I kid you not... I have nearly slept away my morning! I didn't get out of bed until 4:45AM, then I start reading in here - and fell asleep. I woke up at 5:30, closed my eyes and off to dreamland again (without the dreams) and here it is nearly 6:30AM and I haven't done anything but sleep. Thank goodness my coffee is in a thermal cup - it is still hot. Hadn't even taken a sip of it. I have not idea why I have slept like that - other than I cried tears with my prayers last night, praying. They are well worth it.
But here it is 6:30AM, I have a full cup of coffee, I haven't even read past the first page in the first book I usually read. And here I am, typing in here. But I am hoping that with trying to think about what to write, it will wake me up cause in about 30 minutes I must be on my computer for work.
Yesterday it seemed I couldn't do anything right - that hubby and I were not 'discussing something'. He didn't like it I did my own laundry Tuesday (what, am I not good enough to do your laundry? SERIOUSLY! that is what he said!) On the way to church we had a discussion about his driving.... and I told him his driving scared me.... and at 30 miles an hour (because we left earlier than I wanted) on Bell Rd, I asked him to drive the speed limit of 40 cause he was driving like an old man..... oh yeah... that started another 'conversation'. Lord, help!
You ever have those days when it just seems 'too much'? Yesterday was one of those, I think, and today isn't looking promising either... I think I will just hibernate in here with work as long as I can today. I have been made to be old before my time and inside I am dying. Oh - and yesterday, Ms. Amy called me twice about her trees - they need trimmed and she's trying to find someone but I'm the one who has to direct them and tell them what to do. WHINE.
Philippians 2:14 (NKJV): "Do all things without complaining and disputing, that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world."
Sigh. I sure have failed that today, haven't I?! Failed it yesterday too. I really would like to take a couple days off work and do nothing... in fact, I did two things yesterday. I looked at days when I could take time off for a few days without any problems.... and I looked at hotels nearby to get away to for a change of scenery. Decided against both - at least for now. Don't want to spend the money... and because nothing will be changed but location... why go? Ok, won't go there.
Lord, help!
Yep - that's where I'm at today. I'm exhausted (my Wednesday pills, perhaps?) from life, and drama around me, around medical concerns and I just want to be alone with my God so that I can pray and intercede for those I care about and love.
Lord, help! I'm calling out to You because I have no one else... because I know that You love me unconditionally, and I know that You hear me when I cry out to You. So yes, I am crying out, "Lord, HELP". You know the need, Lord; You know the pain in my heart for these I pray for. I know You see me and You hear me. Lord, HELP!
Time to get the computer on for work; teach me to fall asleep when I should be awake! Now I have nothing to build on except my quick prayers to my Lord. And yet, He will always provide what I need today.
Blessings!
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