And I wonder why I can't lose weight????

I am my own worst enemy when it comes to losing weight. Maybe I just need to change my focus. I keep saying I want to 'run' - so why don't I? Well, finding time that works for me, is a tough one. But, with that aside, I surely can find some time to do SOMEthing......

This week is one of FOOD. I just can not say 'no' when it comes to food. Especially GOOD food and GOOD desserts. Sigh. Monday night I made cookies for the men's group hubby has on Tuesdays. Yes, I ate a couple of them. or Four. Tuesday at lunch we had a meeting - a lunch meeting - and we had Mexican food from Garcia's. Do I need to say anything more? I did stay out of that dessert. However, one of our directors made home made peanut butter cookies with chocolate chips - which were absolutely delicious. I think I ate 3 before I told myself no more! And these were big and thick. I wasn't hungry. I just couldn't say no to my food addiction.

Then last night I was blessed to have some 1:1 time with my recently married beautiful Princess. We haven't had time together for a long, long time. And we had a lot of fun. Great dinner at Paradise Bakery - then we had a little time to walk around the Brass Armadillo. It's an antique place that is so fun to walk through. My daughter calls it an 'old people's yard sale'..... she just doesn't love antiques like I do. We had fun, then it was time to take her home. It was a good night.

Today we have a lunch meeting and it is going to be Flank Steak and all that will go with it. Tonight I am meeting a dear aunt for dinner. So that takes care of meals for today. And then no lunch scheduled for Thursday, but Thursday evening I am meeting another Princess at a favorite Mexican restaurant to celebrate her 19th birthday.

Like I said - and I wonder why I can't lose weight!! At least in looking ahead on the calendar, I don't have a lunch here at work until a week from Friday. Thank goodness!! We do tend to eat good here.

I need to start running. I need to do SOMETHING. I need to quit eating so much of the wrong food - or just eat a lot less of everything. But it all tastes so good!!

I have a food addiction!! YIPES!

But I can beat this. I've done it before. I can do it again. I just have to get my mind set on what I want to do - and prepare for it. It is in mental preparation, as it is in food preparation. I buy a lot of vegetables, but they usually rot in the fridge ... for various reasons I won't go in to. So I quit buying them. I need to buy just enough for a couple days and then bring them to work to always have lunch. