the way you want them to. I just wrote a whole paragraph but decided to delete it. It wasn't about me, or any of my family, but about an unmet friend whose family has persecuted her unmercifully and we have prayed - and the judge ruled in her favor today. It doesn't change anything, and her sisters will again torment her another way. But at least she knows that God is hearing prayers and answering on her behalf.
And sometimes we all need to know that, don't we? I know I have prayed many prayers that God's answer seems to be 'Not Yet' - and as much as I don't like that answer, I know that His timing is best, even when I don't agree. But there are other times that it proves that His timing is a lot better than mine. Grateful He will overrule some of my requests and respond as He knows best.
Work was busy again yesterday, but I did get a breather about 3PM. The last hour wasn't as hectic as the other hours. I've decided to keep working (for now) as long as I can be remote, and I am able to keep up on everything. It is the only thing that is keeping my mind active. Plus, I do like the income. :-) It pays the bills, right. It gives me play money. And that's important. :-)
I had a hankering to go visit my siblings this fall. Unfortunately, with my little sister so jealous of time I spend with our older brother (whom she does not have a relationship with - but that is her own fault), that it causes me a great amount of stress. She counts the days and nights (and probably the hours!) that I spend with him. I've told her that I do have a relationship with him, and I will see him and spend time with him. Her tongue and behavior finally broke the bank with him. I keep forgiving and letting it go, but he reached his limit. Of course he is in the same state; I am not, and don't know all the stuff. Nor do I want to. I have a relationship with all my siblings. And I am grateful for that. I get amused (and sometimes angry) that a couple of my siblings will state how close they were to mother, or to our older brother or older sister - who have all passed away. And I don't believe them. Why? Because I talked with them (before they passed, duh), and they complained that they weren't visited, that this child or that one had done something that hurt them, how they don't even call..... and yet, they claim they were so close. And I will leave that there. It stirs up hurt feelings in my heart. They can believe they were the favorite; I don't care. I know the truth. Anyway - I really thought about going to visit, and of course we need to visit hubby's brother.... the airline cost didn't deter me.... but trying to work out my schedule in between board meetings and timecards.... it was hard finding time.... and I didn't want to take my work computer with me. But as I thought about the stress and the behavior that comes from my visit... I decided against it. I would rather they come visit me, when they can have me all to themselves.
I sit here and my mind is empty of anything to write this morning. The word 'heal' has come to mind and I looked up some scriptures. But none speak to me. Perhaps they will to you.
Psalm 147:3 (NKJV): He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
Psalm 103:3 (NKJV): Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases.
Proverbs 16:34 (NKJV): Pleasant words are like a honeycomb, sweetness to the soul and health to the bones.
Isaiah 53:5 (NKJV): But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities,; the chastisement for our peace was upon Him, and by His stripes we are healed.
Jeremiah 3:22 (NKJV): "Return, you backsliding children, and I will heal your backslidings." "Indeed, we do come to You, for You are the Lord our God."
and one of my very own life-verses...
Jeremiah 17:14 (NKJV): Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed. Save me, and I shall be saved, for You are my praise.
Perhaps one of these will speak to you. Jesus IS our Healer; of physical wounds, of emotional wounds, of those wounds that strike the heart. Lean into Him and trust Him. His timing, and His answers, are always good. He heals the broken-hearted.
Blessings!
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