Many years ago, so many that I don't remember exactly when, I can remember waking up with my hip bone hurting. We marked it up to bursitis; never did go to the doctor; it always went away once I got up and started moving around. It finally totally went away and I haven't had it in years. It has always been my left hip bone because I tend to sleep on my left side.
Speed up to October 2024 when hubby and I were staying in a hotel up in Prescott for a weekend and I was awakened at some time during the night (I probably could go back to a previous post to find the time, but it has no bearing on this discussion) with sharp pin pricks on my left inner thigh, but what woke me up completely was the intense searing pain that shot down from my hip, down my thigh to my knee. Long story short, as I've mentioned THAT journey numerous times, we 'think' those were scorpion bites because one of the 'traits' is the venom hits the bones. Well, Urgent Care did nothing but refer me to my dermatologist, whom I saw the next day. As the swelling (it was about 1-2 wks later) had spread about 8" in diameter, he marked it and said if it got worse, go to the ER for an infusion of antibiotics, gave me a second prescription for antibiotics and sent me on my way. He also told me to never bother with an Urgent Care, they can't do anything; go to the ER for true critical care. I made several visits to the dermatologist and the swelling and redness started to subside and the pain I felt lessened. November 2024 I tried to get in to see my PCP as I wanted her to take a look to give me a medical opinion on why I was still having pain. No availability for several weeks. Ok, it's the holidays, I'll let it go.
In January 2025, I still have the bites showing on my inner thigh and occasionally get 'pin pricks' and it is still painful. I call my PCP again, only to be told to 'go to your dermatologist since you have been under his care' because she had no availability for 4 months. I did go back to the dermatologist as under the skin there was a gray area (in my view) - they finally took a biopsy, which showed nothing, of course. That cost me a couple $100. And I made the decision in July to change PCPs since I could not get in to see mine. I went back to Dr. Mark. He did a complete physical and said that I was in excellent health. At that time I had been having no pain, other than an occasional pin prick in that general area of my thigh where the bites had been. But there is nothing showing on the skin, so nothing to base anything off of. I do have photos, but there is nothing there now.
I do not have leg pain or hip pain during the day. But the other night, I got the pain in the left hip bone and the shooting pain down to the knee as before. I got up and moved around and all was well. Last night - or rather, this morning, yes, I was laying on my left side, and I got the searing pain in the hip bone which shot down my entire leg - and my right hip bone started with the pain shooting down. What in the world? As it was 4AM and time for me to get up, I went ahead and got up and walked without difficulty. But even as I have sat here in my chair, although the leg pain is minimal, the left hip bone is still telling me it's sore. I did upper body exercises last night. I've been doing 50 squats every day for the past 40+ days, so it isn't exercise. What could be going on? No, I'm not going to run to the doctor. I am not going to be one of those 'old ladies' who run to the doctor with every little thing that hurts.
But I will admit, with my brother in law having severe back pain from multiple myeloma, and knowing that my mother had multiple myeloma (but I don't know the location) that was treated with chemo for six weeks and then it supposedly was 'gone'... has entered my mind. I refuse to have fear. If something is wrong in my body, I am trusting God to bring healing and wholeness to it. He created me in His image, and He is the only One who can heal me, if something is wrong. I refuse to live in fear and in this moment, unless I begin to have pain at other times than from my laying on my side every night and the hip bone/thigh bone pain increases, I'm only going to pray for healing.
I find it ironic that I am being 'distracted' with my own pain when I have been praying for healing in my children's lives more intensely than ever before, due to their own medical issues. Hubby's issues were prayed over and God took the chaos of his body and brought healing and peace. And I am claiming that not only for my children, but for myself. I am more focused on prayer, more intense in praying. One, because it is my child(ren) that is affected. Two, What is going on with me is nothing more than the devil trying to distract me to focus on me. Too bad, Satan! I dedicated my children to God many years ago. I surrendered myself to God Almighty years ago. Satan, you have no hold on any of us and your power was defeated by Jesus Christ, whom I serve! Get over it, Satan! Get out of our bodies, out of our lives! Go back to where you belong - in hell!
My God, whom I serve, will sometimes allow us on a journey to draw us closer to Him. If this is what it takes to get my entire focus upon Him, so be it. I am surrendered to whatever You desire O Lord.
Romans 11:36 (NIV): For from Him and through Him and for Him are all things. To Him be the glory forever! Amen.
The journey that we are on is sometimes not for us, but for those watching us. Will we grow in the journey to the One who can save us, or do we turn away and blame Him? Oh that I will always keep my face turned to Jesus, who is the only One who can save me!
On another note, just an FYI, I went to the oral surgeon yesterday for the consult on having the tooth removed..... I agreed I want it done right away; let's get it over with. I was offered today; this afternoon! I expected to wait at least a week or two. I declined today; but did accept to have the surgery Thursday afternoon. Yes, this week. My appointment is at 2:30PM. I love that he will put me to sleep for this surgery. And, I have already picked up the one tablet of xanax that I am to take one hour before the surgery to keep me calm. I have the rinse to use for several days after the surgery. I have the antibiotics to keep any infection away (which should also help with anything else going on in the body, right?), and I will be picking up the Percocet today to offset any pain. The last two times I went to this surgeon for a tooth removal, I had minimal pain; I'm hoping for the same with this one.
I can work until time to head over to the surgeon's office, which is very close. No coffee, no food, no water (except for the xanax) for 8 hours before I head over. I do need to call my dentist office today and cancel my Friday cleaning. I don't think having a tooth removed on Thursday and going for cleaning on Friday is a very good idea. I can also work on Friday, cause it will be a light day and if I need to lay down, I do have the bed in here; if I get it cleaned off, that is. I do have one side of it with minimal packages on it. This weekend I will be decorating - at least get my trees up so that I can wrap these gifts and get them under the trees!
And with all that wonderful boring news, I am getting off here. I have a few minutes left that I can do some reading and maybe even write in my journal. I've kind of stopped the journal writing since I am writing in here nearly every day.
Which reminds me - tomorrow I probably will NOT be writing. Just a heads up. I have a 6:30AM HIIT training at the gym with Morgan, then I will be driving on to meet my boss for breakfast and will be gone until about 11AM. No time to write and I'm not going to stress out about it. You survived last Sunday, you can survive tomorrow. :-) Until then...
Blessings!
