I was awake when I felt hubby getting up about 4:20AM this morning. I remembered it was Saturday; not much on the agenda, so I decided to just enjoy the entire bed to myself (instead of the 18" - 24" of a king size bed I sleep in) and enjoy the quiet. I'm sure I dozed some, but didn't arise until probably 5:45AM or so. I just didn't want to get up. And when I did, I still didn't. Wasn't that I wanted to sleep. I just felt like I had 'space'. Does that make sense? Hubby had shut the door when he got up. I was alone. I had the quietness of the morning. It was so peaceful.
But, when I saw the clock was nearly 6AM, decided I needed to quit being lazy and get up. It was just a few minutes in my chair and hubby was bringing me my morning coffee, pleased that I stayed in bed and rested. I really did need to extra rest for I have been weary lately. Very weary. Some mentally, some physically.
My body has also decided to 'react' to the things I've been putting it through and my butt and legs were hurting some last night! Not a lot, but the muscles I've used in the exercises were starting to tell me 'stop it!' But I've got news for them muscles, they have more in store, for I am determined to get my body moving and strong again. At my age it does take a lot more effort, bt I know I will feel better when I get my body stronger. And we're eating more healthy too. Well, for the most part.
My trainer had told me to stay off the scales because "muscle weighs more than fat". We all know that, right? So I've stayed off the scales for two-three weeks. Curious, I did get on the scales yesterday morning and about hyperventilated! I had gained 3 pounds! I'm at my highest ever!! But then I told myself to take a deep breath... muscle weighs more than fat... and I'm happy to report that I can actually feel my muscles on various parts of my body now. I'm holding on to that thought.
Remember the pin my daughter in law gave me years ago? "You are not what you weigh". Exactly!
I plan to use my weights here at home this morning and do some of my workout, but then plan to go with hubby to the gym probably late morning or early afternoon, so he can work out and I'll use the treadmill. My trainer hasn't given me a program yet to do on my own, other than dumbells that I can do here at home. I know the machines there, but I'm not sure what order to use them in to be effective. I do have enough books that I can probably figure it out on my own, right? I do enjoy working out and feeling good (and sore) when I get done. I am going to ask him to 'step it up' though. He's very patient with me, being as I'm 'older' than most clients. BUT, I want more. I don't expect perfection overnight... but I want to see results and to get those I need to put forth the effort. That's why I don't complain when I'm sore. It means I'm doing something!
I started - and finished - a book yesterday by Craig Groeschel titled 'Divine Direction - 7 Decisions that will change your life". He shares a lot of his life in it, but oh does he put challenges in it too. I thoroughly enjoyed the book I couldn't put it down and it was nearly 10PM before we went to bed because of it. At one point he challenged (me) us to write down one thing, one decision, that we will focus on. Not four or five, for then you get distracted. Just one thing and work on that one decision. For some it may be quitting smoking. For others it may be to quit swearing. For even others it may be making an effort to be kind. For me - it was exercise. I wrote it down. I will do some sort of exercise every day - even it is just walking (purposefully) around the house a few times. I want to quit being lazy and complacent. I have this statement on my desk and dated it - "I will make exercise a priority in my life; I will do something in exercise daily."
So if you were to think about making a decision on how to better your life... what would that be? Now I know you aren't perfect, regardless of what you may thing.... and I know I'm not by any means. But what would you want to change in your life. Take a moment, choose one thing (really, we ALL have more than one! But just focus on one) that you would like to stop doing - and start doing. Don't live with the regret that 'if I had stopped that years ago, I wouldn't have these health problems now' or 'I wish I had......... for life would be so much better now' or... make the decision to 'I will save money each week instead of buying things I don't need at this moment'. (but I always need books, right?) Notice I didn't choose that one! heh heh
Which reminds me... for some reason I have taken particular notice of... hubby asks me what book I am reading... he wants to read it after me. I know there are some that I really like and I do hand it over to him (like Divine Direction because I got a lot from it and think he would too). Now usually he reads books that are way over my head as far as what they are about, i.e., the Jonathon Cahn books - although those have sparked my interest lately and I'm going to find his first book (I'm sure we have most of them and the next one is already on preorder for September) and start reading. I heard an author on the Lance Wallnau show a few weeks back and bought the book for hubby - Counter Culture. Hubby has started reading it and he says it is about everything that is going on right now in the world... and it is deep... so deep (and scary about what this nation is coming to) that he cannot read it at night and go to bed; he can only read it in the afternoons and then get his mind off it. I'm hesitant to read it now. But I'm going to try the Jonathon Cahn books. Check him out online - he's really cool. We have several of his books, family, and I'm willing to share.....
I'm still working on my testimony that I am to present on July 22nd at the Ladies Heart Crew - which is what the ladies group at church is called. I've typed out some things, but I don't want to go in to a lot of details, and yet, I want to share how the enemy took me here.... but God... He brought me out of that. This is what WAS... and this is what IS. I'm forever so grateful to God for pulling me out of the past and bringing me to Him. So very grateful. Life isn't perfect, as I've often shared, but I've been praying and asking God to change my heart about some things, some people, and help me to be His light to my family.
I'm trusting I will be able to give my testimony on July 22nd.... when I changed the date on my colonoscopy last week from just before the wedding to the next opening, July 21st, I didn't take in to consideration that the next day I was to give my testimony. I've had a colonoscopy before (twice) and was fine, so I'm going to believe all will be well with this one too. My body belongs to Jesus so if anything is out of whack, He has allowed it, and He will bring me through it. It's good to always trust in His hand FOR me, than to believe what the devil wants me to believe.
So where are you at today in life? What is your 'divine direction'? What is the one thing you would like to change in your life - that you are willing to write it down - just one thing - write it down and work towards its completion? You can do it - go ahead, write it down. And then put it where you can see it frequently. Commit yourself to a new direction in your life. Don't expect miracles overnight that you will always get it right.... but take it one step, one day, at a time. Come on, you can do it!
Praying for you that you will make your divine decision one that you will quickly see results and be encouraged to continue to work towards your good.
Luke 1:37 (NKJV): "For with God, nothing will be impossible."
Blessings!
