Changes are sometimes good, right? Of course I'm referring to a change in my work locations/jobs from the past couple months. Actually it is exactly two months today that was my last day at my "old" company. I was able to have lunch with three of my former co-workers yesterday. Yes, I actually DROVE to a location about 5 miles away to meet with them. I only panicked a couple times while making sure I was going the right direction!
Being directionally challenged is tough! BUT! I also want you to know that this morning I had to go get some labs done. Normally I would drive all the way back to my side of town and take my usual route to work. But I didn't. I chose to be brave.
I asked Siri to take me to work. She took me a totally different direction - then north to pick up another freeway, then 21 miles on this freeway got me to another one, and then I knew where I was and made my way into work. It took only about 50 minutes this way - but I was on the 'other side' of town so it would not be an option unless my usual road what totally shut down. It would take me 30 minutes to get to where it would take 50 - and it was 8AM in the morning! I love Siri.
But, back to changes.... in meeting with my friends yesterday I heard lots of stuff that was going on at the "other place". And it made me glad I was gone. I do miss my friends, but, even with all my stress here in this new position, I am grateful God provided this new job.
Sometimes we just need to pause and say 'Thank you, God' because of the changes in our lives. Some change hurts. Some change is good.
We are going to be changing churches too, with all that is going on. For right now, it is our speaking times from November to March so most people will not even realize that we are gone - gone. We do plan to go back a time or two before making the final end. We have a lot of friends there too, but with the church moving to a new location, and not being able to trust Leadership on what they have done in the past and being left out of all the planning, we feel they are wanting us to leave. They are closing the door - not that 'they' had ever opened it. Relationships is not on their agenda. We've always gone back because we have been there for so long, but God removed his hand from the church and it is floundering. Not sure what the pastors are thinking. They don't share with us.
So that will be more change. We went to a new church a couple weeks ago and we know the pastor and it was a very good service. Enjoyed feeling God's presence again, and love of the pastor and people. Worship was wonderful and the message left you thinking about it, instead of trying to figure out what had been said and what value it had in anything.
But enough of that. Change is good in most cases. And in ours, it is a good thing.
Blessings!
Wednesday, November 15, 2017
Friday, November 10, 2017
Things are quieting down....
The chaotic-ness of my job has finally settled down. I'd like to think I am just that efficient, but reality is that I just had to get to the point of getting things done. And, now that they are, my work life is not as chaotic or consuming as it was. I've learned a lot the past two months - well, I guess it actually hasn't been two months yet - until the 18th. But I have still learned a lot, and have a lot more to learn. But for now, things have settled down, all of the meetings have been created and sent out, and life moves on here.
Christmas gifts that I have ordered have already started to arrive at our house. Yeah, I know that if I would wait and order closer to Christmas I could probably get cheaper, but, I would also have the stress of getting what I want, it arriving on time, and all that stuff. Sometimes paying a little more is worth it. I want to spend December baking things, not shopping online - or at the store!
Since I have changed jobs I don't have much vacation time built up yet. AND, because the holidays are fast approaching, I have less. What I mean is, when they said we had 27 days at the beginning of the year - that sounds great. However, they built the 8 hours for each holiday in that time, so when we have a holiday, it comes out of our vacation time. For example, I have about 20 hours vacation time built up thus far. We are off work for Thanksgiving, and the day after if we want it. But, by taking both days, I lose 16 hours vacation time. Not that it is a big deal - between now and the first of the year - actually, until at least Spring, I generally do not take much time off work. I would like to take one day off in December to finish up any Christmas baking/shopping that I need to do. And I probably can, even though my vacation days earned this year all goes for Thanksgiving and Christmas days off. I'm salaried now, which means if I need to leave early, I'm not docked for my time. I put in more than my 8 hours a day so over the week they would still get my 40 hours. I'm not used to being able to 'come and go' as I want and I would never abuse it. But it is nice I can take 1 1/2 hours for lunch if I want to and not stress about making up my time on the clock because we're limited to 8 hours a day. I know that if I really need to leave early - or even if I just want to leave early, I don't have to make up my time.
It's about time to start planning our 4th (I think) Annual Turkey Trot Run/Walk for Thanksgiving morning. I really enjoy that time of connecting. I get the turkey on before we leave and for that hour or two that we're gone, it's a refreshing time. Since I don't have Thanksgiving at our house, it takes away some of the busyness. Some day I will have Thanksgiving at my house again. In fact, come to think about it, I think I did do a separate Thanksgiving for one son's family last year because they couldn't join us. I DO have a small turkey that I could fix for that family. I could do that on Friday after Thanksgiving.... what do you think, son? Would you and your family be interested?
Christmas. I love this time of year. I love more the part of having family around me. I don't care if we're playing games or just having a meal together, I love having the family around. Family completes me. Memories is what I want to leave behind, good memories of love and fun times.
Melancholy again! I think I better quit! Hope that your day today is a special....
Blessing!
Christmas gifts that I have ordered have already started to arrive at our house. Yeah, I know that if I would wait and order closer to Christmas I could probably get cheaper, but, I would also have the stress of getting what I want, it arriving on time, and all that stuff. Sometimes paying a little more is worth it. I want to spend December baking things, not shopping online - or at the store!
Since I have changed jobs I don't have much vacation time built up yet. AND, because the holidays are fast approaching, I have less. What I mean is, when they said we had 27 days at the beginning of the year - that sounds great. However, they built the 8 hours for each holiday in that time, so when we have a holiday, it comes out of our vacation time. For example, I have about 20 hours vacation time built up thus far. We are off work for Thanksgiving, and the day after if we want it. But, by taking both days, I lose 16 hours vacation time. Not that it is a big deal - between now and the first of the year - actually, until at least Spring, I generally do not take much time off work. I would like to take one day off in December to finish up any Christmas baking/shopping that I need to do. And I probably can, even though my vacation days earned this year all goes for Thanksgiving and Christmas days off. I'm salaried now, which means if I need to leave early, I'm not docked for my time. I put in more than my 8 hours a day so over the week they would still get my 40 hours. I'm not used to being able to 'come and go' as I want and I would never abuse it. But it is nice I can take 1 1/2 hours for lunch if I want to and not stress about making up my time on the clock because we're limited to 8 hours a day. I know that if I really need to leave early - or even if I just want to leave early, I don't have to make up my time.
It's about time to start planning our 4th (I think) Annual Turkey Trot Run/Walk for Thanksgiving morning. I really enjoy that time of connecting. I get the turkey on before we leave and for that hour or two that we're gone, it's a refreshing time. Since I don't have Thanksgiving at our house, it takes away some of the busyness. Some day I will have Thanksgiving at my house again. In fact, come to think about it, I think I did do a separate Thanksgiving for one son's family last year because they couldn't join us. I DO have a small turkey that I could fix for that family. I could do that on Friday after Thanksgiving.... what do you think, son? Would you and your family be interested?
Christmas. I love this time of year. I love more the part of having family around me. I don't care if we're playing games or just having a meal together, I love having the family around. Family completes me. Memories is what I want to leave behind, good memories of love and fun times.
Melancholy again! I think I better quit! Hope that your day today is a special....
Blessing!
Wednesday, November 8, 2017
It's almost Thanksgiving....
It's hard to believe how fast this year has gone by - and yet, isn't that what we generally say every year? I finally told myself to get on smile.amazon.com the other evening and started looking for Christmas gifts. I'm at a loss again this year as to what to get everyone. In the past 5 months or so I have probably seen children/grandchildren maybe two-three times - except for those that go to the church, but even then, don't see often. Not seen enough to get an idea of what they like or want. Of course the children usually say don't worry about us. Which is exactly what I say.
All the grandchildren have quilts. All the children have quilts. That leaves that out at least this year - although one granddaughter said she would take another quilt because she gets so cold (just like me!!). Not sure that will happen this year, but at least I can put it down for another year.
We have a new great-granddaughter... I KNOW she doesn't need clothes... but bigger sizes may be what she will get. Toys? Maybe. We were thrilled when we were surprised with a visit the other night.
I'd love to start baking - but it is really too early to fill my freezer with baked stuff. I will probably start the first of December. And hopefully can get the grandchildren over to do some baking. I hope they enjoy it as much as I do. I also hope that the memories of all these years of baking with Grandma is something they will treasure and share with their children and grandchildren. Distance keeps some away, but I love it when the others comment they can't wait to come over and bake cookies and make Christmas mice. I just love being with the grandchildren.
