of course it is that way most mornings anymore, but good grief! I took a pain pill about 5PM last night - surgery area was really hurting yesterday (and Dr. office called and said that was to be expected; 3rd day after surgery)... and I went to bed around 7PM I think it was. I saw no sense sitting there trying to stay awake either reading (lost cause to stay awake) or crocheting. I slept sound until 11-ish, then went back to sleep, and I could swear someone rang the doorbell around 1AM. I was having stupid crazy dreams by this time - and dingdong! I know that is what I heard! Just one time. The thought occurred to me - did Fed Ex deliver? They always ring the doorbell. Could it have been Amazon? What about UPS? One of the kids? But it didn't ring again so I dozed back off and didn't go check. I thought briefly that maybe the garage door was left open again (it sometimes gets forgotten) and the neighbor was letting us know it was open - but why ring the doorbell just one time? I'm thinking a package got left cause I heard hubby go outside this morning (I told him about it when he brought my coffee in) and he walked outside - could he have found a package? What in the world did I order that was so important to be delivered at 1AM? Stay tuned on that one - although I may forget.
After all that sleeping last night - yes, I fell asleep again in here this morning - unintentionally. I lost an hour somewhere so I am thinking I fell asleep. I had my eyes closed anyway. And I blame it all on the oxycodone. We have a funeral to go to this morning; hopefully the pain will stay subsided enough that I won't need that strong of a pill. Maybe I'll take an ibuprofen to keep it at bay - although it makes me sleepy too. Hubby wants to leave at 9AM although the funeral is at 10AM. It will take us about 20-25 minutes to get there - maybe - but this man had a lot of friends - after all, he was 93 and he had been working int he prison ministry for years before he was forced into retirement. He was a great and godly man, for sure, and greatly loved by everyone. He used to encourage me in ministry and could talk to someone for hours - if you'd let him.
We're doing well on the fast thus far, I think. Hubby grumbles at times, but I've managed to fix different vegetables and some in different ways (like brussel sprouts in the air fryer - even I can eat them from there-and I don't like them! I did fix chicken salad last night, mixed with grapes and walnuts and celery. Did you know that nuts are a fruit? LOL Hubby asked me last night if cashews were a fruit - he was joking, but I googled it - and technically - it IS! It said nuts were a fruit because it was inside of a shell. Or something like that. You can google that question. That made him happy since he got two containers of cashews for Christmas. Yes, I know, chocolate isn't a fruit. LOL
Matthew 6:33 (NKJV): "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you."
When you seek God first, whether it be in how you live, what you eat (or don't eat), friends you make or let go of - when you seek Him first, life is always so much better. Trust me, I know this for a fact. I know I am not the same person I was 42 years ago - and for some of it, I'm grateful that I have a loving heavenly Father that will take hold of me and shake me loose and set my feet on His solid ground. Well, really, all of it, but I was thinking about ways I've changed over the years that I wish I still had - like a personality. I have to step out of my comfort zone anymore to do what I enjoy doing. And that's all I will say about that. Some times one has to weigh what is more important - obeying God or having things my way. I chose - and choose - God.
I remember working through one study and I got to a certain chapter and I could not get past it. I would not change that part of my life. I remember going to the altar one day and praying about it, and later a dear male friend stopped and asked me if everything was ok, for I had been crying. I shared with him about this chapter in the book and the difficulty I was having in being obedient in this one area. Yeah, it had to do with hubby. Don't even remember the chapter now. Whatever it was, after talking with him, I felt so much better, and was able to get through that chapter and finish that book. That's what friends are for. Help you when you are struggling. No, I didn't meet him 1:1; we were still at church in a public place. Meeting 1:1 with a member of the opposite sex could cause problems if you are alone. Nope, didn't do that. I don't even remember what he answered; I just know it helped me.
When you see someone who looks like they may be struggling - take a moment and just ask if they are ok. If there is something you could pray with them about. Let them know you care and are willing to just listen and not offer solutions or advice. Be there for them. That is what a real friend is.
I usually run to God with all my problems; but, as you know, I ramble on in here about some of them as well. Sometimes it helps just to type them out - and then I realize they aren't such a big deal after all. Most times it is just my 'don't want to' getting in the way of 'I have to'.
Hubby decided not to go to the men's group this morning at church (pickles!) and gave a lame excuse he wouldn't be ready in time to go to the funeral if he did. Figure that one out. No, don't bother. He just didn't want to go - why doesn't he just say that? I probably should go to the grocery sometime today as well; hubby is out of bananas cause I have been eating one the past few mornings - it's soft and cool and felt good on my surgery spot should it move to that side. This morning I think I'll just drink a premier protein shake - it fills me up and gives me 30g of protein. All good.
And.... I need to get moving and start getting ready if we are going to leave by 9AM. It's about 20 until 8AM. Yeah, I allow myself at least an hour, although it doesn't take that long. I'd rather have time to spare than rush and forget to put mascara on. :-) Not that it matters. It's not about me.
I bought a hydrotropic plant holder and it arrived yesterday. I have it in here until I decide whether or not I will keep it. I keep thinking I want to grow some vegetables - but can't do it outdoors - and this is very small.... I need to read about it - I may send it back. After all, there is only two of us. But still, I want to grow things. I can grow flowers in it too. And herbs. Need to read the instructions. I've always wanted one.... this is a small one. Much cheaper than the 'Lettuce Grows' one I almost bought - for nearly $1k - it was on a huge stand and you could grow all kinds of fruits and vegetables. This one holds only 12. Yeah, still processing. Stay tuned.
Ok - gotta go. Time is getting away from me. Have a good day!
Blessings!
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