I read my son's blog before jumping on here and I will admit, for a mom reading just a brief outline of what is ahead, is overwhelming. I can't imagine what my son is going through. And I feel so helpless for I can not do it for him. I can not take on any of it. But I will do what I can. Be here for him, and pray. And pray hard. Sometimes that is what we are called to do. Sometimes that is all we can do. And trust. And believe. And hope.
Yesterday my daughter spent the day in the ER. Her feet and ankles were swollen - with no reason. Since her feet are nothing but bone, it was very obvious the feet and ankles were swollen. It was interesting how they operate there. Operate may not be the word, but 'do business', I guess. When she got there, shortly after, they drew blood and did a chest x-ray. I guess that is called triage. Anyway, she then sat in the ER waiting room for it seemed like 5 hours before finally being assigned a room in the ER. Long story short, they did a doppler/ultrasound on her left foot and checked out the blood circulation in her legs - and all seemed to be well. They don't know what is causing the swelling and redness. She kept asking for food in the evening as she had been there since about noon and it was around 8PM, I think, at that time. They finally brought her sandwich, chips, sprite, and oreo cookies. I gave up waiting to hear what was going on about 9:30PM and went to bed. Shortly afterwards got a text that they found nothing so sent her home. But she got a meal out of it! Better than nothing, right? For losing nearly an entire day sitting in the waiting room. Still, she also got blood work done, a chest x-ray, a circulation test completed.... and is told to see her cardiologist - who told her to go to the ER. Unless they will get her in earlier because o this hospital visit, she has an appointment on the 30th.
I had an interesting call yesterday from a former pastor at the RV park where I spoke at last Sunday. He asked for a copy of my message, telling me there are a lot of relationship issues in the park - where it is no longer called cliques, but tribes. Same thing, different words. Anyway, I guess he writes inspiration things for the park newsletter, and he wanted to take some things from the message and write about it. I emailed him a copy. I hope he sends me a copy; would like to see what he pulls out of it. Pastor Kim is a retired Nazarene pastor, so when he compliments me, I know the delivery was good. :-) Next Sunday we are up north, then two weeks later back at this RV park and then I'm done for the season.
Yesterday was somewhat quiet, but I still had things to do. The rest of this week I will be working on board stuff to get it all caught up. Quit my procrastination, right? But first, and I forgot this morning until hubby reminded me as he brought in my coffee..... I need to take my car down to AAA Repair down the street - they need to do a fuel flush of some sort, I think it is. Plus turn off the 'change oil light' that comes on every time I start the car. They changed my oil less than 300 miles ago - but obviously forgot to reset the notification. Shouldn't take long, but hubby is going to follow me down and pick me up and drop me off at home on his way to the gym.
The gym. Which reminds me. I don't know what my problem was yesterday, but I just couldn't get into the 'HIIT' - to the point I once told Morgan I was going to cancel my workouts cause I didn't want to do the one she told me to do! She told me she could take out the HIITs if I wanted her to. That got me - I guess I DO have control over what I do..... but I think I was just having a bad day. And she said she was too tired to deal with my complaints and if I didn't want to do it, she wasn't going to push me on it. She really IS tired! I don't know what this heaviness is that I'm carrying around, but I want to get rid of it.
I read a couple sentences in a book this morning that I wanted to share this morning, and wouldn't you know it - I didn't write them down and now I can't find them. Perhaps tomorrow. Or later today I can go back and see if I can find it. It was a sentence, an ordinary sentence, that spoke to my heart. Or to my mind, anyway. It touched me where I am. Have you read things like that - that although you have read that sentence perhaps two-three times before when you read the book (yes, I do read some of my books over and over - and am doing that with two now) - and each time - or perhaps for the first time, a sentence touches you were you are. I may or may not find it. I couldn't even tell you what the sentence was now - or whether it was a scripture from the Bible I read. But, for that moment, I had to read it two-three times, because it spoke to me.
Well, I need to get off here and get dressed to turn on the work computer and then get down to AAA Repair. But first, I need to put Voltaren on my nuckles.... a couple of them are swollen and sore this morning and I can barely move them - gotta love arthritis. And because I type -and have for - wow - since I was in high school! - I have used these knuckles a lot - and then add in crochet and knitting.... yeah, my knuckles have been used a lot - let alone with my daily activities. I guess they are starting to wear out. Thank you Voltaren for removing the pain!
Take a moment to pause and just 'be'. Sit with your hands open, close your eyes, fit flat on the floor. Just rest. Take a few deep breaths and let them out slowly. Inhale 1, 2, 3.... exhale, 1, 2, 3, ..... relax. Breathe. Know that Jesus is Lord of all, and He loves you so very much. You are His.
Blessings!