First, though, we have Thanksgiving. Somehow, in the "what do I bring category", I held back commenting until all the others stated what they would bring. We'll be going to our youngest son's house. Why is it I always get to bring the turkey, dressing, and giblet gravy? But I don't mind. I need to start looking around for a big turkey and gather the stuff I'll need. I wonder if the other two will want dressing and gravy saved for them.....
Reckon I need to get to work.... thinking about turkey and dressing and giblet gravy makes me hungry!
Blessings!
All the grandchildren have quilts. All the children have quilts. That leaves that out at least this year - although one granddaughter said she would take another quilt because she gets so cold (just like me!!). Not sure that will happen this year, but at least I can put it down for another year.
We have a new great-granddaughter... I KNOW she doesn't need clothes... but bigger sizes may be what she will get. Toys? Maybe. We were thrilled when we were surprised with a visit the other night.
I'd love to start baking - but it is really too early to fill my freezer with baked stuff. I will probably start the first of December. And hopefully can get the grandchildren over to do some baking. I hope they enjoy it as much as I do. I also hope that the memories of all these years of baking with Grandma is something they will treasure and share with their children and grandchildren. Distance keeps some away, but I love it when the others comment they can't wait to come over and bake cookies and make Christmas mice. I just love being with the grandchildren.
First, though, we have Thanksgiving. Somehow, in the "what do I bring category", I held back commenting until all the others stated what they would bring. We'll be going to our youngest son's house. Why is it I always get to bring the turkey, dressing, and giblet gravy? But I don't mind. I need to start looking around for a big turkey and gather the stuff I'll need. I wonder if the other two will want dressing and gravy saved for them.....
Reckon I need to get to work.... thinking about turkey and dressing and giblet gravy makes me hungry!
Blessings!
Tuesday, October 31, 2017
The last of the month....
and here I sit at work....somewhat bored. Either I am just too efficient and organized, or there just isn't enough work to keep me busy. One of my bosses is on vacation. Another boss - the one who keeps me the busiest - is traveling today because the executives in the southern office and this office have dressed up. The southern office drove up this morning for breakfast (which was furnished by the executives- eggs, bacon, fruit, biscuits and gravy, potatoes etc) and then left an hour later to head down south to that office for the lunch.
I borrowed a dress - Renaissance (sp) - from my granddaughter - to wear for Halloween here at work. Yes, I could actually get into it. I wore it to the office today. Peer Pressure to dress up. No biggie. As soon as the executives left, I took it off and put my jeans and comfy shirt back on. I borrowed her crown too. It's still on my head. Somethings I just can't let go of yet.
I've been on Amazon this morning looking for Christmas gifts. Either my imagination has gone to sleep or I am at a loss as to what to get everyone for Christmas. I absolutely have no idea. No one. And I can't think of anything I could use. Maybe pajamas. Sweaters/Shrugs. There is a new translation of the Bible that I want to begin to get... Passion Translation. I love the way they word the scriptures. I think it is fairly expensive though - which is why I haven't already gotten some of them. Now I know why my mother always said there is nothing she needs. I'd rather have one on one time with my children and grandchildren. That's the best gift I could ever have.
I learned to knit this past weekend. Trying to knit a dishcloth. I have already made a mess of it, but my friend who is teaching me can show me how to fix it. Now I either have to knit or sew. I certainly can't do both. I've got to declutter so that I can work on crafts. I'm bored to death with TV.
Declutter. Another goal for 2018.
Hope you are having a great day!
Blessings!
I borrowed a dress - Renaissance (sp) - from my granddaughter - to wear for Halloween here at work. Yes, I could actually get into it. I wore it to the office today. Peer Pressure to dress up. No biggie. As soon as the executives left, I took it off and put my jeans and comfy shirt back on. I borrowed her crown too. It's still on my head. Somethings I just can't let go of yet.
I've been on Amazon this morning looking for Christmas gifts. Either my imagination has gone to sleep or I am at a loss as to what to get everyone for Christmas. I absolutely have no idea. No one. And I can't think of anything I could use. Maybe pajamas. Sweaters/Shrugs. There is a new translation of the Bible that I want to begin to get... Passion Translation. I love the way they word the scriptures. I think it is fairly expensive though - which is why I haven't already gotten some of them. Now I know why my mother always said there is nothing she needs. I'd rather have one on one time with my children and grandchildren. That's the best gift I could ever have.
