I don't usually get on the computer on Sunday mornings - especially before church - yet, here I am this morning. I guess now that I have the computer in my room, I can do whatever I want, right? However, I have been doing my quiet time and was sitting here thinking about how much time I have left before I have to start getting ready for church - the advantages of a late service - and decided I had enough time to write a short blog. As if I write short blogs.
Actually, lately, I have just been writing nonsense... just thoughts. Definitely not what I intended this blog to be. I just kind of lost my way for awhile, I think. Life is not easy. I get frustrated, and discouraged, as many of you do as well.
Work is going well... but lately I've often wished I could quit work. But I can't. Not yet. Hubby commented the other day did I ever feel bad we can't do things like other retired people do. I honestly told him yes. I don't envy them for being able to travel and do things and not work. I resent that he chose to not stay with a job long enough to build a pension and that he refused to find a job when he lost the last one. I blame him I cannot retire and do things. I am not big into traveling, so that's not it for me. But I would like to be able to choose to work and not have to work. My big plus is that I do have a good job and I make good money. Good thing - we have to have my check. As far as my pensions - I pulled them out a long time ago because he didn't work and we had big bills to pay. So for now, I'm stuck working. Thank God I'm healthy. I just get discouraged at times that I don't get a choice.
I told hubby a couple weeks ago that I was going to retire next year. You could have heard his head snap as he turned to look at me and ask 'why?'. LOL First thing we would have to do is sell the house and I have 20-ish years of stuff to go through and dispose of. I'm giving away to anyone who wants anything. I know my kids don't want anything - other than my daughter has commented she wants the grandmother clock. I'm ready to let go.
But there are things I want passed down my family - I have my daddy's (about 6 of them) books and his Bible. I have my mother's Bible. I don't want strangers to get them. I have a few other things that belonged to my mother or my dad... I need to determine who would not lose them or throw them away... and give to them. I've already started giving my dolls away. I paid over $100 for most of them so I hope they don't get tossed. I need to sort out what I have left.
Geez - sounds like I'm getting melancholy here! Just a lot of things on my mind that I want to do - and should do. I need to start downsizing so cleaning out has got to happen. I need to close my eyes and just let go. I don't need all this 'stuff'.
And...I need to stop and get off here.... this is too convenient now. Got to fix breakfast and get ready for church. Hope you have an awesome Sunday - it's hot here in Phoenix!
Blessings!
2 comments:
Being the book guy I am, I would take those books. You never offered up books before. Talk to Beth about the dolls. I am sure she, and you, would love to set Doodad up with one or two....
And if need be, I would hold other things you don't want a stranger to have. At least I will until I feel the need to pass it to someone that ... will appreciate it.
As much as I would love to give you my books, you won't read them, I'm afraid. They are books by Max Lucado, Mark Batterson, and many other authors I enjoy reading. Any books I have that you would want, you are welcome to take. Do you want my dad's books? They are old, and he used them in ministry. I would like to pass on to someone who would pass them on. Beth has a couple of my dolls already that I had marked for her. I have one more that I told her was to go to her. I do have one thing that I will pass on to you. It belonged to my great-grandfather, I think. Anything I have, you are welcome to. Just let me know you want it, and if I'm ready to let go of it, you can take it with you.
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