I had some difficulty getting to sleep last night - and then was wakened frequently by hubby as he tossed and turned throughout. I kept telling myself it was Saturday and that I didn't need to get up early (definitely not at 2 or 3AM!) and could sleep longer. Finally, around 5AM as hubby was tossing and turning still, I finally got up. Yes, I get up about this time anyway on the weekend, but I didn't sleep much during the night so didn't want to. I came into my room, and cuddled up in my blanket and tried to go back to sleep. Not sure what time it was, perhaps about 5:30AM hubby came in and brought my coffee, apologizing he woke me when he saw I was asleep. No worries, I still wanted to do my quiet time before our day began.
My mind has still been trying to wrap around hubby falling the other day and how I can convince him to do exercises to strengthen his legs. And, it also brings the realization that I need to do it as well. It's always easier to give advice to others, but if we aren't doing it ourselves, what proof is there that it works. I know I've shared frequently my angst in not exercising like I should; although I want to. The desire is there, but the atmosphere and attitude doesn't always go there. As I think about hubby's legs being weak - and I don't know that it is just because of his surgery. Afterall, they only inserted a stent behind one knee. It wasn't as if he was laid up in a bed for weeks. He was in the hospital overnight. He was told to walk slow, and do short distances immediately. Yesterday he did not walk at all. I suggested he walk on the treadmill, and he declined. I am going to start pushing on it since it is getting so hot out before we are ready to walk. He can hold on to both sides of the treadmill and it will go very slow.
And I need to use it too. I keep making the plans in my mind to do so... and after a long day of work sitting in front of the computer, plop my butt down on the couch to read, crochet, and/or watch a movie. I also am weaker than I used to be due to lack of exercise. It does sort of sneak up on you and then you don't realize it. Until you try to open a jar of something that used to be easy and now it isn't. I refuse to be dependent upon anyone because of my laziness of keeping myself strong and active.
My goal this weekend is to create for myself an accountability sheet. It will include other things then just exercise of some sort, but I must do this for me. Perhaps hubby could use it too and it would motivate him. I have no one else who can hold me accountable, and I certainly do NOT want hubby to hold me accountable.... I would quit immediately! He just doesn't get I don't want him telling me what to do.... unless I ask for his opinion, and that is just what it is - his opinion.
I can't ask my sister to hold me accountable - we've tried that numerous times and she never completes her part of it and I've tried to hold her accountable and there is always an excuse (some legit, some not) on why she hasn't walked or done something. Right now she can't do anything because... she is having arm surgery on Tuesday - FINALLY - after tearing tendons and muscles in her upper left arm back last fall when she fell. Yes, she has delayed it all this time, suffered through the pain, and just hasn't dealt with it. Hopefully my nagging at her about it has pushed herto completion this time. She has cancelled it twice.
So this accountability sheet will be for me, to give me a push to walk more, to use some of my hand weights to build up arm strength. I need to eat better, but am not going to go there right now. It is strength I need right now, not so much working on my diet. Which in reality, isn't THAT bad. I may eat too much, but it stays with me because I haven't exercised. I don't burn the calories. And my fat belly and butt are an testament to what I haven't been doing.
So what about you? What is your goal for this weekend? What do you hope to accomplish? Clean out some boxes? Clean out a closet? I still need to do both! My bed in here is getting loaded down again; I need to get refocused and clean it off and get things put away. If I get that done, that would be an accomplishment in itself! So much I want to do...so much I tell myself I can't do because of specific personal reasons, and in that I have become lazy. Yes, lazy. Never thought I would use that word to describe myself, but I must. And I don't want to be.
Have to get up and get moving now.... something to think about. Who can you trust to not control you, but hold you accountable to live your life to the fullest? To encourage you, to make you feel worthy of effort. Find that someone who can do that. And if you can't...
look to Jesus, for He is the greatest encourager of all.
Blessings!