I learned to knit this past weekend. Trying to knit a dishcloth. I have already made a mess of it, but my friend who is teaching me can show me how to fix it. Now I either have to knit or sew. I certainly can't do both. I've got to declutter so that I can work on crafts. I'm bored to death with TV.
Declutter. Another goal for 2018.
Hope you are having a great day!
Blessings!
Thursday, October 19, 2017
I'm so cold....and....
it isn't even winter yet! It's only OCTOBER!!
My little corner M-F is literally in a corner, and I have a window off to the side.... the window is not the problem.... the problem is the two air vents directly above me. I am freezing. And I have been since I started here. Hence the sweater that came in with me on day 2. It stays at the office.
Today I have a jacket on. I'm still freezing. Yesterday I wore a blouse, a shrug, AND a sweater on top of that. I am pretty sure they won't turn the air up to a higher temperature just for me. No sense in complaining. I did get up and take a little walk outside a bit ago, hoping to warm up.
But the weather is not cooperating today.... it's cloudy out and rain (seriously, they have forecast rain - in Phoenix/Mesa) is on the agenda. So it's probably in the low 70's - it was 72 when I came in this morning. I took a little walk, but didn't warm up much. So I came back up and fixed a cup of hot green tea.
It's times like this I even pray God will give me a 'hot flash' - although my hot flashes were never that bad - I've seen women really sweat during one - and it cracks me up. I may get a little warm, but it never lasts more than 30 seconds so it's no big deal to me. I can take a sweater off - and then turn around and have to put it back on!
I don't know why I'm always so cold - doesn't matter if it is summer or winter - I am freezing. Hubby can have the fan on, and I'm buried under a blanket watching TV or reading. I'm about ready for the fireplace to be lit. Only problem with that is that the heat isn't blown out into the room - it just sits there and looks pretty. You have to be within six inches of the fire to feel any of the heat. But it does look nice.
I need to invest in more long sleeve tops, I think. A little bit more cooler and I'll start wearing sweaters under the sweaters. When I leave here in the afternoon, the temps have usually warmed up so a sweater would be way too warm. Occasionally I still put the air on about 1/2 way home. Other nights I just sink into the cushion and let the warmth of the seats warm me up.
And that's ok. I'm just unique and different.
Kind of like how people are when they say they believe in God. You can tell more by their warmth - than you can by their coldness. Not to say it has anything to do with body temperature - but more like heart temperature. I know people who would fight to the death that they are Christians, but their lives, their words, their actions all say a different thing. I'm not perfect, by any means, and I often have to go back and apologize for something I said, or something that could have been taken wrong. Everyday I ask God for forgiveness and if there is something I need to apologize for, to bring it to mind so that I can be a witness for Him.
How warm are YOU today?
Blessings!
My little corner M-F is literally in a corner, and I have a window off to the side.... the window is not the problem.... the problem is the two air vents directly above me. I am freezing. And I have been since I started here. Hence the sweater that came in with me on day 2. It stays at the office.
Today I have a jacket on. I'm still freezing. Yesterday I wore a blouse, a shrug, AND a sweater on top of that. I am pretty sure they won't turn the air up to a higher temperature just for me. No sense in complaining. I did get up and take a little walk outside a bit ago, hoping to warm up.
But the weather is not cooperating today.... it's cloudy out and rain (seriously, they have forecast rain - in Phoenix/Mesa) is on the agenda. So it's probably in the low 70's - it was 72 when I came in this morning. I took a little walk, but didn't warm up much. So I came back up and fixed a cup of hot green tea.
It's times like this I even pray God will give me a 'hot flash' - although my hot flashes were never that bad - I've seen women really sweat during one - and it cracks me up. I may get a little warm, but it never lasts more than 30 seconds so it's no big deal to me. I can take a sweater off - and then turn around and have to put it back on!
I don't know why I'm always so cold - doesn't matter if it is summer or winter - I am freezing. Hubby can have the fan on, and I'm buried under a blanket watching TV or reading. I'm about ready for the fireplace to be lit. Only problem with that is that the heat isn't blown out into the room - it just sits there and looks pretty. You have to be within six inches of the fire to feel any of the heat. But it does look nice.
I need to invest in more long sleeve tops, I think. A little bit more cooler and I'll start wearing sweaters under the sweaters. When I leave here in the afternoon, the temps have usually warmed up so a sweater would be way too warm. Occasionally I still put the air on about 1/2 way home. Other nights I just sink into the cushion and let the warmth of the seats warm me up.
