Yesterday, after an amazing church service, we stopped at a deli nearby taht we like real well for lunch. We actually ran in to some dear friends we haven't seen in a long time. We got to sit with them and catch up as we ate our lunch. It was a nice hour and a half (at least) to catch up on their lives and on ours. We came home, changed clothes... and hubby did NOT turn on the TV. Not at all. Al.day.long. We read. I took a short nap (hubby probably did too, but he made fun of me for doing so). He did ask at one point if I wanted to read or watch a movie; I opted for reading.
Saw Ms. Diane's daughter at her house so walked over there to see how she was. They finally - from Thursday to Saturday night Ms. Diane was in the ER... and finally got moved to a room. Ms. Diane, although she had sounded coherent when she talked with me, her daughter says she is so confused. She didn't fall off the couch as she told me; she fell out of her bed. She isn't having her surgery until Tuesday as the doctor wasn't available until then. (I wonder how they are treating the MRSA?) The duaghter and I chatted for a bit; she was just coming out of the gate to leave when I went over. She said her mother will probalby not be coming back home, but going direct to an assisted living. I nearly started to cry. Yes, that is where she needs to be... but my heart hurt becuase I know her time here is getting short. Her daughter said she'd keep me up to date on what is going on, which I appreciate. And, as expected... her daughter said that she knew this time was coming and was prepared... but feels like she (herself) is 'all over the place' trying to get things done. Today she cleaned out the refrigerator and freezer and was taking a lot of things home with her.... little by little will be removing things from the house and making decisions on where they are to go.
Hubby brought up about the cabin versus a hotel again yesterday and we discussed it. We are just going to leave it where we will go to the cabin. He's already paid the deposit and just needs to pay the balance. I told him it would still be TV dinners (now he is all concerned it isn't my vacation cause I'd still have to cook - hah!) but more quick and easy things to eat, i.e., sandwiches and cereal and shakes too. :-) Not saying we can't go to the one restaurant a time or two... but why spend a lot of money when don't need to. It's like I've always told him - what we spend at a nice restaurant, including tip, we can eat at a fast food place two and sometimes three times! Have you priced drinks lately at a restaurant? Whether tea or soda - some are nearly $4!! Ridiculous! I usually drink water, but sometimes that diet coke just sounds good.
Today ..... two grandchildren have court cases. My heart is breaking for both.... and all I can do is pray. I keep praying for justice; but I also keep praying for mercy and grace. For one, I expect punishment for their actions... the other I am terrified for I do not believe the accusations are true. There is slander and deflamation out in another person's favor; I truly believe that. I'm terrified of what might happen to this one. And all I can do is pray... and prayer is enough.
As I write that word 'enough' I am reminded of a couple of things. Remember the women's conference I went to recently... the theme was 'I am enough'. Yesterday at our church service we had a guest pastor and the message was really good. He talked about being baptized in the Holy Spirit... how sometimes we are on the mountaintop and sometimes in the wilderness between. Right now I feel like I am in the wilderness with the situations going on. When he asked us to come forward if we wanted to receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit, I stepped out to go forward... and of course hubby followed me. When the pastor came through the many people up front and came to me... he at firat held my one hand and had his hand on my shoulder... then I guess he must have moved it to touch hubby (I had my eyes closed)... and he said some things but what I remember is that he said that the word that he was hearing for us was 'enough'. He didn't know what that meant for us, but that was the Word given.
The first thing that popped in to my mind was 'He is enough'. We had sung the song earlier 'Jireh, You are enough.' But what does that Word mean for us? For me? Hubby asked me what I thought about it after we got home. I'm still not sure exactly, but I feel I/we are to lean into Jesus is enough. We don't need anything else. It's so easy to lean in to other things... but Jesus, our Jehovah Jireh (The Lord will provide), is Enough.
When I mentioned hubby 'followed' me up front of the church... I didn't mean to imply he didn't go for his own want or need.... he may have. But he has always followed me and wanted to do whatever I did. It is as if I may get something he doesn't. I am reminded of the comment a friend made one time... he is glued to my hip; he won't let me get away. If I hadn't gone up front, I am pretty sure hubby would not have either. He always wants us 'together' and it seems like for 40+ years I have only wanted to be 'ME'. I have fought to live ... unsuccessfully. Yes, I can do some things without him,... but they are rare. He is joined to my hip and I can't get away. Heaven help him if I should die first... he could not survive. I told him once that if he should die first (he did ask me).. I would party. That angered him... and I asked him why. He thought it would be a celebration... but I explained...no, it would be because for the first time I would be free to do things.
Romans 8:28 (NKJV): "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God; to those who are called according to His purpose."
No matter what happens today... no matter what happened yesterday.... no matter what happens tomorrow... God is in control and He will take 'all things' and will work them for good. We as people may not like nor understand the things that happen, but if we relinquish control and give it all to Him, we can know that He will take it, even the bad stuff, the ugly stuff, and will turn it in to good. We may not understand it now; we may never understand it at all; but one thing we can be sure of.... God is well aware of everything that is happening in our lives and knows what will come of it. He is in control. He has the final say. No judge does. No person does. God has the final say. He may let one think they are in control... but in reality, it is Him alone.
He truly is 'ENOUGH' for me.
Blessings!
