I got to stay home alone last night while hubby went to meet his friends for their Tuesday evening study. My daughter and I decided not to meet up so that left me at home. I actually enjoy these times. I can do what I want. And that is always a good thing. And I did what I wanted. I watched "Heaven's War" on my Kindle Prime Video. Interesting that I can bring it up on the TV Prime Video, but watched it on my Kindle. And I didn't have to wear the ear plugs. I was home alone, so could listen without them. I crochet'd as I watched it and nearly have that blanket finished. After the movie I chose to read some more, and was reading when hubby got home. It was fun that I got to do what I wanted to do without interruption.
Sorta like why I love my alone time with God in the mornings. It's just me and Him. I read some, most days type something in here (even when I don't have anything to say), and spend my time talking with the One who loves me most. I don't want to even imagine my day starting without taking some time to talk with Jesus. He helps me sort out some things and reveals other things, and He always helps me get my feet back on solid ground.
I'm having trouble getting warm this morning and I blame it on my Wednesday pill. It always gives me chills when I take it, and of course it makes my neck and head hurt, and wears me out. By evening I am more than ready to go to bed. I haven't been walking like I should (and Hubby hasn't gotten out to walk AT ALL since his surgery, although his doctor told him to!) but have gotten on my trampoline some during the day. Not for great lengths of time, but some. I can't wait for my treadmill to get moved in the back room. Hoping it will be this next week I can get it moved into the house. Then it will be easier to get on it throughout the day for even ten minutes at a time. I'm supposed to be doing weight-bearing exercises too (talk about not doing what the doctor says!) and I have moved my weight bench out of here - and can't believe I haven't stopped to use it. I need to make a determination to start - and today will be a good day. I don't like hubby watching me and offering suggestions that he doesn't use..... but today he has a doctor's appointment so maybe, just maybe, I can get back there.
I heard something in a message last night by Mario Murillo. It was about the woman at the well and Jesus. Jesus offered her 'living water' so that she would never thirst again.... and she starts off being more concerned that a Jew was talking to a Samaratian - a Jewish man and a Samaratian woman at that! After more dialog (see John 4) Jesus tells her to go call her husband. And this is where her shame comes out - with the words "I have no husband". And Jesus tells her that she has had 5 husbands and the man she is living with her now is not her husband. So she perceived he was a prophet, and decides to get the attention off herself (isn't that what we do when confronted with truth?) by telling Jesus we Samaratians worship here, but you Jews say that Jerusalem is where one should worship.
John 4:23-24 (NKJV) "But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshippers will worship the Father in spirit and truth; for the Father is seeking such to worship Him. God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth."
Then the woman comments that the Messiah - when He comes - will sort things out.... and Jesus tells her... "I am He".
John 4:25-26 (NKJV) "The woman said to Him, "I know the Messiah is coming" (who is called Christ). When He comes, He will tell us all things." Jesus said to her, "I who speak to you am He".
And that changes everything. If you look up John 4 in your Bible (or on BibleGateway.com), you will read that the woman went into the village and told everyone what Jesus had said to her, that instead of shaming her, He was giving her the Living Water of life. And the town believed her and went to hear Jesus.
If you sat back in your chair right now and things came to your mind that you were ashamed about (they do have a way of creeping in - before we go into denial).... what would you do with those thoughts? Would you push them aside and continue to carry them on your shoulders? Words said that shouldn't have been, actions taken that you wish you had done differently..... so many things. But you know what the good part it?
When those thoughts come to your mind, all you need to do is say "Jesus, please forgive me for doing such and such, forgive me for the things I've done.... and help me to live differently. Take control of my life and help me to live as You would want me to." And you will feel such a peace come over you. The burden of shame and anger will be lifted from your shoulders. Then, if you need to make things right with someone, go to them and tell them that you are sorry. They may or may not forgive you. That's their choice. But you need to do your part. Get right with Jesus, and you too, can have that Living Water that refreshes and restores you.
Blessings!