And that's ok. I'm just unique and different.
Kind of like how people are when they say they believe in God. You can tell more by their warmth - than you can by their coldness. Not to say it has anything to do with body temperature - but more like heart temperature. I know people who would fight to the death that they are Christians, but their lives, their words, their actions all say a different thing. I'm not perfect, by any means, and I often have to go back and apologize for something I said, or something that could have been taken wrong. Everyday I ask God for forgiveness and if there is something I need to apologize for, to bring it to mind so that I can be a witness for Him.
How warm are YOU today?
Blessings!
Wednesday, October 18, 2017
Time goes on....
It's been a couple weeks since I've put anything in here..... and I'm still working - I guess that is a good sign. The stress has gone down some, but currently, I'm not completely good with everything yet. I FINALLY got all the meetings I needed to do created and in the system. Now to go back and get lunches and snacks and other things ordered for these meetings. I still need to work with the hotel where a few of the meetings are - found out last week that the person I had been calling and leaving voicemails for, sending emails to, well, he is no longer there. So I finally got ahold of another person Friday - they were to call me back. They didn't. I sent an email yesterday. Still no response. I'm going to call again today. The first big meeting there is November 6 so I got to get on it.
And I'm tired. I'm growing weary of the pressure of having to work all the time. I don't know if I will have any vacation days until ?? I understand we get 7 hours a pay period, but holidays come out of that time as well.... and Thanksgiving is our next holiday and we have two days off - and I currently have 8 hours. After Thanksgiving will be Christmas. I will be squeezing grandchildren in on the weekends to get the Christmas baking done - but I guess I pretty much do that anyway. I love Christmas and I certainly don't want 'things' to get in the way of celebrating with the grandchildren by baking cookies and making Christmas mice. I want to find some other things to do too - but just don't know if I can find the time to find anything. And that's ok. I think they are happy making cookies.
Need to start pulling together messages for the next six months. I think I speak about 2-3 times a month some months. Since we go to two facilities, it is easy to do one message at both places - but still, I need to do about 8 new ones since those are at one facility. It will all come together and I love Pastor Steve for letting me pull his messages and make them mine. He knows I do it - I tell him - and give him the results. Occasionally I can pull one of my own pretty much together, but with the lack of time to do it, it's easier to take one already created and make it mine by deleting some things and adding my stories.
And when I get home, I'm tired, so I sit and watch a movie or read or review facebook. I need to get focused and get things done. So much I want to do, but when I get home I'm not only tired, but usually discouraged somewhat, and lose all desire to clean or straighten things up. I have started my Amazon Christmas shopping - so I guess technically, that I am getting something done. Christmas will be skimpy... don't know what I'll get everyone.... it's so hard to make that decision.
Need to get busy - have lots to get done. Think I will start playing the lottery. If I could win a million dollars, I could quit work. Then again, I would have to go to work to keep my sanity. Catch 22 I guess.
Blessings!
And I'm tired. I'm growing weary of the pressure of having to work all the time. I don't know if I will have any vacation days until ?? I understand we get 7 hours a pay period, but holidays come out of that time as well.... and Thanksgiving is our next holiday and we have two days off - and I currently have 8 hours. After Thanksgiving will be Christmas. I will be squeezing grandchildren in on the weekends to get the Christmas baking done - but I guess I pretty much do that anyway. I love Christmas and I certainly don't want 'things' to get in the way of celebrating with the grandchildren by baking cookies and making Christmas mice. I want to find some other things to do too - but just don't know if I can find the time to find anything. And that's ok. I think they are happy making cookies.
Need to start pulling together messages for the next six months. I think I speak about 2-3 times a month some months. Since we go to two facilities, it is easy to do one message at both places - but still, I need to do about 8 new ones since those are at one facility. It will all come together and I love Pastor Steve for letting me pull his messages and make them mine. He knows I do it - I tell him - and give him the results. Occasionally I can pull one of my own pretty much together, but with the lack of time to do it, it's easier to take one already created and make it mine by deleting some things and adding my stories.
And when I get home, I'm tired, so I sit and watch a movie or read or review facebook. I need to get focused and get things done. So much I want to do, but when I get home I'm not only tired, but usually discouraged somewhat, and lose all desire to clean or straighten things up. I have started my Amazon Christmas shopping - so I guess technically, that I am getting something done. Christmas will be skimpy... don't know what I'll get everyone.... it's so hard to make that decision.
