Yes, I said lazy. We slept in yesterday and then after our 'quiet time', I fixed breakfast for hubby and I. During that time my youngest calls to say that he had received an email there were 5 'walk-in' openings for blood donations at the post. Decided I would try to give. So after breakfast we went to pick up the combo box I get occasionally and then on down to the post. At first they told me no, but then the person got corrected and said yes - so I was able to donate my blood. Haven't done it in awhile so maybe the phone calls will stop now from Vitalant to try and schedule me. At least for a month.
From there we came home and in a little bit I went to Walmart with the intention of getting sink matts as ours were breaking up and I threw them away. They had one - but it was for a large sink. so no sink matts. Will look on Amazon, I guess. Or go to the dollar store; perhaps they have. Wish Big Lots was back open, they would have. Anyway - I did buy a few things and then came home. Hubby was sound asleep in his chair. I unloaded the car, put things away, and was sitting down crocheting when he woke up.
I didn't cook. I even fixed TV dinners for dinner. I didn't go visit Ms. Diane or Ms. Vicky. I read some; I took a 10-minute nap; I crocheted. We watched a movie last night; I read some more. And that was my Saturday. Super lazy for sure. Now I'm thinking today - will I do all the things I didn't do yesterday - today? I know we plan to go to church, but hubby has been coughing an awful lot this morning. Not sure if he will come in and suggest we not go and watch on TV. But then, we haven't been in two weeks (one I had a headache I think, and the other we were in NM) and we really should go. But if he's coughing a lot, that will be distracting and scary for some people. It started on our way to NM he said - figured it was because the air was turned down so low and being out in the open (allergies?) for the photo shoot. But it has continued and he's taking Olive Leaf Extract and Black Elderberry Syrup to combat it. I'm not monitoring him so it may only be once a day instead of the 3-4 times a day when you are sick. We have plenty of cough drops so showed him those last night. Will see. I need to jump in the shower this morning whether we go to church or not.
I'm not planning on doing much of anything today - although I should. And I may get the eggs ole' made. And I may go visit Ms. Diane and/or Ms. Vicky. I have some things in the back of my mind I'd like to do as well..... but will take it one day at a time.
Proverbs 1:7 (NIV): The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction.
What do you think this verse means? That we should fear God? Yes, we should fear God, but not the way you may be thinking. We shouldn't 'fear' of what He could do to us because we disobey Him. But we should fear Him for who He is. Does that make sense? For me, it is hard to explain, but I get it. We should tremble in the Presence of the Holy God. Not to be afraid of Him, but to fear His goodness, greatness, and love. Like I said, it's hard to explain.
I've read John Bevere's The Fear of the Lord but it hasn't really clarified it for me. (some things take a while). Currently, one of the books I'm reading is John Bevere's The Awe of God. It is somewhat along the same lines, but I'm loving this book thus far. It is set up to read a section a day. And at the end of each day is a prayer. I am in awe of God. But being in fear of Him is difficult for me for He has been my loving heavenly Father since I have come to know Him. He is the Father I never had. One that loves me and forgives me and corrects me and guides me (when I let Him) and holds me close to His heart. I worship Him; I am in awe of who He is. But afraid of Him? But it doesn't mean being 'afraid' of Him, it means to tremble in His Presence because of His greatness. Does that make sense? I don't think I'm there yet, but I want to be. I need to push 'me' out of the way and keep my focus on Him and not on me, things I want to do, or on others. Just Him.
I've learned that somewhat from the Solitude book I was reading. I really want to apply it to my life. Years ago I would tell hubby on Saturday mornings I was not to be disturbed until about noon, at which time I would come out of the room. I need to designate a Saturday morning for such a time and enclose myself in worship, prayer, and complete submission. I long for it. So why don't I 'just do it'? It's hard sometimes, but I need to carve out that time for Him.
You can't get close to God if you are not giving yourself the time and space to get close to Him. Does that make sense? I can sit here in this room and read, but that's not getting close to Him. I can watch Christian movies, but that's not getting close to Him. I can go to church, but even there, although sometimes I can feel His Presence there, it is not getting close to Him.
It's when I lay everything else down and go off by myself, shut the door, and spend that time totally focused on Him. That's when I feel close to Him. I need to quit allowing 'things' and 'reading' and people to interrupt my time with Him. I need to set aside a morning when I can completely surrender that time.
Hubby and I do like to get away and go to a hotel as a retreat - as you know. And we do spend that time reading in the room, praying (but not necessarily together), and talking about what we've read. For me, I like being totally alone with God, if that makes sense. I need to get over 'me' here as well. I need to keep my focus on God alone, not on my surroundings.
On another subject, our neighbors catacorner from us has a for sale sign back up in their yard. Our neighbors next door has theirs taken down. There is another one for sale just down the block, and in another couple months, another one will be up for sale when Marty returns from Illinois. I wish hubby would agree to put ours up for sale. My daughter called the other day and said she found the perfect house for us - and gave the address. It was the first house we owned when we moved out here. Ironically, when I laughingly told hubby about it, he said it was too small at 1394 sq ft. We have gotten spoiled, for sure, with 2105 sq ft at the one house and this one is 1800 or so, I think. I don't even remember. I wish it was more open though. Hubby won't move; he absolutely refuses. Some day perhaps God will bless me with a quaint little house with a small yard that I can plant a small garden and have green grass and a place to just sit with God. In my mind, at least, I can have that. Until I get to Heaven and then I can sit at Jesus' feet and worship Him all the time. That would be my favorite place.
And with that I need to get off here and jump in the shower. Have a blessed day!
Blessings!
