I awoke at 3;30AM this morning - not because of excitement of finishing up to leave for vacation, but because I woke up. So rather than tossing and turning, trying to go back to sleep, I went ahead and got up - and tried to go back to sleep in my chair. That didn't seem to happen. So about 4:30AM I started my reading... and of course got so sleepy. Hubby brought in my coffee, and even that didn't entice me to stay awake. So ok, I'm thinking, I'll try to sleep agin. Well, I may have, but my end result is that I now have a headache. Did I sleep? Did I sleep deep? Heck if I know! Finally, I decided I needed to continue on with my usual morning things and finish up. Took an ibuprofen so hopefully the headache will go away. NOT the way to start day one of vacation!
Yesterday was so frustrating... and I ended up telling my boss - the male one - that he FAILED the girlfriend test. I can't remember how much I had shared about the May 20-June 3 meeting fiasco and the email being on the president's calendar versus a meeting notice on here, but it is finally resolved by 4:30PM yesterday that it will remain on June 3rd. And you are welcome. I had 3-4 more paragraphs of what had happened and my anger and frustration at the lack of responsibility of others to respond to emails and READ them before responding. I erased them. Oh, my boss failing the Girlfriend test? I had reached out to him to vent - and he was more concerned with sharing his frustration over a meeting. Big fail. LOL
My suitcase is nearly packed and ready to go. We're going to get 4th generation photos done this morning before heading out so I need to make sure my hair is fixed and makeup on. LOL Not that it changes me in any way. I do hope the photos turn out well. I need to quit being so self-conscious about how I look and just be me in photos. I saw something recently that has made me rethink about digital photos. I know I have lost a lot of photos (and I know I have a lot of photos on thumb drives) over the years. I also have let my children go through numerous photos and take what photos they want. I am happy to let them have whatever they want. But, I have tons of loose photos in a couple boxes, and I have several on my phone. I'm going to buy some more albums and have some of these printed. Some I'll throw away (scenery, backs of heads, etc), but I am going to make it a project to print my photos and put in albums. Why?
Because that is how the memory keeps going. As my phone fills up with photos, I have started deleting some. My dropbox keeps telling me it's full. Last time I think I had over 7K photos, it told me. Now that also includes recipes and documents, etc. But still. And I can never find the one photo I want to find in a quick manner. No, I don't know how to do the folders and I don't want to learn. So I've decided the next time Walgreens has 50% off photo printing, I'm going to do a couple hundred at a time and print and then eventually put in albums. Nothing creative and fancy. But so that when I'm gone, people can SEE the photos and take them if they want. I lose my phone - the photos are gone unless they are backed up - and I don't mess with that either. I'm a simple girl, and I like it that way. I miss grabbing a photo album and just skimming through photos that brought me joy. Perhaps I need to look into Shutterfly. My granddaughter surprised us with a book of her wedding photos she had printed shortly after she married a few years ago and it is a treasure for me. I can pick it up and look at it any time I want. Perhaps I ought to look at that. Just select the ones of a certain time and have that printed. I'm done getting three copies for my kids so all have. They don't want 'my' memories. So I will make one copy and then they can decide who gets it. And life goes on. What if a great-grandchild would want an old photo of me - as we all age and move on, things are not as important and things get thrown away and deleted - what if there are none to be found? What if YOUR grandchild wanted YOUR photo years from now.... would they be able to find one? That one printed copy may be all they can find.
I know. My thoughts are all over the place this morning. My heart is in a longing mode this morning. So many things I want to do to leave a legacy for my children and their children and their children... how can I do that....
I can bless them. Just like the Blessing... even now I can bless them for generations to come.
"May the Lord bless you and protect you. May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you. May the Lord show you His favor and give you His peace." (NLT) Numbers 6:24-26
Life is fleeting. All that lasts is the legacy you leave behind. Make memories. Ones that can be passed on and treasured.
Got to get busy this morning - I'm on vacation!
Blessings!
