I did go and apologize to hubby for whatever I said, and I reminded him that it was not done as a slam or snarky comment. He thanked me for apologizing. And his whole attitude changed. Sometimes saying "I'm sorry" changes everything.
My training appointment got moved from Wednesday to Thursday this week. After work yesterday I started on dinner. While we were eating, hubby made a comment like, "I want to ask you something, and it's up to you....". I knew instantly what he was going to 'ask'. LOL So I told him that I had already started winding down, and if he didn't want to go to the prayer meeting last night, that we could stay home (why does he need my permission?). So we did. Of course he used the words 'stay home and read'. He knows I love the TV off and having the quiet of the evening to read some. And I did read. And it felt good. I read until I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer - which wasn't long..... 8:15PM and I was preparing for bed. The book I was reading was good and interesting, but I seem to get very tired very easily anymore. Whether it is mentally tired, eyes tired from staring at the computer all day, or physically tired, I'm not sure, but some times I just can't stay awake in the evening.
And I'm starting to re-evaluate my getting up at 4AM. I've gotten up at 4AM for years. 4-5AM was my quiet time (yes, just one hour and I had time to get everything done). 5-6AM I would shower and get ready for work. 6AM I was heading out the door for the drive to the office (40-50 minutes one way). I continued getting up at 4AM because at that time, 'rumor' was that we'd be back in the office after a couple months. That didn't happen, but I have continued to get up at 4AM. Now I read a devotional, read my Bible, read in another book (or two), sometimes write my prayers in a journal, and other times I will open up the shutters and sit on the floor looking out the window and talk to God until about 6:45AM. Then I begin to get dressed for work. Unless I have something going on, I skip the make-up, but do the other 'stuff'. Sometimes I take a nap instead of reading my books. I'm thinking I may just change it to 5AM and if I wake up at 4AM (as I often do from habit), I can get up. Most times it is hubby reaching over to feel the covers to see if I'm up that causes me to wake up and I just go ahead and get up because he has already awakened me. Then I try to go back to sleep in here. Is it that because I'm getting older that I need a bit more sleep? That I wear out faster?
Or am I just using the excuse of getting older because I am getting more and more lazy to do things? Sigh. I didn't get my 3.5 miles in yesterday.... but did get 1.5 in. I will have to make up the difference this weekend for I don't want to fall to far behind. I'd go in the middle of the day but it's too hot. In the mornings, I'm .. well, I'll just hush there. It sounds like excuses to me. But I need to get moving soon and hit the shower and get dressed for I meet a girlfriend for lunch today. We switched to Jack in the Box because we agreed we were spending too much money at the place we usually met at. And it wasn't that good, even the salads! Throw a tip on top of the meal and it was $20! Neither of us want to spend that. So - Jack in the Box it is! Some time I'll fix a soup and just drive to her house - it isn't much further. I don't like labeling myself as lazy and certainly do wish I had someone I could meet up with close by to walk with. Hubby doesn't like to walk and doesn't like me walking by myself. And I get that.... this world has gone crazy. He makes me scared of my own shadow sometimes.
Luke 11:13 (NKJV): If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him!
As parents (and grandparents, great-grandparents, etc.) love to give good gifts to our children and those we love, can you just imagine how much God loves to give to us good gifts? He especially loves to give the Holy Spirit to those who ask for Him and seek Him. The act of persistent prayer shows how much we believe that God will answer. I realize that statement could mean two different things, but when one of our children want something really bad, don't they ask for it frequently? Until we give it? Think about it. Our Heavenly Father wants to bless us so much - and many times He is just waiting for us to ASK Him for it. When was the last time you sincerely asked God for something you needed? We don't always get what we WANT, but He will always supply what we NEED.
I started a new book last night by Andrew Wommack, a great pastor. I haven't read his books before, but have heard of him for years. I finally bought a few of his books last month through Thriftbooks.com. I still check there first for a book before buying from Amazon if I want it. $3-$4 for a book is a lot better than $15 or $20! Anyway, the book is A Better Way to Pray. I may comment on it more as I get through it - but I think I'm already in chapter 7 and I just started it last night! I found it interesting and applicable. And yes, it is causing me to think again about my early rising to spend time with God. Since I often pray through-out the day, I am constantly spending time with God. If I carve out time to focus on Him is even better. I need to finish reading this book (and perhaps go through it a second time) to let it soak in. I've been pretty rigid about getting up early and having my quiet time with God - and that is from my days of Discipleship. My leader had said she got up at 5AM each morning and had an hour with God. So I did. Rather, I started getting up at 4AM so that I could have an hour with God. But now I have 3 hours (4-7AM) and sometimes I go back to sleep. I honestly think I got more done in that one hour than I do now in three. But then, I also didn't spend time typing in this blog either. In fact, I didn't get on my computer at all in that hour. And I didn't write every day. I'm going to have to think on it. I need to re-evaluate what I do in here in the three hours and see what can go - and what will stay, Or not. I know you'd miss me. LOL
And with that comment, I'm going to get off here and go jump in the shower. Hope that you have an amazing day!
Blessings!
