I've often commented that 'my life was not my own'. But - with that being said, not complaining, just putting words on 'paper'. After all, if I didn't write anything, you wouldn't have anything to read, right? And you know how you would miss that.
Update..... Hubby's jaw was swollen like he had a egg still in its shell pushed in there! He was miserable last night, and from what he told me, he used the ice pack most of the day. It was also pretty red. I thought he might have been rubbing it, but I'm wondering now - the thought has occurred to me - perhaps it was the ice pack. It didn't seem quite as red this morning but was definitely still swollen pretty badly. He'll be ok, but I'm guessing his oral surgery was more extensive than mine was. I had minimal swelling and no redness (and I didn't use an ice pack either). He hasn't complained of a lot of pain, sticking pretty much with tylenol, but today is the day it will hit as all the pain meds should be wearing off they gave through the IV. He still can't eat but soft foods.
I did go online yesterday and placed an order @ Fry's to pick up in the afternoon. I got him cottage cheese and yogurt, so I imagine he is happy about that. Got several other things as well And, I signed up for 'Hello Fresh' yesterday as well. They ship 3 meals a week.... normal price feels pricey, but it is worth it having everything - including spices - together for a meal. And, even with the regular price tag, for a month it equals out for it will be easier to prepare than going out - and then that makes it cheaper. But then again, I forgot how much hubby goes out to eat. Well, I get the first 4 weeks 50% off through my company so am trying it. I may try it for a few months and if it isn't working for us, will cancel. I tried another company a few years back but cancelled after the 2nd week. We just weren't eating the food and hubby - whose job at that time was to cook our evening meal because he didn't work - wouldn't pull it together. Thought I would try it again. I won't need to go to the grocery store except for basics. Now mind you, these aren't snacks, but meals. I chose high protein foods - so much of our food will be chicken. I can't wait to try the chicken parmesan. Yes, I have to do the cooking and put it together - it isn't a TV dinner - but at least I will have everything at my fingertips to put it together. Stay tuned. We get the first order on Tuesday.
In a bit will text the grandson that we do need to put off going to dinner to one evening next week or next weekend to take him out for his birthday. Hubby just can't do it today. I fixed mac and cheese (from scratch!) yesterday and cottage cheese and tomatoes for dinner last night. He ate it all so guess he is doing ok in the eating area.
Today was going to be crazy busy but things have changed somewhat. Great-granddaughter has a soccer game this morning - I thought it was 8:30 but looking at the schedule it is 9:30 today. It's also Needles of Hope. I'm hoping the game will be done by 10:30 so that I can get to NoH and meet up with the girls. There will be yarn for free. I'll get whatever is left over. That is how I keep my stash at home. I get the leftover yarn. And I don't mind - I'm not as good at it as the others are and about all I do is baby blankets. They do fancy ones. I do good to get a square one. And I'm happy with that! I do it for fun, for relaxation, for donating. And I do it so that I can hang out with dear friends. And I get free yarn when someone donates some.
My youngest and I will be meeting up next week and he is taking me out - so next Saturday will be busy. I thought the soccer game would be 9:30 - but it's 10:30 and I'm to pick him up at 11:15. I may need to let hubby go without me. I have a mani/pedi appointment at 12PM but may need to bump it out. Probably should, and save myself stress. I'll need to process it all and figure it out. Processing what I need to do next week - a lot of things can happen over the week.
Job 23:10-11 (NKJV): "But He knows the way that I take; When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold. My foot has held fast to His steps; I have kept His way and not turned aside."
You remember the story of Job, don't you? All that God allowed satan to put him through. Yes, God allowed it. He knew that Job was His. And yes, yet He allowed the loss of his 10 children, the loss of all his wealth, the loss of his health. Job lost it all. But when he was tried and tested, and proven true, God rewarded him with more than he had before. I just feel sorry for his wife cause he got another 10 kids! And you know it wasn't 'poof' it happened!
So many times we all go through struggles in life. Some people lose a child or a spouse unexpectedly. Some lose a job and their income. Sometimes it is just 'life' that happens. But do we remain faithful during those times of struggle? Honestly, I can't say that I have always.
I do know that through our toughest financial time I was crying out constantly to God for relief. We had nothing. All we had was my income, and at that time, it wasn't much. The kids were grown and gone, so it was just us. But we couldn't meet the bills and I didn't know what to do. I cried out to God time and time again. And you know what? He answered me! As I read my Bible, He showed me He would take care of me. Of us. And He did. He provided in ways I would not have expected. I can't even remember how.... other than the money was always there to make a payment. We always had food on the table. We were always taken care of. I felt like Job at that time... although I did have a job to bring some money in. But I was hurting on the inside, and yet, I was trusting and crying out to God that He provide all we needed. And He did. So grateful. So blessed. Glory to God.
So what are you going through right now? Do you feel alone in all the struggle? Do you feel like no one cares and no one is helping you? Why not go to the One who CAN help you? Why not just sit down and ask God to help you through this struggle. To provide that needed job. To cause the money to stretch further so that all things can be met. To keep everyone healthy. To meet every need that you have. Sometimes all it takes is just asking Him. He doesn't always give us the answer we want - and we may never see the results of our prayers until years later. We may think He hasn't answered our prayers at all and we get angry with Him. And yet.... in time, your eyes will open and you will see how God has taken that painful time and turned it around for your good. You got your answer.... just not int he time frame or the way you wanted. It may not even be the answer you wanted. But, look at how things have turned out. Are you loved? Are you supported? Are you cared for? Do you have any of the things you dreamed of?
The Lord knows I haven't received all the things I've prayed for over the years, but I don't give up; I keep praying for some of those. I also know that some things that I've prayed for will never come to pass because they are not for His purposes. Some things were stupid prayers. Some times I just need to keep my focus on God's heart, and not on His hand. And maybe you do too. Trust Him. He will take care of you.
Blessings!
