and yes, I did rest, as did hubby. We changed things up again yesterday morning and ended up eating breakfast downstairs. Or lets say we nibbled at it. Potatoes were good. Sausage and omelets not so much. I did eat a yogurt. But I wasn't very hungry to start with - I ate an muffin I had bought at LaMadeline's before we went down. Yummy, and makes me want to make up a batch of muffins here at home. And I may do that - if I can find the time.
Hubby's cognitive ability really concerned me going home. Most of you know how 'directionally challenged' I can be - but I have really gotten much better over the years. I have Siri, who is my best friend, and I can generally find wherever it is I'm going. Well, hubby got turned around a couple times as we were leaving the hotel. Then as we took the major route home, he commented that he wondered if we were on the right road as nothing looked familiar. Well, it was the right road and it was familiar to me as when I go to Mesa, I take this route back home. I reminded him it has probably been 20+ year since he has driven anywhere near that route; it wouldn't be familiar. I didn't say much to him about it, but it has concerned me. We did go up to Norterra for I wanted to stop at Ross up there. (The shops at San Tan Village didn't open until 11AM and I didn't want to just hang out for two hours until they opened. We'd be walking outside and I knew hubby couldn't do it for long) We thought about grabbing something for lunch; hubby wanted a sit down place of course. But, we ended up coming on home. After a little while, I cooked up some pepper bacon, egg, and tomato sandwiches and he was very happy. Watched NCIS for awhile then a movie before heading to bed. It was still a good weekend. And it was good to sleep in my own bed.
Back at work this morning and I know I already have meetings to schedule. Shouldn't be too bad - last night only had 5 emails. And my co-worker for whom I have covered the last 6 weeks - returns today as well. Remove those 8 doctors from my list of coverage. My male boss keeps me so busy anyway. Keeps me out of trouble, right? HAH!
This week is the last week of June - where has the time gone? Next week is a 3 day work-week. I'm not sure of the reasons, but I think it is because people have so much work to do that they aren't taking PTO time off and taking a break from work. So - people build up a lot of hours and then take 3 weeks off at a time - which causes a hardship for those in the departments that cover them. I get it. I think really that is the part of the reason - but they are messing with our vacation hours as any time off from work, we have to use them. Our holiday hours are built into our PTO hours. Now I currently have over 100 hours so am not worried about it. But - I don't plan extensive times off either. And I have to admit, I am looking forward to not feeling guilty about taking taking off and asking someone to cover me.
The week of July 4th - not only are we 'closed' on July 4th, because the 5th is Friday - they are 'closed' - which means we get a long weekend! YAY! Not that I have anything planned. I was looking at hotels for that weekend last week - but since we got away this past weekend, we won't be going anywhere. Unless I get antsy again. Thanksgiving we always get the Friday after off. It's Christmas and New Years that is going to eat up PTO - Christmas is on Wednesday this year - and we are 'closed' the entire week of Christmas and the two days prior to New Years! Reopen on January 2nd. I will go totally insane. I haven't committed to all the days off and may ask to 'save' some PTO and work - but if all my bosses take off, I don't know that I will have much work to complete! It's a ways off yet anyway. Will work on it then. But I am looking forward to two days off next week, making it a 4 day weekend.
Psalm 27:4 One thing I have desired of the LORD, that will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to inquire in His temple.
There was a time (and still is at times) that my deepest longing was to spend every day sitting at Jesus' feet. I was involved in prayer breakfasts, prayer meetings, prayer. And all I wanted to do was be on my face before the LORD. I read of people who literally gave up their lives to live at a church in a prayer room, spending all their time in prayer before the LORD. I met Sister Therese, whom I shared in an earlier post, who was in constant prayer, managing the hermitages and taking time to sit in the chapel with God. That's what I wanted. I wanted to give all my time to the LORD and just sit at His feet continuously. I wanted to live in a prayer room so that I could just sit at Jesus' feet all the time. Even sleep there. Of course hubby did not have the same mindset.
Well, that obviously didn't happen and life did. Work, family, busyness - they all pulled me away from spending hours in prayer. Little by little the busyness chipped away at my time with the LORD in prayer - to where today I have to search for time to just sit at His feet and talk with Him. And, yes, even taking the time to write in here daily has taken time away for prayer and reflection. THIS has become important to me. I want to write in here daily; I want to share 'words of wisdom' (if I have any) with you that perhaps a scripture that I share touches your heart and gives you cause to pause and think. I can only pray that whoever reads this will not only read for their amusement or to 'hear' what my boring daily life is like, but will reflect on who Jesus is and His love for each one of us.
I am thinking already about getting time alone to just spend time with Jesus, my Bible, my notebook, and time in prayer. I need to block out time to be in fasting and prayer. I need to go back to where it started, by opening up my heart to Jesus and asking Him to take over. I confess, I have let 'life' take over a lot of my time. And I don't even have kids at home! But I do have hubby, and most of you will recall times that he 'needs' me close by. He has such a fear of losing me, of me not being near to him, that sometimes I feel that it consumes him. He's afraid of being alone; afraid that he will die and no one will be here. That may stem from his dad having the massive heart attack and dying alone.... and not being found for 3 days.
At least when I go on Jailbreak in July it is only Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I'll be home until late morning on Thursday, Friday he will have his Bible study to occupy his mind, Saturday he will be alone, and Sunday he can go to church as we won't return until mid-afternoon. He has to have contact, even by phone, to keep from feeling alone. Maybe I can get him to schedule a breakfast with one of his friends on Saturday; that will help I think. Closer to time will suggest it.
As mentioned, today I'm back to work, hidden back in this back bedroom that I had to escape from for the weekend. I'm not feeling as enclosed today. Yet. I can open up my shutters and let the sunshine in and that always helps. Grateful I have a large window to let the light in.
And now, I have a very short time that I can just sit and be still so I'm going to take it. Life is too short to fill it with busyness all the time. Take a few minutes right now - open up the curtains (shutters) and sit at Jesus' feet and let Him fill you. It will be the best thing ever.
Blessings!
