I mentioned yesterday that my one boss had created this list (and sent me a copy of it) of all that he does. I wasn't sure that was what he should do... but I guess it was! The President wasn't aware of a majority of the things he was doing and my boss was able to share where he was in each step. He had listened to others' perception of what he was doing, and it was wrong. My boss felt vindicated and after determining projects that were to be his 100% focus, he felt at peace about his job. We have an hour meeting scheduled on Friday so he will tell me all about it then.
Hubby and I did take a walk around the block yesterday morning before I started work... and he was wheezing by the time we got back. He sees his doctor soon and will let him know the wheezing is still there. He did give me a 'scare' as we turned the last corner to get to the house; all of a sudden he stumbled and was doing the 'catch his balance' dance. Only it seemed to be in slow motion. It was really weird. He almost fell and I reached out for him and asked if he was ok (I hadn't seen him stumble; but he shuffles his feet when he walks)... and he said he had just stumbled and was fine. As I watched him as we walked, I see more and more (even more since the surgery), his ability to walk and stand straight are as an old person. I don't know how to describe it. Other than it is scary. It scares me, so I have to believe that it scares him. I have frequently told him he needs to get active... but he has every excuse not to. And when he does, it's "I haven't done this in a long time so need to go slow" , which is correct, but don't do it slow once and stop. And I feel helpless, for he won't listen to me, but insists on doing things his own way. I am going to talk with him more about his driving. Or rather, not driving. I feel he is more afraid of losing his independence if he stops. There are many more important things to consider. At least his driving is limited to meeting his friends and doctor visits. As long as I am working, I cannot take him places. Lord, please help us! Open his eyes to admit to himself that maybe it is time....
I finished a book last night that was thought provoking and interesting. It was by the person who is having the conference this July. I figured since I wasn't going to go, that perhaps I could read the books and it would help. And it did, somewhat. Gave me things to think about. One of the things she shared I found very interesting, because I do it, I see others doing it all the time. She had mentioned to her husband that she wanted a new car. He asked her why, what was wrong with the one she had. Nothing was wrong with it, but she just decided she wanted a new one. He couldn't understand her reasoning for wanting a new car. There really wasn't one, other than 'she wanted a new car'. Her current car was 17 years old, but it had been kept up and there was nothing wrong with it at all. It ran perfectly, the body was in perfect shape; why did she need a new car? She didn't NEED a new car; she just decided she wanted one. Her husband sat her down and discussed how much a new car would cost ... and in the end, she didn't get the new car. BUT, isn't that what (I) we do at times? We decide 'oh, this is old' and although there is nothing wrong with it, we decided we need a new one. A new car. A new house. A new spouse. A new.... whatever. And the one we have is in perfect condition. There isn't a 'need', but a 'want'.
Reminds me the Ford place where I bought my Escape has been contacting me several times the past month or so. I have a 2017 Ford Escape Titantian (or whatever it's called)... it's paid for. It just turned 36K on the odometer. It's a pretty blue. They are trying to get me to trade it in for a 2019 Ford Escape (no T) that is white, with 17,000 miles. I have told them via phone; I have emailed them back - I don't want to trade my car in. I don't need to. It's paid for. It's in great condition. I only have 36K miles on it. I.don't.need.a.newer.car. And yet, they persist. The latest deadline is May 31st. Maybe then they will quit contacting me.
Another thing she wrote about I found amusing, yet interesting. Shortly after she was married she jumped up to get ready to do a morning run. Her husband told her they need to make the bed first. She didn't understand his reasoning of that. She told him that many times she would go one or two days without making the bed... she gets up and goes for her run or exercise every single morning. He told her the bed needed to be made first. Then he said something that was interesting to me. He said, "When you stop to make the bed first thing in the morning, it sets the tone for the day." Now that statement alone doesn't make a lot of sense, but if you think about it, it does. He refused to budge and she helped him make the bed.
So what do you do - that you always do - to start your day? I wish I did get up and exercise, but I don't. That is a 'habit' I need to work on. Especially since I see hubby failing more each day, I realize how much I need to keep moving so that I retain my strength. I don't make the bed; hubby insists it is his job - which he sometimes does around 11AM or so. The first thing I do when I get up (after the pit stop) is come into my quiet time and spend my time with Jesus. I read my Bible, write in a journal, work on my Bible Study, type in here, and sometimes have time to read. Sometimes I have time to nap a few minutes, depending on how long I read. Hubby brings me my coffee when he gets up a short time after I do. My want is to put God first in my day. My day gets crazy enough that if I don't put Him first, I know I will forget to do it at all. It is my choice to get up early to spend my time with Him. I don't even have to set an alarm anymore. I usually wake up 4-4:45 on weekdays and weekends. I am looking forward to when I don't have to work and if I want to go back to sleep (and as you know many mornings I do), I can, and still do my quiet time as long as I want. But for now, I'm limited timewise with working so need to get up early.
I have an appointment with the oral surgeon this morning to have a cat scan done on the tooth area they are to put the implant. And now, I'm having second thoughts on the implant. The cost has always distressed me, and I'm just at the point, I don't want to do it. I'm thinking more of just going with a bridge, which would involve two new crowns and a third 'tooth'. I don't know. I'm praying this morning that God will decide for me... based upon the cat scan... then I can tell them I just need to think about it. I see my regular dentist tomorrow for a cleaning, so hope I can discuss with him my concerns and see if he sees it my way or if I should go ahead with the implant if the oral surgeon says I need to. That has been on my mind all last evening and again this morning. I just want them to leave me alone! It is hard to eat anything with gaps between my teeth; I think there is only the left upper side that has all the teeth in it... makes chewing real interesting. But obviously real doable.
Which reminds me - I cooked a whole chicken in my air fryer for the first time last night - and in 70 minutes it was cooked and crispy. And good! We had chicken tacos last night. I tore all the meat off the bone and today we will have a chicken taco salad for lunch, and then I'll use the rest of the chicken to make chicken salad for sandwiches. Or maybe save the salad for dinner and the chicken salad for lunch. Hmmm will have to think about that. It was really good... and I long to be cooking real food again. I've gotten lazy and haven't cooked much for some time. But I want to.
Matthew 6:31-34 (NIV): "So do not worry, saying 'what shall we eat?' or 'what shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your Heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
No matter what my day looks like, no matter what comes up against me, if I seek God first, He alone sets the tone for my day and how it is going to go. I have no need to worry about today, or about the future, for I know He holds my hand.
Blessings!
