and you probably know whom I am referring to. Yep. My little sister. She started again yesterday morning about the training .... and I told her - again - that her son had sent her money, if training is what she wanted to spend it on - go for it. I finally lost my patience with her going back and forth and excuses (she always has excuses)... and told her "Girl, get over yourself!" She responded "Well, that is a bit harsh." So I told her plainly what she was doing. What she had said she wanted in the beginning of all this - just enough training, 2-3 times on the equipment, so that she would know what to do. I get that. I would want that too. But because (I'm just guessing here) I have continued my training for nearly two years now that she wants to do MORE than just a couple. I don't care what she does. If she can get her son to pay for it - or find the money herself - go for it. Sometimes she just drives me crazy!
Probably like the crazy I drive my kids sometimes when I can't make up MY mind, right? No, I don't think I'm that bad. Really. (am I?)
I did not sleep well last night and I do not know why. I was awake two hours after I went to sleep and from then on it was doze and wake up, doze and wake up. I finally got up around 3:45am and tried to sleep in here, but could not. The problem with coming out of the bed is that if hubby wakes up and realizes I'm not there, he will come in here or go throughout the house trying to find me. So then I hear his feet shuffling on the tile floor and it wakes me, then he has to ask 'why are you up' and want a response and well, surprisingly, with all my talking there, he didn't get up until nearly 5AM. Surprisingly too, because he slept in his chair a few times yesterday - and still seems to have slept all night.
Our dinner with friends last night got moved to tonight. I'm thinking of moving it to next week as I have training at 4:30 and they want to meet up at 5:45... it would be pushing it for me to get home, pick up hubby, and throw on jeans (instead of my workout shorts). I'll check on them today to confirm - it was her husband with his back this time - it was her back last week. Praise God I don't have back issues.
But then, my hip bone started hurting during the night again, with the pin prick inside my leg. Same thing every time, only no shooting pain down the leg this time. I know it is hard to explain to the doctor, and they don't 'see' it because there is nothing to 'see' on the outside. It's inside the leg that is causing me problems. The pain is gone now - it comes and goes - which is also weird. Maybe I'm just weird? Don't answer that!
Went to visit Ms. Vicky last night. I know she gets lonely. But now she is starting to ask to include her when we go out to eat, or go somewhere. It's not that I mind taking her, but hubby (and I'm not blaming him) does not have patience ... although he is just as slow as she is... she uses a walker to get around. I lose my patience with him sometimes.... and I think he does it intentionally - walks slower - at times, just to make me stop and wait for him. Not that I walk fast with him, but I start walking, thinking he is with me, and then stop and turn around and he's 15 feet behind me! So I wait for him to catch up. It's not that I'm walking off from him (I don't think) - I just start walking, expecting him being behind me. Anyway, this is about the third time Ms. Vicky has asked me to take her with us when we go somewhere. I don't commit. But I will find a time that I can get away for a quick lunch and ask if she wants to go with me. Don't get me wrong - we are friends, as well as neighbors, but I have enough problems with hubby, if you know what I mean. I need my 'free' time... and yet, I don't want to hurt anyone.... once in awhile won't hurt me to take her with me somewhere. I just don't want her dependent upon me like she is on another one of her friends. Does that make sense? This friend takes her everywhere every time she calls. I don't have that capability. Her friend is single. I'm not. Does any of this rambling make sense? I know - if this was one of my children or grandchildren, I'd be finding time, right? That's different. They still have their own lives. I guess it's because hubby is so dependent upon me (if I want to go out, he wants to go with me), that I don't want someone else to be. Am I nuts?
I got an email from one of my friends at work who I covered for last week. It was interesting that she shared that while on her trip she had to deal with forgiving someone in her women's group. She mentioned that she had been carrying unforgiveness for awhile and the Lord really dealt with her about it while she was resting on the beach. She worked through it and was finally able to forgive this woman for some things she had said. I found it interesting that she wrote about withholding forgiveness, when just the other day I wrote about the consequences of unforgiveness. See, it isn't just in my family, it's in everyone's life. Someone is always offending someone - and the seed is planted. How we want it to grow is how often we water it.
Update on my quail family.... Mama and a couple babies were walking under my window yesterday morning. Papa was walking on the outskirts of the courtyard. The babies, there were 2-3 of them, were like a week or so old. I checked on the remaining eggs in the pot and I think there are 4 left out of 12 that were laid. This is the one nest in the aloe vera plant. (all the eggs in the other pot hatched at the same time) These little babies can jump as high as their parents! I watched these little babies jump up to the ledge and then on up to the roof - following their mama!! I hope all the eggs eventually hatch and find their mama. I keep checking all the pots now, to see if we have any more nests! I really do need to clean up the courtyard. It's really cluttered. Maybe this Saturday I can get out for a couple hours and get it straightened up.
So many things I want to do - but I can't do them while hubby is home. He always wants to help - but never takes the initiative to do it himself. For three weeks he has told me he wants to take down the filter (it is the old metal filters) from the air conditioner and take it out and hose it down (get the lint off or whatever it is). I will remind him this weekend so we can get it done and he can quit asking me if I will help him (he won't get on the stepstool if I'm not here to make sure he won't fall) get it down. Maybe I need to make a list - help him with the air filter, then I can go out in the courtyard and get rid of some things and straighten it up. Maybe I'll even go and buy some plants.... sigh... such a waste of money cause the sun burns them up. But they do look pretty for awhile.
Or I could continue to 'be my mother' and plant artificial flowers. I do have artificial flowers in the big pot outside the gate. I don't care, it looks pretty, but tulips probably should be removed now, ya think? I need to find another artificial flower to put there. LOL
Well, I have nothing for you this morning. My heart is heavy, my eyes are sleepy, and I'm tired. Groaning over a workday doesn't help either, does it! I have time before work (since I was up early) so I will take a leisurely shower and then get ready for work. Oh lucky me - and I am - I do have a job. I wish they'd offer me early retirement. Like with a 'settlement' to retire with, right? I got a year's pay when I 'retired' from my first company. I would do that.
And so - I will leave you with this today....
May the Lord bless you and keep you, make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you. May He turn His face towards you, and give you peace. Amen.
Blessings!
