Does it or doesn't it?

 I bought new sheets the other night.  Ones that said they would help us sleep better.  It 'supposedly' (or maybe I should just say 'it has') silver lines (of some sort) woven into the fabric.  With hubby always complaining about not sleeping well, and add in the fact that I haven't slept well (waking up early) some nights, I thought we could try it.  I kid you not.  I ordered it Wednesday. It arrived Thursday. Yes, the next day. Talk about surprise!  I didn't even wash them. I stripped the bed down and put them on it last night.  I feel I slept well, although my watch shows I did still wake up four times.  I 'truly' woke up at 4:25a.  And I got up. Although my watch shows I woke up four times, I did not go down the hall, so was it I was just turning over and my watch registered a 'wake up'?  

Hubby came in with my coffee this morning and asked how I slept. Honestly I said I didn't know that I slept much different; his response surprised me. He really likes these sheets. I don't recall him saying specifically that he slept much better, but obviously, if he likes the sheets, perhaps he did. He will elaborate later, I'm sure, but for now, he's getting ready for his bible study and visiting Chuck this morning. In about 30 minutes he will come in and tell me bye and head out the door and I will be ... alone.  

And that's when God and I get 'real'.  Maybe I will just leave that comment there. 

Yesterday was a weird day for work.  Sue is back and we talked about 30 minutes about 9a and caught up some.  She brought home a 'reminder' of her Aruba trip.  It's called 'sea-bathers eruption'.  She has these blisters on her back and on her side.... her daughter, who is an NP, did research and determined that is what it 'could' be.  Sue is going to a dermatologist, I think today, but am not sure.  The blisters are not sore, they do not itch.  They are just there.  She told me to look it up (and you can too) so I did. EEWWW. I think I'd stay out of the ocean if there was a chance of getting this... but it says it is itchy, and she says it isn't.  But it is spreading so to the dermatologist she is going. Stay tuned... maybe I will remember to ask - or she will tell - what it is after the visit.

And.... I/we did a 'thing' last night.  We went to Lowes.  I'm so tired of smelling that stupid mold in the washer and I can't find where it is.  Yes, I've tried numerous times to 'see' it and cannot without the machine being taken apart.  So we went to Lowes, and looked at washers.  I decided I only needed a washer; the dryer was fine. I don't care whether matched or not matched.  If we ever move it will probably be left here.  Anyway... within ten minutes (or thereabouts) of walking to the w/d area and looking at the different ones, I/we bought a set.  Yes, ordered both.  They are white. they are about the same size as what we have now (which is fine).  They were on sale; then I got the July 4th sale prices... then they added $50 each for hauling away the old; $39 delivery fee, all the gadgets to install ... well, within 30 minutes or less, it was all done and I think the final cost was about $1300.  On my Lowes charge. Plus I got another 5% off for taking the terms no interest for 12 months.  Then over to Barro's pizza which was right there, and ate dinner.

And then he asked the question.  "How do you have so much money that you can buy all this stuff?"  I immediately answered with the first response that came to my mind..... "I save my money".  Yes, I may spend a lot; I may give a lot; but I try to save a lot too.  I do have more money coming into my account than he is aware of.  He started to fuss about struggling with the bills... so I asked him, do you need money to pay the bills? and he said no, but there is usually not much extra.  I reminded him he should have about $250 extra each month because he (finally) paid of his car last month. (oh yeah).  I just kept repeating "I save my money".  He refuses to give me the bills back.... and I don't trust him enough to let him have this money I get and save.  You think I spend frivolously?  I do, I admit it. But, he is worse than me.  I've bailed him out of his credit cards twice (to nearly $100k) and told him the 2nd time that if he did it a third time, I would divorce him.  He isn't allowed a credit card.  Which is also why I always pay off my credit cards as soon as the charge shows up.  I only buy what I can pay for.  I'll pay for the washer/dryer once they are delivered.  And that is probably more than you needed to know.

For the first time in my life, I can save money. I can help others. I can tithe to God. I'm not going to let anyone take that away from me.  I will lose that 'freedom' when I quit work, which is one reason why I think I need to keep working.  I love helping others as needed.  I love giving back to God. I love the freedom to buy a washer/dryer without sweating if the approval would come through for credit.  Been there too many times when I've prayed something would go through because I knew the credit wasn't good.  God has blessed me (us) with my job and being able to save.  I don't want to die and leave my children with my debt; I try to pay everything off as soon as I get it.  And that's enough information.

I am 'enjoying' this book Restore.  It isn't what I thought it would be, and I am learning some things from it.  It's a daily read, like a chapter a day).  He tries to be funny.  Which makes it amusing.  Today he talked about going to see who he calls Dr. Obi Wan Kenobi.  He talks about a shirt his wife told him that she didn't like, so on their weekly date night, he wore the same shirt for 9 weeks without her saying a comment.  Finally, she told him again that she really did not like the shirt. That's when he told her that he had been wearing it for nine weeks straight on their date night.  He said the funny thing is, she had bought him that shirt!  But also in this chapter he was told to write himself a letter from God. He even put the letter in the back of the book (but I haven't read it yet).  He was always told he was worthless, had no value, would never amount to anything.  But he has learned that he is loved by God.  

And so are we.  We are the one that Jesus loves.  What do you feel when you read "I am the one Jesus loves"?  Do you feel special?  You should.  It is a true statement.  Jesus loves you (and me) with such a great love that He gave His very life for us.  And God our Heavenly Father loves us so much He gave His one and only Son, to die for us.  Isn't that mind-boggling?  I don't think I could give up one of my sons for everyone else - let alone an only son.  Could you?

And that's how much we are loved.  Think about that today while you go about your business.  You are so very much loved.  Human love is nothing compared to the love that Jesus has for you.  Mama's love runs deep, but Jesus' love runs deeper.

Hubby is now gone so I'm going to spend more quality time with God this morning.  Got lots of things to talk with Him about. 

Have an AMAZING day!

Blessings!