I'm hoping for a quiet day today without a bunch of 'stuff' going on with work. Why? Sue is still on PTO, and I still have minutes to type and board decks to put together. That's just what I NEED to do. I have been putting things aside as they aren't 'due' and now the list is getting longer. I need to actually DO them and get them off my list of 'to do' stuff. At least Sue's boss's EA is back to day (I've covered for her the past two weeks) and I won't have to worry about that. Besides, I have training in the middle of the day with Morgan and I need to wrap my mind around that and get my mind motivated. I think we are doing legs today.
I may have already shared this, but I bought a workout shirt that says "I want to quit but my trainer is scary", but I'm not sure if I'm going to keep it. I may send it back. It is cotton, which is great, but it is so stiff and it doesn't stretch. I need stretch. I don't like my shirts fitting like a glove; my body is not built for that. Some of you will know what I am talking about. I know I need to change some of the sizes I wear.... some large hang - literally - on me. When photos are taken I look like I'm all rolls under that shirt! Then I get down on myself (hence the workouts and diets). Then I suck it up and tell myself "I'm a work in progress" and move on. I don't like t-shirts that fit snug, for I know they show my rolls and I'm very self-conscious that I allowed myself to get those rolls. Yep. Not a medical condition. It's a lack of control food condition.
And hubby did not help at all yesterday. He went to Walgreens after we got home. Sigh. For the first time in a long, long time, he brings me back something, hands it to me and says "you are always buying me things like shirts, shoes, things I need, so I thought I'd buy you something." That's all well and good. It's nice he thought of doing something for me. But what did he hand me? One of the very things I try NOT to buy because, well, it's me. Oreos. And it wasn't a small package that would have been sufficient. No, he had to buy for me the FAMILY package. Sigh. And I had to eat 'some' then so that he would know I appreciated his gesture. Big sigh. I probably ate half the one roll (of three) during the rest of the day. I LIKE Oreos. I do. But I can't have them sitting around. Just like potato chips; I can't buy them. I know me. They don't help this body get into shape. It would have been better if he had bought me a Snicker. It at least has protein in it. I appreciate the thought, I really do. But today I will put the cookies in the freezer and hope I forget about them. I cannot put them in the pantry. (besides, frozen cookies are good too, right?) Sigh.
The message yesterday at church was really good. We are still on the 'The Series that isn't a Series' series. Yesterday it was on the Holy Spirit. A Very Good Message. I took notes (as I often try to do now.) on some of what was shared. It was very interesting and even answered some unanswered questions. I tell you what, the Holy Spirit was present yesterday! Whew! As Pastor John prayed, I had goosebumps come over me as the Spirit moved among us. Pastor John and Pastor Lindsay both speak the Bible and speak truth. I love that. I hear they are taking a few weeks off in July. Pastor Josh may be speaking, and I'm not sure who else will be.
The past two nights I have slept very well. We quit watching NCIS about 9:30p last night and headed to bed. I slept sound - (watch shows I only woke up twice) and I did not feel my watch buzzing this morning - in fact, it buzzed for 30 minutes before it stopped - and I still slept another hour before waking up. Yep, it was 5:30a when I awakened this morning, and I'm not sure what caused that to happen because I could have slept longer - but I opened the eyes to look at the clock. And groaned. I didn't want to get up, but knew I should. And I'm running out of time so will finish this on the work computer. You know that I have something important to say in here somewhere, right?
Well, just brought up the work computer, and of course it shows that Sue is out of the office, and I knew Jen was (her boss), but I had also forgotten that Anita and Kynda are both off today as well - which means the only 'boss' I am supporting today is David.... and he rarely sends me anything. I really SHOULD get things done today, right? Maybe I can get this bed cleaned off today as well.
I bought recently a metal solar owl as well as an owl 'spinner' to hang in the courtyard because those darn pigeons keep pooping all over the courtyard and occasionally on the furniture. Got them Saturday. Put them outside. So yesterday I hear the pigeon coming out of the bush next to the house - and he just walks casually around the courtyard before walking through the fence into the yard. Stupid bird. Doesn't he know he is not to like owls or spinners that flash light all around the courtyard when the sun hits it and he should stay OUT of the courtyard? I'm sorry if it sends my quails away too, but I am so tired of having to clean off poop! Still need to go to Lowes to pick up a brush to sweep the courtyard with. Going to give it a good scrubbing. The courtyard, that is.
But then, I read that the monsoon season is now upon us. So in that thought, I'm going to cover up the furniture again to try to protect it some. I just put all the covers in the garage a week or so ago - and now need to dig them back out. Well, will do it after I get outside this morning and water the plants. I meant to do it yesterday, but didn't want to do it in the middle of the day, and by evening, I was caught up in NCIS reruns.
Proverbs 11:2: When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.
As I sit here and think what to write as an example for the above scripture, you know what comes to mind? The times (yes, this is plural) when I have held my head up, knowing I am dressed well and look good, and go strutting around the office or even at church (definitely not recently for either).... and I've gotten compliments on how nice I look. I feel pretty. And as I walk, my heel catches on the floor (and it could be a tile floor!!) .... and I stumble. Yeah, that stumble shatters my pride in me. Humiliating, yes. Definitely. I can remember wearing really high 5" heels at church one Sunday years ago (can't wear those now!!) and the pastor had everyone who could walk (what was I thinking that I could walk in those 5" heels in my 50's?) across a small wooden CURVED (like up and over curved) bridge to symbolize something... I don't even remember the message! But I knew I looked good that Sunday! And do you know how difficult it was to walk UP that little bridge (we are talking about 6-8 ft long and going up about 2 ft in the air before going back down) and how embarrassing for me it was to try and walk DOWN (I had to have help to get down!!) that bridge (in my defense, it was also smooth wood, not where one could have something to step on) and back on solid ground. I held up the line as I tried to get down. But me in my 5" heels looks good! I gave away those heels after that episode. One of those 'never again' moments.
Pride can get us in so much trouble. I'm sure certain situations have come to your mind as well when you were embarrassed - either for yourself, or for someone you love. You squirm. You try to make excuses on why this happened. (for me, it just wasn't wise to wear those 5" heels at that age to where I could barely stand up and walk!)
..... but with humility comes wisdom. That's true, isn't it? When we recognize that our 'uncomfortable feeling' - or embarrassment - happens, we don't want it to happen again. LOL The thought just occurred to me of someone going into the ocean and their swimsuit being pulled off by the water. THAT would be embarrassing! Or the bikini top coming untied or unsnapped while playing in the water. OOPS!
One can get 'wise' real quick in those circumstances, right? What about when it is a child who does something they didn't think through. Embarrassed, they didn't even want to share what happened, but being our child, they eventually share it... and 'we' hope they learned from that experience. I'm sure that has happened to all of us. None want to LISTEN to us... do it all THEIR way... and then work through the consequences/results of their decisions. Sometimes it is good. Sometimes we can only shake our heads and go 'what?' I'm sure I embarrassed my mother a lot of times. And I am pretty sure that I have also embarrassed my children as a parent. (Sorry about that!) I will always answer my children's questions as truthfully as I can.... but sometimes, answers don't need to elaborate. And I'll leave that there.
Anyway - I need to get to work (I have so much to do,ya know!) and get off here. I pray that you have an AMAZING day!
Blessings!
