I wonder if my distraction this morning has anything to do with my laziness last night? Hubby had his bible study and I decided - although I have much to do - not to do anything but watch a movie, crochet, and eat whatever I want. Well, that's what I did. For dinner - I totally 'blew it' in watching what I was eating - I had a bean burrito. Then I had a Jocko chocolate milkshake. Then I finished it off a little later with my favorite - vanilla ice cream, with saltine crackers broken on top (don't knock it if you have never tried it - it's the salt/sugar combo that makes it so delicious), and chocolate syrup on top of that. That was dinner. And I watched an episode of Chosen, and then watched Perfect Match on Up Faith and Family. I was skimming my phone when hubby got back home around 8p. We talked a bit, skimmed our phones, and before we knew it, it was 9:20p so off to bed we went. Actually I gave up first, then hubby followed.
And now this morning I am feeling somewhat distracted. I slept well, thank goodness. The night before I had not. Didn't want to get up this morning, but yet, here I am. I've done my reading, yet, not as much as I normally do cause I couldn't stay focused. (headache?) My first cup of coffee is gone and I'm thinking of going for another - it's only 6:10a. I did take my BP this morning as Dr. Mark wants me to track it for the next 3 months to ensure I do NOT have to have BP meds. Today it wasn't bad... 137/74 I think it was. Still can't believe I've worried more about the bottom number and he tells me he is more concerned about the top number first, then the second. Maybe I ought to read up on what the two numbers identify and then I can understand it. I obviously did not give up my salt last night - bean burrito and then saltine crackers. Oh yeah, I forgot, I ate about a cup full of Cheese-its - love them. I know, didn't spell it right; too lazy to go look at the box. But you get the idea of what it was. The little orange squares with lots of salt on them.
Today I have no appointments to run off to (grateful) so I can hopefully get some work done. I see they have moved the location for the board minutes (which I have yet to do) so I need to figure out if I have access to that area; I think I do. UGH I hate changes when they aren't explained to me!! I need to get my things in order. Right now I have one interim boss and 3 others I support (Brett's position has no interim). Which is why I don't have much work. I'm wishing they would offer me a severance package for I think I would take it! I need a few months NOT working to regain my 'self', if you know what I mean. When I took early retirement from MCP, I got a year's pay for taking it. I didn't work until I ran out of paychecks. And I called that my one year of retirement. Seems like that was a true statement, doesn't it? Actually, if I did retire now, the only thing different is that I wouldn't have to sit in front of the computer all day. With working from home, if I need to do something, I usually can get up to do it. But, I still have those board meetings.... sigh. See how distracted I am? I guess I'm frustrated because I am getting no information on replacements or what admin changes will be happening. I don't like being in limbo.
At this stage in my life, all I can do - and should do - is trust God that whatever is ahead of me - He will walk with me through it. Good and bad. I need to be listening more so that I hear what He wants me to do, which way He wants me to turn.
"It's utterly impossible for us to fulfill our divine assignment in our own ability, because God firmly declares that He will share His glory with no one else." John Bevere.
Isaiah 48:11 (NKJV): ................... And I will not give my glory to another.
If any of us were to accomplish any divine destiny in our own ability, then God would have to share His glory with us, which He will not do! God intentionally made us, made our calling beyond anything we can do in our own power, so that we have to depend on Him and His grace to complete it. Any task we complete, is by the grace of God. All the glory belongs to Him. Our pride, our ego, is left behind. Without God we can do nothing. Think about that for awhile.
Praise God from Whom all blessings flow, Praise Him all creatures here below. Praise Him above ye heavenly hosts, Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. Amen.
Yeah, that's the song that came to mind as I wrote that above paragraph. In all things we are to praise the Lord. Praise Him for the sunshine; Praise Him for the rain. Praise Him for work, Praise Him for rest. In all things we are to Praise the Lord.
So I praise Him I have a job still. I praise Him I need to clean up this house within the next few days. I can even praise Him for my laziness last night, for how do I know that He did not orchestrate my laziness so that I could give my mind 'rest'? Just saying! In all things, I do give Him praise.
And, with that, I think I will hush this morning. I have a few minutes before time to turn on the work computer, and I'm just feeling like I need to sit quietly and chat (more) with my Father in heaven. Some mornings that is the best thing I can do. Shut my mouth, stop my fingers from moving over the keyboard. Just sit and be still.
Psalm 46:10 Be still and know that I am God.
Have a 'beyond measure' day today! Take time to thank and praise the One who gave this day to you.
Blessings!
