You know, I'm getting really tired of waking up with my head hurting! Although part of it may be the storm that is brewing, some may be that I didn't sleep well - and I'm not sure why. We went to bed at a little before our usual time, I guess, and it took me a little while to fall asleep. Then at 10 something I woke up and started my tossing and turning, dozing off and on. When awake, I'd pray. So I think people (including my children) were prayed for numerous times last night. Which is always a good thing. I'd ask God when I was awake "who am I to be praying for that You keep waking me up?' And then I'd start all over. So when I finally arose at 4AM, my head was hurting (and still is) and I'm tired. But that's part of praying for others. Sometimes I may get a specific name; other times it is just a general sense to pray. I don't mind those times at all.
I ordered a new book this morning already. Fire on the Family Altar by Cheryl Sacks. It is just now coming out. I have known Cheryl for probably 30 years and have been involved in the Bridgebuilders for years. I support them occasionally financially. So I was not surprised to get an email from her this morning sharing about her book. I read the portion she had included of the first chapter. It is going to be a great book! Actually, she had copies of her book about 6 weeks ago and I almost got a copy... but her permission to open the box didn't come until after I left that building. We need to go back to family altars and families praying together. I'm interested in reading it and went to amazon and got it ordered. Should be here tomorrow. whoo hoo!
Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday and that means 40 days until Palm Sunday. Preparation for Easter and Passion Week. Easter isn't all about Easter bunnies and little chicks and colorful eggs... and chocolate... but that is what we have made it. We need to go back to getting our focus on the REASON Ash Wednesday, Palm Sunday, and Easter are all about! I have sometimes fasted during these 40 days .... and I still may, but I'm not sure what I want to do. Since it starts tomorrow, I reckon I need to figure it out, huh!
One disastrous, yet beneficial, thought occurred to me. Actually, a couple did, but I know that hubby would not go for one of them at all. I could do my BBCD fast.... I've done it often enough that I can do it without much grumbling. And that is probably what I will end up with. But other thoughts I had were..... no eating out for 40 days (could you even imagine hubby not eating out for this length of time?).... here's one I thought of and I think have discarded it easily enough.... no shopping for 40 days. Other than groceries. I'm thinking no shopping for books (going shopping doesn't do anything for me) for 40 days. I don't know that I can do that. That would be a hard one for me. But maybe I ought to try.
The purpose of a fast is to put your attention on Jesus and off of our wants. Within a fast one can ask (sometimes desperately) for salvation of someone, healing of someone.... when we put Jesus first, He listens. I don't know what I will do just yet... may do something for a few days... may not.... I'm asking God what does He want me to do. He may or may not answer me specifically, but leave it up to me - what do I want to give up for Him? Ah... the big question. Not to do it in obedience to Him, but to do it because I want to. What shall I do? What shall I choose? I always have to contend with hubby... he usually doesn't want to join me in this fast. He will do the first of the year, but this one, not so much.
Which reminds me, there is a book I like to read these 40 days and I need to pull it off the bookcase and put it in here. Journey to the Cross by Paul David Tripp. I know I have shared things over the years as I read it, and I probably will this time as well. Actually, I think I have only had it two years. But what a remarkable and thoughtful book.
Hubby is meeting a friend for breakfast this morning. They don't have Bible study today. Still don't know why he didn't go last week; it wasn't because it was Valentine's day. As soon as he leaves, I'm hoping to throw in a load of my laundry. tee hee. Hopefully I can get it done before he gets back again. If not, he will be moaning and groaning about having to do laundry. LOL I can do mine; he just won't 'let' me so I sneak and do it when he isn't home.
I decided to take Friday off work since I have the women's conference in Gilbert this Friday evening. I have to take off work early tomorrow for my pre-opt appointment with the eye doctor, so hated to take off early on Friday as well. So just took the entire day off. Figure breakfast with hubby will keep him happy; then I can leave around 1PM and head over; grab lunch, check in the hotel at 3PM and get settled in before meeting my friends at the church at 5PM. So glad I'm staying at the hotel. I saw the total bill yesterday and kept telling myself "I'm worth it, I'm worth it".
Oh, did I tell you that I finally shared with hubby my thoughts about moving things around? He actually was ok with it and Saturday morning he asked if I wanted to move the one recliner in to is office that I want part to be a 'reading area'. We moved it, but I don't like it there. I think two recliners in that area crowds the room. So I'm thinking of moving my unused treadmill in to the garage and then move that specific recliner in to the back room and get started on making that my prayer room. Or quiet room. Or early morning room. Whatever one wants to call it. There are so many distractions in here and if we have company, I get moved out anyway.... He seemed to be ok with my thoughts... but some things I want to do without him, figure out how I want things, etc. Let him see the end result and not be part of it. Make sense? Now if I had moved that recliner by myself and saw it didn't fit well, I would have moved it right back where it was. But, it is still where we moved it. Eventually I will get things figured out.
Whoops - just knocked my coffee cup off the table - grateful I had just emptied it! I was looking at it thinking I may need another cup this morning to help this headache... and I'm not sure what I did, but knocked it off. Oh well.
And, I'm rambling about nothing now.... are you even still reading this? Perhaps in hopes of finding a treasure? My head hurts so you get what you get today..... sorry. But I will leave you with this....
John 3:16 (NKJV): "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life."
Believe in Jesus, the only begotten Son of God. Choose life.
Blessings!
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