Mixed emotions this morning - part of me wants to stay home (snuggled here in my warm blanket this cool morning) and the other part wants to go worship Jesus at church. Yes, I can worship Jesus at home too (maybe that is part of my problem) but the need for community and being with others is necessary to fulfill. Am I just being lazy? I probably am. We stayed up late watching Christmas movies again and then I didn't sleep well, and I'm not sure why. Finally got the body up around 5AM, I think, just because I was tossing and turning. Why won't the mind realize it is the weekend and getting up at 4AM isn't a requirement?
I did have a good breakfast with Melonie yesterday and she and I went to a thrift shop afterwards. She had told me about this one, but I had never been there. Oh my goodness. It was such fun to walk through it. It was a busy place, and there were lots of very nice things, laid out where you could see them and not having to dig through things. Unlike Goodwill, which is FOR profit, and unlike Savers, which supports Big Brothers/Big Sisters, this place supports Hospice of the Valley. In fact, I was surprised, when I was going to pay for my purchase, I asked how much and she told me the total that was on the item. I asked about tax. She said they were totally NON-PROFIT, therefore NO TAX was collected, and all the money was sent to Hospice of the Valley. Guess what, I will start clearing things out and they will get my items to sell. Every thing is laid out very nicely and it is actually better than going to a store! I was quite impressed with it and will go back when I have more time.
Didn't do much after I got back home as I was waiting on an Amazon delivery to take to the granddaughter. I guess she is back at her apartment. That makes me very sad, but I cannot interfere. The item finally arrived, but as it was getting dark, I told her I would bring to her today; I don't know that area that well and don't think I want to be in it after dark. So, will get to see the granddaughter and her newest little one today, if only for a few minutes.
Then, I do need to go visit Ms. Diane. Her three children were at the house yesterday emptying it out. She is very sad that they are going through everything, and refused to take her home long enough to take one or two personal things to keep with her. Nothing in her little room at the group home is 'hers'. She sits all day in a recliner and watches TV or just sits there. She did say yesterday they got her up and helped her walk a bit with her walker.
I also need to go visit Ms. Vicky, as it has been a couple weeks. I always feel guilty when I go too long to visit these women. They are alone and most times I'm the only one who stops in for an hour or so. Ms. Vicky does have a roommate, which is very interesting, in that she stays in her room nearly all the time and doesn't come out and chat or watch a TV program with Ms. Vicky. They don't even eat together. The roommate will heat up something and take back to her room to eat. If I'm there, she always stops and says hello, but other than that, I never see her.
So it looks like my day is going to be pretty full with visiting everyone. No baking this weekend, I guess. Not that I need to. I just enjoy baking. Got me some bread baking 'equipment' and still want to learn (or re-learn) how to bake bread. Need to see what else I need. It would be something I'd need to start in the morning as I would have to let it 'rise' throughout the day. But the smell of fresh bread, right out of the oven, is so wonderful.
Matthew 6:33 (NKJV): But seek first the kingdom of God, and all these things will be added unto you.
So many people worry about having enough money (and yet spend foolishly when they have it), worry about clothes (yet, their closet if full), about other things (and yet, they probably have these things)... it's just worried foolishness. When we first seek God with all of our hearts, He will always provide what we NEED. It may not mean we get all that we WANT, but He will provide what we NEED. I truly believe that. Like Paul has said in the scriptures, I know what it is like to be in want, and in need, and yet, I also know what it is like to have plenty. My words.
We've been in both places. There have been times in the past 60 years I did not know where the next meal was coming from. There have been times when we had all the food we needed, and more. Times when I would stitch clothes to last a little longer, and times when I could just go to the store and buy something. God has always provided for us, and He always will, as long as we seek Hm first.
So how are you doing with that? Are you seeking Him first? I don't mean getting up early and spending time in the Word, which is always good, but do you pause when you first get up and say 'Thank you, Lord, for this day'? Ok, I don't do that. I crawl in here, climb into my recliner, cover up with blankets and grab my reading for the day. But the key is, put God first in your life, and He will always provide all that you need.
And... now I need to get off here and head for the shower. Got to smell pretty for church. Have a good day!
Blessings!
