Last night we watched a movie that my youngest son suggested. Greater. It's a true story about the life of Burt Burlsworth. I think that was his name. Excellent movie. And yes, I cried at the end of it like a baby. If you can watch it and not cry or even water up, let me know and I'll give you $5 - cause you can't. I hadn't heard of this guy so googled him to see who he was. Greater. On Netflix. Watch it.
This morning has been tough thus far. I cannot stay awake! We went to bed around 9-ish I think... well after the Suns won. I went to sleep fairly quick. I slept until 2:50AM and then went back to sleep. Somehow I turned off my alarm for 4AM but the one (Fitbit alarms) for 4:15AM was still set. Hubby reached over to see if I was still in bed at 4:11AM and it woke me up so I got up. I read my devotional and Bible.... then fell asleep and started dreaming these really stupid things - like Sheeba pushing her blankets under this door and when I looked, the door was half eaten away (she doesn't chew on doors or furniture). Then I was at a meeting and I couldn't get my eyes open to be 'at' the meeting and kept bumping into people so I pretended that I had something in my eye and couldn't open them. Stupid, huh? I have no idea what was going on in my mind or in my body that I just couldn't get them open. I had to struggle just now at 5:30AM to get them open so that I could work on this. Hopefully I will be awake enough after I write this that I can do a bit more reading in one of my books. I WAS extremely exhausted last night - but it was because I didn't do anything all day.
Well, I DID work out with my weights here at home for about 20 minutes, but is was more of a mental/physical exhaustion. Not from anything I did. I think I was sunk in depression too, which never helps when I allow myself to get there. Hubby even asked if I wanted to go to the gym and I just couldn't. Of course it is my fault that he didn't go either. "It's up to you. Why don't you want to go?" I was tired. I didn't feel like going. I just wanted to take a nap. (I had already taken two short naps during the day). I had a headache. I sure hope I get some energy going today. Got to keep moving.
With runaway dreams like those this morning, I'm afraid to let myself fall back to sleep even for a few minutes! I may need a second cup of coffee today.
I have really been toying with taking tomorrow off work. No reason to, really, but I do have some things I want to do around here. But I struggle in getting them done as I seem to be dealing in constant interruptions - and it doesn't matter if I am in my quiet time or working. It is unsettling to have someone stand in the door until you look at them and ask what they want and it is something that they just want to tell you or ask you that doesn't mean a hill of beans. It usually leaves me frustrated and distracted and I have to figure out where I was at. Or I'm 'caught' looking at my phone during the day and a conversation has to be started.... it's ok I look at my phone and it doesn't matter if I'm talking to someone (who?) or just reading facebook or whatever. I'm taking a moment to refocus. Sheeba was in several times yesterday too, wanting me to play. I don't dare shut my door unless I'm in a meeting... and then it's what was the meeting about, who was in it, what were they talking about.... questions, questions, questions! And I don't want to answer!
See, I told you it was a tough morning! I think I'm finally starting to wake up; my coffee is about gone and my L-Tyrosine is kicking in. I think a lot is just life depression. We all get it at some times, I think. We're tired mentally and physically, even though we may not have done anything. It's just life and the things that happen in it. Same o Same o just doesn't cut it. Sometimes we need to change things up. I need - desperately need - alone time, I think. Time in which I can sleep as long and as late as I want without someone waking me up. Time in which I can read a whole book in one setting if I want. Time in which I can just be quiet before God and let Him speak to me, instead of me telling Him all the time what I want and not waiting but a few minutes for Him to respond.
I'm tired. Part is I need to change my eating habits because I've let them slip again and I'm eating the wrong foods which weary me, instead of building up my strength and endurance. I actually threw away a 1/2 gallon of ice cream in which only a couple servings were taken out of. We ate the last pizza in the freezer last night. I need to get the toxic stuff out of my body and mind and get healthy again. Did you know there are foods that cause inflammation within your body and keeps you sore and tired and makes your joints hurt all the time? I was looking some up yesterday.... some include pastas, and of course, fried foods. We finished off Church's chicken yesterday at noon. sigh. It all tastes so good. Good food does too.... I just need to fix it.
Ok. Beginning today. I simply must eat right. I can't live in depression and toxic foods. I refuse to. And the only one who can change it, is me. I have to cook better. I have to shop better for the right foods. Eat more fruits and vegetables. "If it's to be, it's up to me."
What about you? How's your morning going? Perky and ready to start the day? Good for you! But if you are like me this morning, difficulty staying awake, feeling very tired - perhaps you need to reevaluate what you are putting in your body and make some changes in your habits as well.
God wants us healthy and strong. He created good food for us to eat. He didn't create processed food - that's man-made. And it's destroying our bodies. Eat more fruit. Eat more vegetables. And eat more meat that is healthy for you. You'll find you will have lots more energy and the hurting joints will soon disappear.
I've actually read stories of people who have changed their eating habits and not only lost weight, but got rid of walkers, canes, and other things they held on to because they were in such pain and needed assistance. I've heard of neuropathy leaving backs/legs because eating habits were made better. It has been said that we are allowing food to control our bodies, and I - especially what I'm feeling this morning - believe it!
Let's fight the right battles - and get our bodies healthy and strong again! I'm ready - are you? Are you in it with me?
Go get em! Bless your body... you will be glad you did.
