I'm tired this morning. Physically, mentally, emotionally... so very tired. I really would like to crawl back into bed and pull the covers over my head and just hide. But, I cannot, nor will I. Life is meant to be lived, not buried under the covers. I intend to live life so in order to do that, I must pull myself together and just do it!
We had talked of physically going to a church this morning, but I just can't today. In fact, when hubby brought in my coffee to me this morning and I asked if we could stay home and watch on TV another church, his comment back to me was that when he awoke he felt that we should stay home and watch this other church we were going to attend in person today - online. We may watch both.... one because the Bible study he goes to on Wednesday morning, several of the men go there and they discuss the message before the study and hubby always feels left out. This way he can be a part of the conversation. The other service because our friends are encouraging us to attend (and that is where we had planned to go today). We still haven't found a 'church home'. I think I'm missing that.
The devotional I read today really spoke to me. It's from the devotional 'I Hear His Whisper'. I love this little devotional for it has a way of speaking to me. Read this...
Beloved, the enemy has held you in bondage long enough. You have been through fire, but now is the time for refreshing rain. Though at times you barely held on to hope, you sought me with all that you had. I saw it all. And behind the scenes, I was working on your behalf, though you couldn't see it. What felt like loss will turn into victory.
The prison doors are flinging wide. Follow me out. Don't allow the past to define you. Throw off those grave clothes and wrap yourself in garments of glorious praise. Don't hold on to unforgiveness. Surrender your right to hold a grudge. I will rewrite your history and give you a new story - a story of provision, a story of joy, a story of healing. The enemy has tried to insert false chapters of delay and hopelessness into your story, but he has been stopped. As you look to me with expectation and see the breakthrough with eyes of faith, I will come. I will lead the way out of this season and into the one I have promised you.'
Sometimes we allow the enemy to wear us down with slights, grudges, busyness, hurt feelings, so many little twinges of feelings. I know I am guilty of allowing myself to get beaten up with life. I think that is what I am going through right now. And it has made me extremely weary. My tears have been withheld, and yet, I know that each tear that falls, is noticed by my God.
So where are you at this morning? Are you living your life to the fullest and are on top of the mountain? Or are you like me this morning, feeling weary and down in the valley? Wherever you are, look up. We are not forsaken. We are not alone.
There is a song, and some of you may remember it: I sing because I'm happy. I sing because I'm free. His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.
Singing may be hard right now, but try it. Sing a song that brings joy to your heart. If you can't think of one, sing:
Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so. Little ones to Him belong, they are weak, but He is strong. Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me. The Bible tells me so.
Yes. The answer is Yes. He watches over the sparrows, and He loves us. He loves us with an uncomprehensible love. There is nothing we can do to ever escape His love for you and for me. He waits for us with open arms, always, just waiting for us to turn to Him.
I'm thinking of crawling up in His lap for a little while and having a chat with Him about my life. What about you? His arms are open for you too. And His lap is perfect.
Blessings.
