What in the world is that, you wonder? I have no idea, but the idea kind of scares me, wouldn't it you? I don't know where that came from in my dream... I'm going to think I had a few dreams last night, for the dream that I woke up with remembering, isn't one of humility. It wasn't a nice dream and I am trying hard to remove it from my mind and not think about so, so that I don't remember it. It was abusive and stupid. I have no idea where it came from. But the words The Humility Tour came at the beginning of that bad dream. So did I dream before of something - or are the words telling me something is coming that will cause me great humiliation? Is the thought even for me? I don't know. It was just all so weird.
Enjoyed a good dinner with my youngest and his wife last night. Bubba's 33 - we hadn't eaten there before and I had to go look at the menu before we went so that I'd have an idea of what I'd get. I still didn't. It all looked so good! I ended up with a 5 oz salmon over rice and a side salad. I kid you not - that side salad was pretty big and I wasn't hungry at all after I ate it (I got it first) but did manage to eat the salmon - then had to just quick stop quit. My stomach would not take any more in. And they had diet coke. I just can't drink pepsi. I was a happy camper.
Hubby and my son both got the signature ribeye - I understand it is soaked in expresso which gives it a really good flavor - I took a bite of hubby's - and wow - it was good. I could not believe hubby ate all his (it was huge - nearly filled the entire plate!) plus mashed potatoes, gravy, and coleslaw. My son could only eat about 1/2 of his steak, and his wife got a double hamburger with lots of toppings and onion rings. She didn't eat but a few bites. I ate one of her onion rings and it was so good - not greasy like some are. The hamburger was huge - I couldn't have eaten it all either. Price-wise - it wasn't bad at all. I would say it was like many others. The steaks they chose were $25.99; my salmon was $15.99... I don't remember the hamburger cost but similar to mine, I think. All in all, a great meal and we had a good time. I would go there again, although it was noisy even at 4:30PM because spring training had just let out and it is across the street from the restaurant so many people went over. It was pretty full.
My eye is still doing well and I can't wait to get the left eye done. I still have a small bruise under my right eye, which is from the shots, I'm going to guess - or perhaps they had to clamp my eye open? I don't know and don't need to know! I'm grateful I was totally out as far as I was concerned to the entire surgery. So grateful for that. I've heard of people who just had the eye numbed and they "watched" all that happened. No thank you.
It sounds like it is raining outside. Too dark to peek outside. I thought it was to start tonight. Maybe I hear the sprinklers? Hmm. now it doesn't sound like it. Am I hearing things? I kid you not, this past week I have heard things that I hadn't before ... noises from the duplex net door. I had hubby go with me one day last week and we went through the entire section to see if anything was amiss - it was not. This morning I again thought I heard like water running (again)... I may get hubby to go over with me again when he gets back from bible study. I only hear it when I get up in the mornings at 4AM and am in my bathroom. That is what is so weird. I come in here and hear nothing from the other side.
Which reminds me, I am to go pick up Ms. Amy this Saturday and bring her to her house for awhile. Not sure what is going on across the street with Ms. Diane. When we came back from dinner, all three of her children were there... on a Monday night... which makes me nervous. I will call her today to see if she is ok. Were they talking to her about going to an assisted living? She has agreed to go, for I have talked to her about it numerous times as well. She really can no longer take care of herself and she has literally quit eating except for when someone brings her something - and she is a diabetic. She has lost so much weight she looks like a skeleton, even with her clothes on. I hope she is ok. I've come to love these women, and Ms. Vicky next door too. I need to call and check on her as well. I call them all my 'community project'. LOL
Our cleaning people are coming this morning and of course we straighten things up before they get here. I empty my waste baskets and pick things up off the floor. Oh wait - I can't do that yet! LOL Hubby will just have to come in here and do it ... or I can get down on my knees and move things.... and then hope I can get back up! Actually, this room and my bathroom aren't that bad. And I get all my yarn projects together in the front room. I'm actually real excited in that over the past two-three days I have finished 3 baby blankets and a two-three dishcloths! I usually have a half-dozen or so projects going on at one time. Ugh - just remembered I really should straighten up that desk in the exercise room - it has become the catch-all for a lot of things.
Anyway- my projects - I start one thing and then need to start another... until I have several going. I decided I needed to finish up some... and have done so. I still have about 5 projects I can see in here .. I'll get to them eventually. Sometimes I just need to work on another color!
Jeremiah 17:7-8 (NKJV): "Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, and whose hope is the Lord. For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters, which spreads out its roots by the river, and will not fear when heat comes; but its leaf will be green, and will not be anxious in the year of drought, nor will cease from yielding fruit."
I love reading the biographies and the stories of men and women who believed in God and trusted in Him alone. They inspire me, and give me strength for the journey ahead of me. I know my life past has been full of ups and downs, and I'm sure my future paths will be as well. But I want them to be strengthened as a tree planted by the waters, because I trust in the Lord.
Why do I trust in Him? Because He has proven to be all that I need. When I have fallen flat on my face, He is the One who picks me up and sets my feet on solid ground. When our finances and been so bad I didn't know what to do, when I cried out to Him, He has always provided just what we needed to get us through that rough patch. When I needed a friend, He provided those. When I needed an outlet to share my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions... like I do right here.... he used my son to set this blog up for me. See, you didn't really think about that, did you?
I have always loved to write. I wish I could pull thoughts together to do what I love to do... maybe if I ever retire before I die I will sit before my computer and ask God to give me words to write. I didn't know it when my son offered to set this up for me, how valuable it will become to me to write my thoughts out.. Oh I still use journals, but not like I did before. I use my journals now mostly for prayers versus all my thoughts and feelings. But this blog has served - and does still serve - its purpose of allowing me to ramble, to share my heart, to share God's Word and what it means to me. Thank you, son, for setting it up for me. It has been a 'life-saver' of sorts. And, you have a true 'journal' of my life, don't you? My ups and downs, my angst, my hopes, my dreams.
But out of all of it, I want to show that Jesus is my All in All. I can not do life without Him. I tried and I made a big mess of it. Only when I asked Him to be my Lord and Savior could I survive the mess I had made of my life. I am a better person because of who He is. I love Jesus with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. He leads me through still waters. He restores my soul. I trust Him with my very life, the journey I am on, the prayers I pray. He is the only answer.
Blessings!
