Yesterday was an exhausting day, in more way than one! It was the 4th Monday this week - meaning that I was overwhelmingly busy. Meetings that required senior leadership who had no time on their calendar for this meeting. By begging and pleading, I was finally able to get an hour for this one meeting that was critical - on September 28th with all senior leadership. Trust me, I did pray over that meeting and begged God to help me convince the admins to move meetings for their leaders so that it could work. And they did. And He did. Grateful for His intervention.
Then at the tale end of the day, the imaging place calls where I was to go this morning to get my DEXascan... and seems that because I changed PCPs and the 'old' PCP had written the order, he either cancelled it or he wrote the wrong date on it - for it 'expired' Wednesday. They called the old PCP's office and was informed I have a new PCP. Fine. They call the new PCP, but hadn't received a response yet - so they cancelled my service for today and we rescheduled for next week. I don't think I even need it, but they were wanting to see if the Fosamax was helping any. Since my appointments have mis-coded due to NOT being seen at that PCP's office... I've had to pay for everything that has been done - whether blood work or testing. I'm just paying it... too much energy to spend trying to contact everyone and argue with them that it was included in the 'well checkup' since my new PCP and I only got established and she didn't request any tests. In fact, I got notification yesterday that the $16 copay I made at the clinic the other day is being denied because I paid it using my Health Equity card - which should cover medical, and I can't prove that it was a medical service. Things like that give me a headache - it was at the clinic, for crying out loud! What did I do - buy dinner?
And I laid awake from about 12:12AM on today, rehashing things I need to get done - contact the new PCP that I need my prescriptions renewed and where to send the new prescription; do I really need the DEXascan this year, can it wait; what did my initial visit with her get coded that I have to pay for it; do I need another visit with the new PCP... all these things kept running through my mind. I said the Lord's Prayer and added a lot to it. I prayed for my boys. I prayed the 23rd Psalm. I did all I could to try and fall back to sleep, but could not. Then I finally started falling asleep and I felt hubby get up so looked at the clock.... I had been refusing to open my eyes to see after 2:15AM. It was 4:24AM. As I get up, I remembered that LAST Friday I had changed my alarm for Friday to 5AM. I forgot to change it back. So I took the time this morning to get my alarm reset so that next week I don't 'oversleep'. And here I am. Sleepy, groggy, and exhausted still.
Hubby took me out to dinner last night and even though I took a sweater, the restaurant was very chilly and I got chilled to the bone. Especially after being in this room all day, wrapped in a blanket. Yes, this room is the coldest in the house and I freeze nearly every day in here. So last night after we came back home, I put my jammies on and put on my long robe. He made fun of me, but I sat with an additional blanket on me for about an hour before I finally warmed up. Have you ever been so cold your bones hurt? My bones don't hurt this morning, thank goodness. I'm just really tired from not sleeping and chilly.
James 3:13 (NKJV): "Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show by good conduct that his works are done in the meekness of wisdom."
I have never claimed to be 'wise', but I try to make smart choices. Or wise choices, whichever word you choose to use. And if I do choose the right words to say or make a wise choice, I certainly don't brag on it. I have done a lot of stupid things. If I choose rightly, I thank God for helping me make the right choice/ my thinking had nothing to do with it.
What about you? Do you think every choice you make needs to be bragged about? Or do you just do it and remain silent, especially if you are right? If you are wrong, you know everyone will be talking about it, right? A goal for both of us could be to be wise (slow to speak?) and understanding (listen to all the pros and cons before making a decision?) and just 'do the right thing for the right reason'.
I am reminded this morning of an old doctor who was still working at a company I used to work for. He was a wonderful man, but was nearly 90, I think. He made a couple mistakes that weren't a big deal, he just approved a thing or two he shouldn't have in medical review. So 'they' decided to 'escort him out of the building' and let him go. I actually threw a temper tantrum, and went into the President's office and stated my case for this doctor. I told them that if they were forcing him into retirement, this was not the way to do it. You don't just escort someone of his caliber out of the office. It wasn't that he was stealing anything; just made a couple approvals that shouldn't have been made. He was an OB doctor in his prime and he was approving OB stuff. Anyway - I insisted that we throw a 'Retirement Party' for him and even if I had to pay for it, we needed to celebrate him for the years he had been with our company. And I walked out of the President's office. I planned for and ordered a large cake and bottle water. I scheduled the party, spoke with his wife to get him there because I wanted it to be an honored surprise. And it was a surprise for him, and many employees came in (to get cake mainly) to share stories with this doctor and congratulate him on his retirement. He came to me later and thanked me for doing the party.... and his words touched my heart. He said, "You allowed me to leave with my head up; thank you. I will be forever grateful." And the President of the company said that I was right... I did the right thing, for the right reason. Now, I'm not sharing that for a pat on the back. That was many years ago anyway... but sometimes we need to look beyond ourselves and do the right thing for the right reason. I could have just shrugged and said 'oh well'.... but I couldn't. It was wrong how they were treating him, and I felt he deserved more. And I have never regretted it. And the company DID pay for the cake and water.
See what happens when I'm tired? I start rambling. More than usual. One more work day this week and then what...?? I hope to get some reading done. Did read a bit last night. I actually was able to chuckle about something - a friend send me an email and asked if I had read 'Unrelenting Prayer" by Bob Sorge. Now he is one of my favorite authors and although I've tried hard not to buy many books the past few months, I thought I may have that one... and the first place I looked was on my kindle. And, sure enough, there it was! Looks like I got to about chapter 5 before I had quit and gotten distracted for some reason. So I started it at chapter 1 again and decided to read it. I sent her a quick note back that I did know that author and have several of his books already. The first book I read that he wrote is a devotional that I dearly love and have read and reread it numerous times. In fact, I have it here on my bookcase to read again once I finish the devotional I'm reading now. I am pretty sure I have shared that devotional many times before... and will again. Secrets of the Secret Place is a devotional that will turn your world upside down. It really taught me a lot and teaches me and reminds me again when I read it of our part in our walk with God, and His part.
God is good; all the time God is good. He puts things in our hands that cause us to think and ponder and turn for His glory alone. What can you do today to praise our God who watches over us and hears our prayers? Something to think about.
Blessings!
