Ok, obviously I'm not very good at coming up with catchy titles for these messages and today is no exception. I didn't sleep well last night, I'm later than usual getting started on this as I kept wanting to fall back to sleep in my chair. And did succeed a few minutes. The room is cold (to me) and I'm bundled up in my prayer shawl and blanket wrapped all around me... nice and cozy... yeah, I could easily go back to sleep again.
But then, I remembered. I signed up to donate blood this morning. At 8:15AM. What was I thinking? Well, I knew I would be up, that wasn't the problem. But going OUT early in the morning when the temps are below 60 degrees... not real smart on my part. I should have waited until it warmed up some in the day. I just finished my "fast track" and took a photo of the bar code so I am ready. Well, not dressed, but ready in the part of having that part completed.
I told my boss that I would work today. By Wednesday I was telling her I may work 4 hours and take 4 hours off. Now I'm thinking I don't want to work at all. This is the day after Thanksgiving so it is my option. I do have some critical minutes I still need to complete so think I will work part of the day. Very few are working today (of office staff) so it doesn't matter whether I work or not. Both of my bosses are off today.
My original plan for today is to cook a turkey this afternoon and all that goes with it and have my son and DIL and grandson over for dinner. Currently that is still the plan. Then I read his blog last night and got to thinking they may not want turkey two days in a row. So I left a note on his blog to let me know what he wants to do. The turkey will be fine in the refrigerator if we wait a few days more before baking it. And I can actually bake it any day since I am at home. Well, except for Tuesday night. Will see if he responds and what he responds. If I don't hear from him by 1PM, I will be putting the turkey in the oven and starting all the trimmings. He may have all the leftovers they can handle right now. Maybe Sunday evening would work better for them. Well, will wait and see what he says.
We did have a nice Thanksgiving yesterday. My daughter, her son, and myself did our annual "turkey trot". We walked nearly 4 miles, and my body sure told me the rest of the day it wasn't happy. I know I am out of shape, especially since I haven't been walking at all. My hip joints were hurting and I could barely move the rest of the day. It makes me sad for I want to be able to move about.
So what am I going to do about it? I am going to get back into exercising again. I have to. For myself. I have several exercise programs and although I don't have a lot of space in this room until I pass on the bed and get a futon in here, I can still use my small hand weights to build up strength.
Oh yeah, I just remembered. I signed up for the 50 squats a day starting December 1 through December 31 I think it is, for the American Cancer Society. They want it to be a fundraiser, but I just don't do that. I will join in, just to make myself get some exercise and it will be good for the legs and booty. But then, my booty doesn't need to get any bigger! I was telling my daughter about it yesterday that she should do it because it would GIVE her a booty! LOL Between being extremely active and a diabetic, she is but bones. I really don't know if I can do it - but I think I can, and I will give it my best shot. Besides, it will help me physically.
And, because I have thrown myself off my regular diet this past month and have eaten so much candy and carbs and anything else I can get my hands on (i.e., ice cream, french fries).... I shutter to see what the scales will show. So I refuse to get on them. But since my jeans were a bit tight yesterday, I would probably say I have gained a few pounds.
Sigh. Tis the season. What am I going to do about it? Sigh.
I remember way back when.... my daughter in law was studying for a class and she had a dish of M&Ms by her. I think I commented on the dish... and probably the fact they wouldn't have M&Ms still in it if it was me (after all, it is chocolate). She told me that it was (now my memory may not be serve me exact) her reward. She would read a couple pages then would allow herself a couple M&Ms. It really struck me how disciplined she was on completing her task. It wasn't just reading it and forcing herself through it, but she gave herself rewards along the way and it made it much easier to get through (I think).
Now don't ask me why that memory popped up in my mind this morning. I've thought of it often through the years.... but here I am talking about needing to lose weight, and I am reminded about discipline in rewarding yourself.
There just may be something in that, do you think? No, I don't think one day's exercise for ten minutes should reward me with a pecan cluster caramel blizzard, even a mini one. But it might, if I had to have it, be good enough for a reward of an M&M. LOL It's all about discipline. I'm usually pretty good about not eating candy. Then my brother sends me a box of chocolate. Yes, there are still several pieces left. Well, perhaps not several. But there are some.
Discipline. Living life requires discipline. You get up in the morning.... then what will you do with your day? You go to work. You cook meals. You exercise (well, some do), You take care of your family. You relax some. You go to bed. The next day you start all over. But even with what is 'routine', many things need to be disciplined. Sometimes you have to 'make' yourself do something.
That's what so cool about God. It's all about choices. He doesn't MAKE us follow Him. He doesn't force us to obey Him. He doesn't slap us when we do things wrong (sometimes I wish He would!). He gives us a free choice of disciplining our lives to honor and praise Him. It's our choice if we want to follow Him. It's our choice to do good. It's our choice to spend time with Him, to worship Him, to give Him thanks for all things.
And that's why I love Him so much. He's my Heavenly Father, and He loves me unconditionally. Even when I overeat, don't exercise, and don't obey what I know I should do. When I go to Him each morning, He is always waiting for me. We have an appointment and I always want to keep it. God first. Me last.
And that's how I get through my day.
Blessings!
No comments:
Post a Comment