It's ok. Not what I could say "really good" now, but it's ok. The nightmare of last weekend has ended... permanently, I hope. It's amazing how a bottle of booze and 12 2mg blood pressure pills can scare the heck out of people. Other than, please excuse my bluntness, looking totally stupid, I have no idea of what he was trying to accomplish. True, he tells me that his VA doctor had told him the BP pills would help him sleep and to take them at night. Hadn't heard that one before. So, according to my son, he had taken two, and when they didn't make him sleepy (along with the bottle of booze), he took more, and then more, because he wanted to go to sleep.
Of course being the drama queen his wife created a huge problem for him by calling his "work wife" and telling her he had taken a handful of pills and of course the 'real wife' was told to call 911. DUH. Why would you call someone $40 of UBER distance away to take care of YOUR spouse? She was at first asked why did the "work wife" get called - why didn't the "real wife" call the mother-in-law or one of the siblings. Her response? "Because they told me not to call them". Well, there is a reason for that.
I don't need to be called / text'd every time he starts drinking and calling her names. I don't need to be told to call my son because he is acting weird. I don't need to call my son when he's depressed and drinking. I talk to my son periodically - and usually sober - he isn't going to listen to me when he's drunk. He doesn't listen to me when he's sober. So yes, I don't answer my phone when she calls, and I don't usually respond to the texts when it's about my son.
But in this case, I may have gotten more involved. But with all this being said, he has been in a BH facility all week, and has hopes of getting out today. First time this week he didn't call me yesterday - which was disappointing. I wanted an update. I don't know if he's getting out today or what is going on. I hope he calls me later and lets me know either way.
He is doing better. He really does need to cut back the drinking and get help for his depression. Of course that would mean he needs to get a divorce, and only he can make that call. Yes, his "real wife" is the cause of his stress and depression. Totally understandable just from when we have been around her. I don't think she feels any of this is 'her' fault. And it isn't ALL her fault. But she needs to understand she is the major portion of it. Her and her family. Three days of being around her family was too much for him to handle. All but one sister is just like her. I think I would take up drinking if I was around them. Geez, did I really type that out loud?
BUT - on a positive and happy note - today I am off work and getting ready to head north for our 3rd annual Jailbreak Getaway! I am mentally and physically exhausted and I am so ready to get away from life for awhile and knit and talk and geo-caching and shopping and whatever else we want to do. Depending on when the granddaughter gets off work today is when we will head north. I opted to take the day off because I really need a mental health day too.
And, I've started seeking God for another job. Yes, I do enjoy my job, but this one boss is way over my head with things she wants me to do. She is a pro in Excel and she was showing me yesterday a huge critical confidential project she wants me to be the 'master' of and input updated information. Unfortunately, what my problem is, I don't know excel. And at age 68 I have no eagerness to learn. Knowing it will not advance my career. I don't want to advance. I want to retire. I'm already tired of driving 26 miles one way 5 days a week. I do enjoy the aloneness because I don't get that when I'm home. I have silence if I want it, the radio or make a phone call if I don't. But the wear and tear of the daily drive is wearing me out. Whine, whine, whine.
When I go in Monday, unless I just email her this weekend as the big meeting is on Monday, I will ask her to assign that important task to an admin who created the excel report for her and knows how to use it. And loves excel. I may have step down from my position, but that's ok. It's just a title. Yes, the money is very good, but God will provide what we need. We will need to sell the house if I lose my job, but that's ok. I'm not attached to this house. But, the mortgage isn't bad - what is bad is that the upkeep is almost as much as the house payment. By the time hubby has added a landscaper, a pool guy, security, home warranty, sewer insurance, etc it all adds. up. Ok I'm done.
I'm going to stop and start my packing. I am so ready. Van is getting an oil change and a tire rotation this morning, and all the fluids checked. I'm praying they don't find anything wrong. Last time I had to buy two new tires. I'm driving my van up north. Hubby is at his breakfast study with the men so I have a few hours alone. I'm loving it.
Grandson's 20th birthday today. I've already text'd him and we will take him out to dinner next week. I was going to just give him $ last night, but was asked why didn't I take him out. I haven't in the past because I always felt he was too busy. He is, after all, a teenager. But I will make it a point now to take each of the grandsons out - grandchildren, actually. :-) It's all good.
Gotta get busy! Hope you have a great weekend! God is good - all the time God is good.
Blessings!
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