. Like that will happen. LOL Naw, they won't give me any flack. I push on them to put family before work - (hence my boss taking the day off to help with her daughter and my other boss going camping Thursday and Friday last week). My family comes before my job - I can always find a job; I'm not afraid of work. Yes, at my age it may take longer, but I can flip burgers. LOL It just won't pay as well.
Hebrews 11:6 (NKJV): But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
How can one pray to God and not have faith in Him and believe that He can do anything and everything? Faith has always been one of my strong gifts. Even if I don't know if God will answer my prayers (and He doesn't always answer them the way I want Him too!) I know that He CAN. I have prayed over people and things and nothing happened, but it didn't decrease my faith in what God can do. There have also been many times that I have prayed over people and things, and God DID answer. Several years ago I had an anointing service after a message I had just given about God and healing. I had hubby come up and we stood at the front of the podium and asked if anyone needed healing, to come forward and we'd anoint them and pray. That was, I think, our first service there. People were saying 'this has never been done before here'..... and one man, whose name at that time I didn't know, but I have come to love dearly, the following year he told me when I had prayed for him, not knowing what was going on within him, that he had kidney disease, and when he went back to his home state and to his doctor, his kidney was healed. He knows that God healed him, but he credits me with being the instrument God used to heal his body. All glory to God. Trust me, I didn't do anything. All I did was pray. God does the healing; I just believe that He will.
And yet, as you know, there are times I have had faith that God would heal someone, and I pray diligently for them, and the disease doesn't leave them. The 'bad habit' doesn't go away. Relationships are not restored. Jobs are not found. Finances aren't improved. It doesn't mean that I didn't pray enough or that I didn't have faith enough that it would happen. It has nothing to do with my faith. My job is to bring these requests to our Heavenly Father. It is His decision, His responsibility to answer them. And, since He can see the bigger picture, He knows what is needed. Many times the answer may just be delayed. Other times, it is because I ask amiss.
What do I mean I ask amiss? I ask what I want. I ask what that individual wants. Maybe it is for financial help. But they keep spending recklessly. Maybe I've prayed for healing of a disease in their body. But it's been 10 years and God still hasn't healed them - why? I don't know. But I do know that sometimes the healing doesn't come because they haven't forgiven; they haven't turned to God and He is giving them chance after chance to turn to Him; perhaps it is not happening for their spouse; maybe God is wanting them to learn to love Him more and to comfort the hurting person. Oh there are many ways that I can ask amiss; I ask what I want to see - I want love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control. But the greatest healing one can receive is to be with Jesus at the end of our time.
When God sees me praying 'amiss', He will often just tell me to stop praying that one thing. I may still pray as it comes to mind, but God has the final say in all of it. I am not a healer. Jesus is. Even when I pray for older people to live, I'm asked 'why'? They are old, it's their time. It is better to pray that they know Jesus and have surrendered their life to Him - regardless of whether He gives them more time on earth or not. Many are ready to be with Jesus and want to be released from this world. And, can we blame them? I know I want to be here and watch my great-grandchildren grow up.... but it is in His timing. I have asked Him many times to let me live to 100 - but only if I am healthy and of sane mind. If I'm going to be sick or have mind issues, then please take me early. I do not want to be a burden on my children. I want my life to be a reflection of Jesus. And yes, I screw up a lot. I've done a lot of things. And whether people forgive me or not is not my problem. That is theirs. I forgive them, and I know God honors that.
So how is your praying going lately? You know, it's ok to just whisper a prayer when something comes to mind. I do it all the time. I had a note from a granddaughter recently that she wrote she has learned to just say 'Thank You, Lord' when a break in traffic comes and she can move in.
Be grateful for the little things; they are answers to prayers that someone has prayed for you. Have food to eat? Have money to pay your bills? Have a vehicle that runs? Have decent health that you can still get around? Sometimes it is the choices we make that mess life up. Maybe we need to think about our choices more.
And thank God that He is the One protecting us when we do stupid things. Thank Him for providing for all our needs. Just thank Him for giving you life.
Blessings!
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