Yeah - it's that 'dreaded Monday' when I have to face the computer all day again. I will get a break when I head over to the daughter's to feed their animals this morning. Yes, I can do that. They arrive back in town tonight so this will be the last morning I need to go over there. I don't mind; it's a break in my routine. I am back to work today and I did not even turn the computer on over the weekend. I do see on my phone, cause I do get my work emails on it too, that I have about 21 messages.... hopefully they aren't for things for me to do. I'll eliminate most of them quickly once I get online in about 20 minutes.
We had a good new years day.... was invited over to a granddaughter's to see their new house. We had a nice visit and lunch and then came home. We didn't do anything after that; the decorations remained. BUT, I did get motivated yesterday and got everything taken down and all but the few things I forgot, are put away in the garage. I even cleaned out some of my dishes, and busted up Amazon boxes of which I had a great collection of. Recycle won't pick up for another week and a half yet, but they are ready to go. It felt good to be busy doing something and I felt even better because I had moved my body and done something. I have gotten so lazy since I've been working from home.
But that is going to change this year. My mind is constantly going on how I am going to move things around and get rid of things and make that back room my exercise room. I almost laughed out loud the other day. I was sharing with someone about my thoughts on making the back room my exercise room, and I overheard hubby telling someone about OUR exercise room. We both need to use it - and we both need to go to the gym. Maybe I can get him to go tonight after I get off work. He always has to decide WHEN we can go, and if I want to go and he doesn't, he grumbles. So I don't go either. But I have gained fat, not just weight, and I need to get healthy again.
The fast is going well, I think. Day one went well, anyway. I refrained from snacking - afterall, I was busy taking down the tree, putting things away. I fixed breakfast (late) and dinner and they were in line with our decision. Hubby frequently asks what he can have, and I tell him that is between him and God. I am not putting him on a fast; that is his choice. He has to decide what to give up and what to eat. He has to choose what God would want him to do. It isn't my decision for him (good thing, I'd be much more strict, I'm afraid). He causes me great weariness because he always wants to do what I do, or keep his focus on what I want to focus on (pretty much). I want to say to him ' Be Yourself'! If God hasn't called you to fast - then don't! But if He has, He will show you what He wants you to give up. And once you say you will give it up - stick to it. I actually wrote down my decision and his - the other day on what we were giving up for 21 days - AND what is the purpose of the fast. By that, I mean, why are we fasting? What is the focus of our prayers?
I am just going to put out here what I am fasting for - the main purpose. That doesn't mean that I am not praying for other things to happen (healing of Tom's body, etc.), but it means that this is important to me and I want to pray for it. My main purpose is that we find a church in which we can plug in and become a part of. Yes, we have said we want to attend a certain church here in the northwest valley, and they do have small groups here in our community that we had hoped to become a part of. But, we did sign up for one a couple months ago after we made that decision.... I emailed the leader and even the pastor overseeing that group. No response. You know how that annoys me. I emailed a week later, still no response. I finally went in to check out the group again and it was no longer listed. It had seemed our best fit. It's possible the group had disbanded and hadn't been removed from the list yet. But I have a problem with no responses to my emails.
And then hubby went into the hospital and the reality that if something happened to him, if I needed someone to walk with me through a serious journey, I had no church family to do so. That troubled me. The church is important to me and the people are there to walk with whomever needs it. So I briefly shared with hubby my feelings on that - perhaps no response is God's way of telling us that is not where He wants us to go. I don't know. We still watch messages; except for various reasons, we haven't the past couple of weeks and that troubles me. We haven't even watched Jentezen Franklin - although I did yesterday when I drove to my daughter's and back - and it was a great message! I told hubby - and reminded him we could watch it on YouTube, but he chose instead to watch football. Maybe I can get him to watch it tonight.
Anyway, I had planned for us to attend this other church yesterday that some friends go to that they say is 'on fire for Jesus'.... but hubby started coughing and sounding congested Saturday evening. He coughed a few times during the night, and was coughing frequently Sunday morning. I finally told him that we needed to not go; I heard that this new virus is like a cold - and not knowing where he got it from, we needed to stay home in case it wasn't just a cold. So I've had him taking Olive Leaf Extract pills and hopefully he will be over it soon - however, I have heard him coughing some this morning as well. When I got up about 4:20AM to come into my room, he was already up and when he brought my coffee in, he commented that his shoulder kept him awake all night.
I don't understand why he goes to therapy for his shoulder when it is arthritis and there is nothing they can do about that. I don't understand why they don't just give him a shot of cortisone to help with the pain so that he can sleep. I get it the cortisone will wear off in a few months and it will require another shot, etc. and that eventually it won't help. So then what? He has complained about that shoulder for years and now it is a constant complaint. He can barely move that shoulder without wincing and yelping even a small amount. Maybe there isn't anything to help arthritis - but surely there is something that can help with the pain. Every night it is a cold pack on his shoulder and every morning it is a heating pad. What really helps and what is just pacifying him into thinking it is helping -when in reality it is not? Sigh. Sorry. Sometimes I feel it is an excuse to not do things... and other times I know it really does hurt.
I'm back to work today so guess I need to stop and get it turned on. Just saw it is 6:45AM - I'm usually online much earlier. Time to start the day.
Hope you had a great new years and are ready to attack this year with a positive outlook. If your perspective is bad; change it. It will make all the difference.
Blessings!
