I just couldn't get away from work yesterday as I had so much to get done. I worked through lunch again and although I should have taken even a 15 minute break, I didn't. One would think with all the lunches I've skipped through that I would lose weight. HAH! I think it is all the almonds I've eaten. I love raw unsalted almonds and mixed nuts. Now I say unsalted because too much salt is too much salt... meaning, it makes you swell up and retain water. And when you don't drink enough water, you don't flush it out and then you gain weight. Which is disheartening. I've managed NOT to gain weight while in restricted mode. I have tried to eat better and there for awhile walking every day, but it's been a few weeks since I've had a long walk that could make a difference. My toe is feeling better, and although the podiatrist said it could take six months for it to heal "at our age" it is still sore, but not REAL sore, if you can understand what I mean.
But now the mornings are COLD. Ok, for some of you it is just perfect. Cool, you'd say. No, for me it is COLD. When I am cold, I just want to hibernate, not go walking. But then, I'd warm up, right? Maybe later today I'll venture out. It would actually be good for me to get out of the house for a short walk. I do love to sit out in our court area and just be quiet; be alone with God there. But, I often have Sheeba or hubby with me so I don't have that sanctuary space. And most times, that is ok, it belongs to them too. But sometimes, do you ever just want to be alone with God so that you can talk with Him about what is pressing on your heart?
With our nation in turmoil right now, I find it funny that my devotions hit right on the mark today. Well, they actually have quite a bit lately. But today referred to Exodus 14 and 15, where the Israelites walked across the dry land of the Red Sea, and then God let the waters fall back upon the Egyptians. If that happened today, I wonder how people would react? Is the revealing of fraud in voting in several states the parting of the Red Sea? Will those who committed the fraud be buried in the waters as they returned? Where is the integrity in one's heart, to do good and to do what is right? I am puzzled at how people have so much turned away from God, that they would do the things that have been done. I'm not calling out any political party, or any one person, but how can that person hope to stand before God and say they have done good?
But - I am not to judge, and it is not my call. I am responsible only for my own actions, words, and behavior. I can stand in the gap for these people, and intercede for them, but I cannot change them. Just like I stand in the gap daily for my children, my grandchildren, and now my great grandchildren. I would rather take all their punishment than to allow them to go to hell. O Jesus, hear my prayers!
I received some disturbing news yesterday. I saw a meeting invite from the president of our division to my 'big' boss to discuss the position of one of the 'chiefs'. I text'd my friend boss and asked her if she knew what was going on - she did not. Around 5PM she text'd me and said that she had been called in to a meeting with our 'big' boss and the other chiefs.... and this one had resigned to go to another company. I was curious if I had received notification as I support this person. Nothing. I checked my emails at that time and there was nothing. I'm disappointed - not that she is leaving, but at my loss of a boss. I really do like her and she is smart and knows her stuff. I like supporting her and she doesn't give me a lot of work, but what she does is detailed and has a lot to do with it.
And I had finished an afghan last night that I had made for her for Christmas. Well, I'm almost finished. This is where I get insecure in my skills. I think it looks great, but the little details at the edges always make me second guess if what I'm doing with it is right. She won't get it now, but with what I'm doing to it, it is good enough to give to anyone.... I just don't have that much confidence in my ability to do it right. At least not right now. Anyway, this boss will be leaving in a few weeks. I'm hoping they will get someone else to support the new one cause I don't need someone who has a lot of work to get done - and I'm already overwhelmed with work most days.
I really do love the quietness of the mornings as I sit here alone. I've already read my devotions, my Bible, and prayed, before I get on here. But as I sit here and think about what to write, I enjoy the quietness of the morning. It is still early, and I'm not having to rush to get things done. I hear some traffic in the distance. But other than that, when I stop typing, I hear ...... silence.
And although God sometimes speaks within the noise of the world, I love it when He speaks to me in the quietness of the day. My thoughts are on Him. I bow down in worship, and glorify His Holy Name. That is what brings peace to my life. In the midst of turmoil, of sorrow, of pain, He alone is the Rock on which I stand. All that I am, all that I have, belongs to Him. Yes, it is a repeat process for me. I always try to take things back... but I shouldn't. He's always in control, not me.
So where do you stand today? Are you standing on the Rock? Or are you still in with the pebbles? Give Jesus a try. You won't be disappointed.
I think I'll sit here in silence for a few minutes. Try it. You just may hear His voice.
Blessings!
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