Need to get busy - have lots to get done. Think I will start playing the lottery. If I could win a million dollars, I could quit work. Then again, I would have to go to work to keep my sanity. Catch 22 I guess.
Blessings!
Thursday, October 5, 2017
Yesterday....
Yesterday started off as a good day. My mind awoke to a song chorus playing in my head....
Your love is greater
Your love is stronger
Your love awakens
Awakens
Awakens me
Your love is greater
Your love is stronger
Your love awakens
Awakens
Awakens me
and when I went to do my quiet time, the devotional book I recently bought is called Awaken by Priscilla Schirer. The words she shared about awakening your mind and heart in scripture really spoke to me. Today was another good devotional.
But, then life happens and gets crazy at times. Work is going well but I have so much to learn. I'm so used to a boss who is pretty much self-sufficient and can do a lot of things on her own. I still have her but also have a new boss who the person before me waited on hand and foot and did everything for her. She wants meetings on top of meetings and I rarely can find a conference room for her meetings. No exaggeration - I have about 30 meetings to schedule for her between now and March. And that isn't counting the ones that she throws at me every day. I go home worn out and mentally exhausted.
I think I got admonished this morning. The former 'secretary' came over to me and asked if I went in early to the conference room and turned on the audio/visual for this meeting. I just looked at her and said, no, I didn't know I was supposed to. She seemed perturbed that I didn't do it. She had told me the other day that she was from the Philipines and in HER former country they did everything for their bosses. "That's why a lot of US companies go to the Philipines because we take care of them." I bit my tongue. I wanted to say this is the US and OUR people do things for themselves. But I didn't. I just let it go.
Today is another eventful day..... my daughter's 16th BMT birthday. I wonder if anyone ever remembers but me. I did create a post on Facebook and I sent her a text - and for some reason, I have been shedding tears all morning. Is it because of the stress I'm under here or just remembering that year of the unknown - whether she would live or die - I don't know. Only by God's grace did she get bone marrow from an unknown donor and it "took" so that her body healed. Her life since that time has been very traumatic - but not from the BMT - but from life itself. Some brought on by herself, some by others. And that hurts too.
Some days I just want to run away..... the pain is real. I know my thoughts are going all over the place today.... and I need to get to work. Hope that your day is a good one... I'm going to make mine good.....
Blessings!
Your love is greater
Your love is stronger
Your love awakens
Awakens
Awakens me
Your love is greater
Your love is stronger
Your love awakens
Awakens
Awakens me
and when I went to do my quiet time, the devotional book I recently bought is called Awaken by Priscilla Schirer. The words she shared about awakening your mind and heart in scripture really spoke to me. Today was another good devotional.
But, then life happens and gets crazy at times. Work is going well but I have so much to learn. I'm so used to a boss who is pretty much self-sufficient and can do a lot of things on her own. I still have her but also have a new boss who the person before me waited on hand and foot and did everything for her. She wants meetings on top of meetings and I rarely can find a conference room for her meetings. No exaggeration - I have about 30 meetings to schedule for her between now and March. And that isn't counting the ones that she throws at me every day. I go home worn out and mentally exhausted.
I think I got admonished this morning. The former 'secretary' came over to me and asked if I went in early to the conference room and turned on the audio/visual for this meeting. I just looked at her and said, no, I didn't know I was supposed to. She seemed perturbed that I didn't do it. She had told me the other day that she was from the Philipines and in HER former country they did everything for their bosses. "That's why a lot of US companies go to the Philipines because we take care of them." I bit my tongue. I wanted to say this is the US and OUR people do things for themselves. But I didn't. I just let it go.
Today is another eventful day..... my daughter's 16th BMT birthday. I wonder if anyone ever remembers but me. I did create a post on Facebook and I sent her a text - and for some reason, I have been shedding tears all morning. Is it because of the stress I'm under here or just remembering that year of the unknown - whether she would live or die - I don't know. Only by God's grace did she get bone marrow from an unknown donor and it "took" so that her body healed. Her life since that time has been very traumatic - but not from the BMT - but from life itself. Some brought on by herself, some by others. And that hurts too.
Some days I just want to run away..... the pain is real. I know my thoughts are going all over the place today.... and I need to get to work. Hope that your day is a good one... I'm going to make mine good.....
Blessings!
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