When I suggested to hubby that we not go to the cabin but instead visit a couple places in the state and actually DO something, and stay at a hotel a night or two.... he came to me yesterday morning and said he thought about it and he thought that was a good idea - BUT THEN he says... "we can stay in a hotel up north for 3-4 nights." And do what? It only takes one day to see what I suggested to see. Drive up one day, walk around, stay overnight, go see the attraction the next day; come home - or at most, stay one more night. But no.... he has this other mindset. He drives me crazy. I think it was my comment "if we go to the cabin I'm buying TV dinners for the entire week" that got him. Some times I think food is all he thinks about. Yesterday morning he went out to breakfast with his friends... at 7:30AM.. ... around 11AM he asked about lunch and I thought I'd heat up some left over chicken - and he said to he'd have some too. I looked at him in shock - "you just ate breakfast!" "Yeah, but that was at 7:30! And he ate again. I didn't fix dinner though. I wasn't really hungry so only had a piece of string cheese and some crackers; I'm not sure what he ate.... I don't remember. But I didn't cook.... so heaven forbid he would cook something. I don't think we have any more TV dinners.
I wanted to go visit Ms. Diane last night so I called over - no answer. A little later her daughter called - Ms. Diane had been taken to the hospital the day before. Guess she had gotten up out of bed Wednesday night and fell, hitting her head on the nightstand... and it bled... and she was so weak and disoriented that she crawled into different rooms.... her daughter called Thursday morning and no answer.... and since her mother was prone to leaving her phone in the bedroom, she wasn't too concerned. But she did take time to come over late morning - to find Ms. Diane laying on the floor, where she had laid all night. Blood on the tile floor and on the carpet. They had an ambulance take her to the hospital - we never even know it! Our hospitals have gotten so bad - she had been taken to the hospital mid-morning on Thursday - and yesterday was STILL IN THE ER! She is a diabetic and has a sore on her foot - which was there over a month ago for I saw it then - and it is now huge and has started going up her leg. A medical person was supposedly coming over to check on it - but obviously wasn't for it had not been treated. I told her daughter she was a good daughter to see her mom every day and to take care of her. Ms. Diane has agreed that she needs to go to an assisted living facility and to sell the house. She wants to go now... which would be ideal, except her children want to check out the ALs and find one that can be good for Ms. Diane. And soon... they don't want her changing her mind when she gets back home! Hopefully they will admit her for a few days and take care of the sore, plus get her to eat more and help her get healthy. She is 86, I think.
Had I shared with you about Ms. Amy? I know, I'm rambling thus far this morning. Sorry about that. I am hoping to get over to visit her this afternoon - which might be for the last time. Her daughters, Pamela and Melessa where here for about 10 days earlier this month. Melessa has MS and can't do anything, but Pamela had to bring her as Melessa lives with her. Anyway... Pamela worked hard and did a lot of packing and getting Ms. Amy's things together. The movers came a week ago, I think, and loaded up the furniture Ms. Amy wanted to take to Florida. The following Tuesday (was it just last Tuesday?) Pamela and Melessa headed back to Florida. When they arrived, Pamela was having a hissy saying her key didn't work in the lock so called me to come over and open the door. Interestingly, after I opened the screen door, she tried her key on the the main door and opened it. She took my key and said she'd rather use it. Ok.... never saw her again.... then Tuesday morning she shows up at the door to hand me the key ring back and tell me they were leaving and 'oh, thanks for what you've done for mommy'. I glance at the keyring and notice no key (not that it is a big deal) and commented that the key wasn't there. She informed me that 'she had already taken care of everything at the house; her younger sister and husband were coming out in a couple weeks and they have their own key (but does it fit?) and I don't need to do ANYTHING with the house anymore and Ms. Amy doesn't need to be brought back over. It was kind of rude, actually, the way she said it. Fine - I don't need a key. I do admit I was curious as to what furniture the daughter decided to send, versus what her mother wanted to take. I was planning to go over and do a looksee.... but I now have no key and have been told it is none of my responsibility anymore. She also said she had taken care of all the mail - I hope she hasn't screwed that up - it was going to the son in Indiana except for a few pieces. I haven't checked the mailbox since they left, but I may today if I think about it. I had a thought about texting the brother and tell him ... but decided I'd just mind my own business. But, I do want to go over and see Ms. Amy - probably for the last time as she is to go to Florida the first week of June. I would like to tell her goodbye.
And then there is Ms. Vicky. I haven't seen nor talked to her for a couple weeks so do need to touch base with her this weekend. Hopefully she is doing ok. She is around my age... but is a large woman and has a bad knee and uses a walker even in the house. I hope she hasn't fallen. I do have her garage access number and can get in her house, although I've never tired it. She hasn't called me either. We did get some of her mail yesterday and we could just put in her mailbox, which is next to ours... may do that this morning.... and then I can check her mailbox and take the mail to her this afternoon if she hadn't gotten it yet. Praying she is doing ok.....
I am going to our Ladies Heart Crew lunch at church today. Still trying to get involved with some of the women from church. It starts at 11AM and I will 'assume' it will be over around 1PM. It will be a nice break in the day too. I think I will need to clean up for that - although many will wear jeans. I haven't been to any of these luncheons yet so will figure out the 'dress code' today.
Maybe I will cook breakfast this morning - bacon and eggs and toast. Hubby will eat anything I fix and I'm sure he is hungry....he usually is. I don't want to go out to eat; afterall, I'm going to a luncheon today. Actually, a bacon and egg sandwich sounds good. But then, I do have potatoes so maybe I'll fry up a potato (diced) and then add a mixture of eggs, jalapenos, onions, cheese in it... I still fix that occasionally and it is still so good. Yeah, I'll fix the potato/egg dish... that will fill hubby up and he will be ok with snacking for his lunch.
Psalm 23:3 (NKJV): "He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake."
He restores my soul. Some days - especially lately - that is what I need. Do you ever recite/quote the 23rd Psalm? I'm sure you know it all. But this morning I am thinking about this one part. He restores my soul. Ever feel like life has hit you and you feel like you have been run over by a mack truck (wherever did that saying come from? Did someone actually get hit by a mack truck?)..... and you do not know where to turn or what to do or what to say.... and you feel so empty inside.... ? It is then that we can cry out to our Shepherd and ask Him to 'restore my soul'. When we call out to Him, He will answer. Perhaps not in ways we want to hear or see, but He will answer.
If I have nothing left, I know I have Jesus. I have my Heavenly Father. I have the Holy Spirit. And my soul is restored. In Him I have HOPE. I live, because He lives. And, because He still lives, I can face tomorrow. Because I know that He alone holds my future, the future of my loved ones, and it is in Him that I trust. I am so grateful He drew me back to Him years ago so that I could be prepared for 'such a time as this'. My heart is in anguish over things... and it seems one thing after another is going on at this time... but I know I can believe in His faithfulness to me. I can believe that He will orchestrate everything in His time. And I know He cares for me and will walk this journey with me. Can you just imagine how I'd be if I didn't know Him? I am beyond grateful for His intervention in my life.
Does your soul need restored this morning? Are things kind of crazy at your house too? Lean into Jesus and let Him not only restore you, but lead you .... for His name's sake.
Blessings!
