My oldest son needed to get in to see a specific specialist. He waits a few days, then makes the phone call - and gets in the following day! And another specialist he needs to see - he sees the next day! Don't tell me that God isn't good and doesn't listen to prayers!
And then, on the other hand... hubby needed to get in to see a specialist after his recent doctor visit... and his specialist appointment is October 3 - what's up with the delay? I have no answer, but can only think it is possibly because in his asking for a doctor in this practice.... he wanted in this area. Not the first one who has an availability - wherever the office is located, but in this area. And I get that. We try to get people we will see on a fairly regular basis in the area we live in so that it's easier to get to. So his one specialist is October 3rd.... I'm not sure what's going on with the other issue. I think they are waiting on this doctor's report and the ultrasound results before moving on. Hubby has been discouraged, of course, because he can't 'see' what is going on in his body, and as you know, he has a great fear of being sick and dying. We all are going to die, but when he asks me if he is dying, I only respond with "we are trying to get to the root of the issues so that we know what will make you better." What else can I say?
Since his diagnosis, I admit, I have been somewhat anxious about him. He never complained much before of not feeling well. And I get it; now that you know it is legit and you ARE sick, it's easy to fall back into the "I am sick, that is why I feel this way" thinking. But yesterday...
I had breakfast with my boss (took me an hour to get there!!) and he had his ultrasound. When I got back home, as I opened the back door quietly, I thought I heard him snoring. No biggie; he often falls asleep in his chair. Unfortunately, I made some noise as I came in and by the time I got to the living room, he was awake. He looked terrible. I asked him if he was ok. He said he didn't feel good, felt nauseated, and very very tired and weak. I let it go for awhile, then went back and asked if I should take him to the ER (as Dr. Mark told us to do if he felt sick), but he said no. He started moving around and didn't say anything else about not feeling well.
This morning he has training with Morgan. She has been letting him choose what area of body he wanted to work on and has lightened his weights. She told me last night that he grumbles that he doesn't feel like he is achieving much right now (with exercise), but she reminded him that at 88, at least he is getting up and going to the gym and doing SOMETHING - as most his age would say it's too much effort. Morgan does try to encourage him to keep coming and doing something.... and he has showered this morning and I know he has an 8:30AM with her this morning. At least I think he does.
I try to watch him and pay attention to what he is doing; I don't know what things I should watch for. I am trying to cook better meals as I have gotten very lazy with cooking lately. We have eaten out way too much and with it costing so much to eat out anymore, we have been spending way too much money for other people to cook our food. Going out with friends is one thing, but we need to pull out of just going because I don't want to cook - or hubby doesn't want me to cook cause he knows I'm tired. We have also started sharing meals, although the other night hubby acted like I was taking too much of 'HIS' food (I wasn't; I think he was just confused for there was a great variety). We all know he loves to eat (more so than I do) and always cleans his plate up. We are from the age that we had to growing up.
My stepfather would not let us get up from the table until our plate was empty. When he wanted fried pigs brains (yes, that is such a thing), he made mother fix it and he would force us kids to eat it. I would throw up - and still had to come back and clean my plate. Then run to the bathroom again to throw up. It took me YEARS before I could ever eat a scrambled egg again.
I have a lot of work to get done for the office today. I am behind in getting meetings scheduled for 2026 and will need to truly focus on it these next few days. I have 5 calendars that I need to make sure that the meetings are extended for 2026 and then I also have to get all the meetings I do from my own calendar (board meetings, preps, reviews, etc.) on the calendars for next year too. It is a focused chore, and I still have to keep up on daily things. But I am hoping if I focus on one calendar a day, I can get them all completed soon - but I do need to get the board meetings on the calendars.
I stopped and picked up sour cream last night so that I can make strawberry bread this weekend. It really is good. I called my daughter to see what she thought about it, but she hadn't tried it yet. Need to use up the rest of the pumpkin and perhaps make pumpkin nut muffins - and of course my cranberry pumpkin nut bread. Got to clean out my freezer and find a place to put them. Also a task for this weekend.
Got distracted - I remembered I finished a book this morning that I have been reading in the mornings and had to jump on Goodreads to record it. I'm at 40 of 50 books - it says I'm 4 ahead for the year... but I am not sure I can meet my goal again this year - I got so close last year - and didn't meet the goal. I guess I need to get hubby to leave the tv off more and let me read more. :-) Either that or I have too many books going at the same time and will finish them all about the same time. I do enjoy reading. But I enjoy baking too - and that is where my time ends up going in the next couple of months - baking. Oh well - I can set the same goal for next year as well.
I John 2:1 (NIV) My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have an advocate with the Father - Jesus Christ, the Righteous One.
Did you know that by Jesus' death He has become our advocate with our Heavenly Father? Think about it - when we sin, the devil rushes to tell God all the bad stuff we have done. And sometimes our list may be long.... BUT JESUS... as our Advocate, stands there with His Father and says to the devil, "Nope, My blood covered that one; NOT GUILTY." And the more Satan goes on and on about how bad we are and how we deserve to go to hell with the devil..... Jesus says, "Father, My blood covered every one of those sins" - and there isn't anything the devil can do! You can just imagine how frustrated he gets when Jesus tells him "You can't have them, My blood covers that sin" and as we confess each sin we commit, Jesus covers us with His blood. We are redeemed by Jesus Christ, the Righteous One. So very grateful.
The devil will also try to convince you how bad you have been. He will try to make you feel so guilty about things you have done in the past. He will remind you constantly of how horrible a person you are.... but when we have confessed those things to Jesus and sought Him for forgiveness, His blood covers us - from the top of our head to the bottom of our feet. It doesn't mean we don't suffer the consequences of our past.... but it does mean our lives are covered by Jesus' blood and that we will reign with Him in heaven when our end comes.
That alone is reassuring, don't you think? Something to think about - Jesus is our Advocate and will defend us. He is our Friend.
Blessings!
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