and I'm excited and busy planning in my mind (actually, I have for a couple days), what I can do in that two hours. You know how hubby fusses at me and gets in the way when I clean anything. Today I want to 'attack' the laundry room; specifically the counter in the laundry room. It has become buried under spice racks, paper and plastic bags, crock pots, bins, and honestly, I'm not sure what all is there! But it has bugged me for some time; I want to have space on it - it looks absolutely horrible, although no one sees it unless they come in through the garage. Which is how we go in and out most days.
So this last week I searched for shelving that I can set on the counter and somehow straighten it up. I bought two of them, and they arrived the other day (hubby wasn't home so I hid them in here). I put one of them together yesterday while hubby was gone for a little while. I wanted to see how it went together and I figured it out. All by myself. Imagine that. It really wasn't hard, thank goodness.
Hubby has 'men's crew' this morning, which is the men's breakfast at church. I will only have a couple hours, so I will need to work quickly. He will leave in about a half hour. As soon as he is gone, I plan to pull out the card table and move everything over that I can to it, and get a section of the counter cleared so that I can start going through things. Sneaky, yes, but I am excited just to have that time to myself that I can do it without interruptions! I know you don't understand it. I enjoy cleaning things. I enjoy putting things in their place. I'm just not always 'allowed to', and definitely not without interruptions when I am allowed to. So I have to do it when hubby is gone... and then of course he gets upset that I did it without him checking on me. It's worth it. I feel I have accomplished something and a task is cleaned. There are a few more things I'd like to do, but I have to stretch them out and watch for the times that I can.
You think I'm nuts, don't you?! And that's ok. Until you walk in my shoes, do not comment.
I didn't sleep real well last night, and I'm not sure why. I awoke around 3:10AM and the words, "Holy Spirit, come and fill us; come and fill me" kept running through my mind. I also prayed for my boys, for I never know what they are up to. I dozed and when I was awaking again, it was the song "You can have it all, God, you can have it all" was running through my mind. It's all His anyway.... but interesting that it came to my mind in the middle of the night. I finally got up around 5AM, knowing that I would be spending my time in here alone for a couple hours. I love - and live for - these few hours in the mornings that I get to spend with God.
I'm still pondering if I am to teach a class at this time. I did talk to hubby the other night about having a small group on Monday evenings... we can have about 3 couples - or at the most, 8 people come. I have actually been thinking of what I could teach. I had given up the thought of discipleship as I had ordered a book in November - and it never arrived. Interestingly, it arrived yesterday, I kid you not. I have no idea why I hadn't gotten it before now, but it came yesterday. I'm still praying if I am to teach it, or Experiencing God or Seeking Him or any other class that I have done before. Or perhaps God has something else for me to teach. I'm throwing out a fleece or two to see if I am to teach at this time or just not teach. It is something I enjoy doing, and I know what each of those classes did to help me in my walk with Jesus.
I had a cousin pass away Thursday evening of heart issues. That 'issue' seems to run in my family as well, as all my brothers have/had heart issues. This cousin lives in Tennessee. I don't know him very well as he was about 4 years older than me. It just brings the reality that life is truly 'short'.... for all of us. The more I age, the more I realize that I am at the end of my life, and God can take me Home with Him at any time.
I know I am ready to go be with Him, but the question for many of you would be.... "If my life was taken today..... would I be in Heaven, or Hell?" Some people believe that 'once saved always saved' - and that is not true. Repentance is a daily thing. I don't want anything to keep me from being with Jesus. With those I love who are in Heaven. Remember months ago I wrote about 'rapid repentance'. Sometimes that means frequently. When was the last time you repented?
If you should die today... what would be the legacy you would leave for your children, your family, your friends? What words would they have to say about you? Do they know where you would be going? It's not a joke.... you will go to either heaven or hell. Just because you go to church; just because you accepted Jesus as Lord in your youth, it doesn't mean you are still a Christian. Repentance always plays a part when you seek Jesus. Remember the thief on the cross? He sought Jesus' forgiveness, and got it, and Jesus told him that he would be going to Heaven. But we are not always 'lucky' enough to have those few minutes to make that decision. You need to make that decision now.
What will you choose? To live life as you are now... and leave that legacy to your family.... or choose Jesus and leave a legacy of knowing where you will be going; and having peace, joy, love in your life? Something to think about, yes?
Hubby is leaving and I am wanting to get dressed and get busy while I can. Give some thought to Jesus. Who is He to you?
To me, He is Lord of all. Everything I have is His. I can take none of it with me. I surrender all to Him. Do you?
Blessings!
