Did I actually say in my last post I didn't want to work anymore? Hmmm. I think it is still true. I honestly do not believe I can sit at home and do nothing. Oh, I do have books to read, quilts to make, sewing to do, cooking to create, and knitting to continue to learn.... and I do enjoy being able to do that. But, well, let's just leave it at that.
Decided I needed to add something to this blog as it has been a few days. I'm trying to get myself to write anything - even about nothing - to just keep focused on having this blog and adding something to it. Maybe someday I can get my life together where I can go back to my original purpose for writing this blog. To share stories, to share meaningful things and not just gibberish.
I just got off track. I lost myself. In my devastation of life I allowed myself to die. But like a seed that must die before it can live again, I have started to feel a deep, deep, yearning within me to write again. To live life again. to want to learn things, to do things. Some of my life will need to remain hidden until another time.... things out of my control... but some day, if God does allow me to live that long, I will perhaps do the things I cannot do presently. I cannot focus on what I cannot do, I need to focus on what I can. Unfortunately, I will have many missed opportunities. I hope they will not be held against me.
I am off work on Monday. Not by choice, by any means. I am scheduled for a colonoscopy. Seems that it has been six years since I had my first (and last) one. It was not fun, nor was it pleasant. Oh, the actual procedure is nothing. That part is a breeze. It is the preparation for the actual procedure that I detest. I am so dreading it. I had to start my food prep today - meaning I had to eliminate some things from my diet. Nothing red, of course. This goes on for three days.... I had my chicken soup (minus the carrots) plus creamy peanut butter and crackers for lunch today. Not sure what I'll do tomorrow. Or the next day. Sunday is NO FOOD. Just liquids. Same for Monday - and by around noon, I'm not even allowed a sip of water. My procedure is scheduled for 3PM. Needless to say, we will probably stop at Dennys on my way home.
That's what we usually do for hubby - I accuse him of liking the procedure cause he gets one about every 3 years. He denies it, of course. His mother died from colon cancer, I think, so he always gets anxious about it.
Anyway - starting Sunday evening I must drink that goop and then do my run marathon all evening. Then again on Monday morning. I can hardly wait.
Hope you are having a good day.
Blessings!
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