I was asked to be part of a panel that would share things about being a mother that I would want passed on to future mothers. I declined. Why? Because I don't feel I was as good of a mother as I should have been. I didn't have an example to follow, so I didn't know how to be a mother, and learned along the way. The most important thing I learned, in my opinion, is to love Jesus and to surrender my life to Him. I shudder to think what my life would be like if I had not chosen to follow Jesus. So when asked, although I was humbled, I declined.
But, I did propose another idea. As I was praying about last night (and it seemed to work in my mind all night!) I proposed that I speak to grandparents. God reminded me of the times I took the grandchildren to church on Wednesday nights. He reminded me of the precious letter I had received a few weeks ago from a granddaughter who gave me credit for her taking a step of faith in teaching a class at her church. I decided that if these people would accept my proposal, I will share a part of that letter. I have only shared it with a couple people because I didn't want anyone to think I was being prideful of anything but my granddaughter. Stay tuned; I sent them the email this morning and will see if they will agree. If not, then I will decline their invitation to speak.
I didn't meet up with my daughter last night for 'girls night out'. I needed to do a run to Sam's Club and pick up a few things. Sigh. $300 later, as I unpacked, I realized I had bought only junk food. I guess I have really missed it.... I bought crackers snacks, chips, lots of nuts.... only one package of meat. Go figure. I didn't even buy the drinks I normally get - but I did get the protein drinks that we like. Oh well. That will last us a couple months.
Hubby got a phone call from his friend and they didn't meet last night either. But I did get to go to Sam's Club alone. When I got home, instead of me cooking the thawed out chicken... hubby wanted to go to Chipolte's. But - when we got there, the line was to the door and he didn't want to stand in line. So we went to McAllister's. I didn't have to cook, which was nice, but daggone - since when did one full sandwich, a half sandwich and a half salad, and two drinks cost $35?? I made her read back the order to be sure she didn't add something on there! Plus they want a tip!! Yeah, we won't be back there for awhile. Restaurants are getting way too expensive anymore. I'd rather cook at home or go to 'fast food'. But even they are getting expensive! Hubby doesn't look at prices; he gets what he wants. I look at prices first, then I decide. Always have. Always will. I know what it costs to prepare that food.
Bought a bottle of sugar free hazelnut syrup for hubby to put in his coffee for something different. Ugh. He put it in mine this morning and I will need to tell him to leave it out - or put in a lot less. I just can't get in to these syrups too much - too sweet for me - even the sugar free ones.
Today will be another busy day and I am dreading Monday when my co-worker takes off for 8 weeks and leaves me with her 8 doctors to take care of. I don't mind scheduling meetings or submitting expenses for them, I didn't know I'd also have to attend some of these meetings and take minutes! UGH. I need to review her list of instructions and contact her to go over the questions I know I will have. I waited as I figured I'd forget before she left. I'm still praying for a miraculous healing and that I won't have to cover for her as she won't need the surgery! But surgery is scheduled for May 1. I'm praying she won't need it. Back surgery. And she said they found her back was fractured as well.
John 3:16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him, will not perish but have everlasting life.
Lord, I believe; please help my unbelief.
Sometimes that is where we are in life, don't you think? We believe that Jesus is the Son of God, and yet, we don't really believe IN Him. Does that make sense? I mean, afterall, if we truly believed that Jesus is the Son of the Living God, wouldn't we follow Him? Wouldn't we want to be like Him? Wouldn't we want to obey His precepts? And yet, we say we believe.
And when we get to that ... we must also add, Lord, please help my unbelief - not in You, but IN You enough to choose to follow You.
Holy is His Name.
Believe. No doubt. No question.
He is.
Jesus.
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