A couple weeks ago I scheduled for my car to go to the dealership for the oil change, checking out stuff, etc. Usually I don't bother with the dealership as it costs more, but I will be driving my car on vacation this year and I want to make sure everything is ok to drive. Afterall, it does sit in the garage most of the time anymore. I need to take it in at 7AM this morning and drop it off. No biggie, right? Except I need to leave early to make sure I'm 'up in the line' that forms. I forgot hubby has an 8AM gym appointment so I need to get in and out quickly so that he can drop me off at home. Should be able to do it.
Then there is a company that sells fresh fruits and vegetables and you get this huge box for $25. You have to order online and they give you three dates and times to pick up - I did it for the first time last month - and loved it. Sure beats going to the store and looking at things. I get new things to try and they are fresh and clean. The corn on the cob I got last month was delicious! Anyway - I scheduled my pickup for Wednesday. Which is today. From 10-2 is pickup. We should be able to do that easily enough as hubby will be back from the gym and I don't think has anything else scheduled for today.
There was something else I needed to do today but it escapes me right now. And I often think about hubby's memory fading. To the point I put a magnetic calendar on the laundry room refrigerator yesterday and added on it the days we have trash pick up, recycle pick up, his gym days, etc. and he hasn't even asked about it yet. I wonder if he has noticed it. My thinking is that he can put his appointments on it (although he does have a large desk calendar that he uses; I just don't go over to his desk to look at it). But he sometimes misses putting our recycle out on those days, which is partly why I did this, plus I don't always know when his doctor appointments are. Yes, I could go to his desk and look - or ask him - but sometimes I just need to refresh my mind with a glance. I have another magnetic calendar on the refrigerator in the kitchen where I keep birthdays and other things that we do on it. It helps him keep track of what I have on my agenda, i.e., when I have to drive to Mesa, activities at church I need to attend, etc.
We should be able to work around 'my' scheduled things today - with working, I just need to be sure hubby gets me picked up and dropped off, although I could get a ride home too, if it comes to that. Hubby is fussing some because he can't be late for his gym appointment. Speaking of - my trainer worked my triceps yesterday - and this is odd - remember my sharing about my left arm elbow area turning pink, appearing swollen? I had worked triceps then too. The pink was back in the same area again last night. And my left tricep/bicep area looks swollen. Intresting. I haven't looked yet today if the pink is still there. I will take my measuring tape too; I'm curious if it is really swollen or just feels like it. When I got done working out yesterday, my arms felt so big they were rubbing my sides. Make sense? LOL No, I'm not that big. It just rubbed against the extra fat.
My son asked me to participate in a program with him and I really want to do it... but as I reviewed some of the questions on the website... I felt sad. I could not remember; did not know how to answer some things. I'm sure the questions he would come up with would be ones I could... but... I have buried so much over the years and it is only occasionally that a trigger will pull that memory back out.
I need to stop eating so much junk food and focus on remembering things. I have lived over half my life, and I've let my memory fade away. I've been reading The Mind Diet book - which is made up of the Mediterrean and DASH diets - and if I would follow them, it should clear my thinking. It's not just my food though; when I am hurt by words or something someone did, I tend to bury those things. And there are also a lot of things that I would never share with anyone. Those secrets will go to the grave with me. I refuse to let things that others did to me hurt my children or others. Some things need to remain in the past.
Isaiah 43:18-19 (NKJV): "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland."
As I typed out the above scripture, I was reminded my little sister called me yesterday. We hadn't talked in nearly a month, I'm guessing. She asked if the wedding was last weekend or this weekend. I shared with her it was last weekend and shared many things about our travels and the wedding, how beautiful it was. Sent her some of the photos I have on my phone, although there are not many. I knew a tornado had gone by near them last month and had asked it they were ok at that time. They were. What I didn't know was that another storm had gone through the week after and trees around them had fallen, and I don't remember how, but their electricity went out so they spent a week at the Embassy Suites because of no power or air at the house. AND, she finally got her new refrigerator, stove, and microwave that she wanted last fall and never got. They were 'blown out' by the storm so insurance paid for new ones and she got what she wanted. Good for her. They also get a new roof and are seeking roofers who could do the job; insurance has already paid for it. She hadn't told me about the storm before; and it wasn't on the news so I didn't know. She said she posted photos - but I am trying to stay off of facebook so hadn't seen them.
Some things need to remain in the past. I don't think our friendship will ever be like it was. Some people just can't let go of the past, but want to remain a victim .... thinking it was just them... I choose to heal and live life. That is what keeps me going. I am not a victim. I am a survivor and I am strong. (i.e., I am woman, hear me roar!)
Work has kept me so busy these past three days. I'm exhausted even when I wake up, trying to sleep just a little bit longer, but knowing I need to get up and work. Hmmm.... the landscapers are working outside... and it's only Wednesday.... guess their schedule is messed up too. They come on Thursday mornings. Need to get dressed, take my car over and get it in the shop and get back home and jump back on the work computer. It's going to be a crazy off-schedule day for me too.
I'm not quite back in sync yet... maybe soon.
Blessings!
