I didn't get up until nearly 5:30AM again this morning. In my mind, I've 'lost' 1.5 hours that I could have been reading and spending time with God. This happens some on weekends. When we didn't go physically to church, it wasn't a big deal, cause I could still spend as much time as I wanted here in my room. But, now that we go physically to church, I do have to stop by 7-7:15AM so that I can jump in the shower and get ready to leave. Funny thing, this morning.... I didn't sleep real well last night and the thought entered my mind to stay home ... but then I told myself that I was going to church. Then when hubby brought my coffee in, he says to me, "I'm not going to church this morning. I didn't sleep well last night and I'm not feeling too good. You can go if you want to."
Now that just fed right in to me, didn't it! But I didn't let it! I had already shaken off the devil and decided I was going to worship anyway. But he tried again by hubby not feeling well and deciding to stay home. But, I will get up soon and get ready and go to church. I'm not sick; I'm tired from not sleeping well, yes, but I'm going to church. But that is just how Satan works. He plants that thought in your mind... and then when you overcome that thought, he comes in a different way. Not this time, Satan! I'm going to church!
We had a fun time at our 'group potluck' last night, sitting around eating and talking. We had chili hotdogs, salad, and vegetarian mac and cheese (not bad, but too much butter for me), and I made 'Settler's Beans (which were really good, by the way), and guess what else I made! It was one of the women's birthdays and she had mentioned she loved German Chocolate Cake. So guess what I made her from scratch! German Chocolate CHEESECAKE!! Actually, I made her a 4" one, and then I took a 9" one for everyone (and refused to take any back home with me) and then I have a 6" one that we have for our dinner guests tonight.
We have dinner guests coming over... I'll check with hubby to see how he is feeling when I get home from church. If he still isn't feeling well, I'll postpone our dinner guests. Need to find out before I start preparations anyway.
I'm having hip problems, I think. Althought it isn't my hip persay, but the joint of my leg attaching to my pelvic bone, I guess it is. I noticed a couple weeks ago when I got into hubby's car, the seat was low (a friend who is much taller than me had ridden in it and moved the seat back/down) and I kind of 'fell' into the seat. I noticed this pain on the left side, but thought it was becaues I was sitting 'off', so I just moved my butt around until I was comfortable. It went away. The pain has happened a c few other times now when I've gotten in his car (and I have since moved the seat back up where it belongs and is easier for me to get into). But the other day, I got the sharp pain the left side unexpectedly. I wasn't in the car. Then yesterday, as I was cooking, it hit me again on the left side, and I felt a twinge of pain on the right side, same spot. The pain was so intense that for a short time I couldn't even walk. WHAT is going on? The thought occured to me that perhaps this is a side effect of the Fosamax, because there are bone issues with Fosamax, althought it is supposed to put a 'sheathe' around the bone, it can also cause the bone to break. No, my bone isn't broken, but why would my joint when my femur attaches to the pelvic bone start to hurt - and why such sharp pains? I haven't done any extensive walking. Nor extensive exercise. It's out of the blue and I'm at a loss as to why. I do have a doctor's appointment for my physical on August 15th so unless it happens to where it disables me doing anything, I'll wait till then to mention it to him. Is this another sign of 'old age'? I don't mind getting old - I just don't want to feel old - know what I mean?
I like to sit on my leg, and do that frequently. Have I been doing it for so many years that now I have messed up that joint? I don't know... I only know that when it hits (it isn't constant, has only happened a few times), I can't walk as my leg crumbles under me. It won't allow me to put pressure on it. I do have a Lifeline Screening appointment on the 26th... I did it about 3-4 years ago. I pay $148 or so and they do 5 critical tests (or more) to identify if something is wrong. They first alerted me to a couple things that I brought up with my doctor - nothing to worry about, but to watch, like cholesterol was clogging my arteries some... they tested my carotid artery with an ultrasound. They do other tests too and I figure it is a way to get some tests done all at one place and they will send the results to my doctor. Let him figure them out. I get a copy as well, which is nice. Overall the last time I was healthy. Now that I have to take a cholesterol pill at night (doctor told me it is heritary, not my eating habits so much) hopefully my arteries aren't that clogged. They also diagnosed my bone density was leaning towards osteoporosis..... 3 years later I was diagnosed with osteopenia. Hence the Fosamax. Enough of my medical ramblings.
Sunday. A day of rest. A day of worship. A day of spending time with God. A time of turning our thoughts to the Creator of Heaven and Earth. A day of just being with Him. I look forward to these days. I could spend every day just resting in His Presence. But, unfortunately, I have to work. Perhaps I need to play the lottery.... you can't win if you don't play, right? Yeah, I don't play.
We had a wind/dust storm come by on our way home from group last night - in fact, I drove home in wind and rain and lots of lightening. My nice clean car I got washed last week is now spotted with dust and rain drops. Oh well. I try to keep it clean.. but with our crazy weather, it isn't possible. My cushions were on my chairs last night, but don't know how wet they got - the rain just kind of blew through.
This chorus has been going through my mind this morning... it's the song 'All my Hope' - look it up and take a listen.
"All my hope, is in You. All my strength, is in You. With every breath, my soul will rest, in You."
Jesus is our hope, al my hope. He is also all my strength. With every breath I take, my soul rests in Him. I pray you lean into Him and allow Jesus to be your hope, your strength, as well.
Have a blessed Sunday!
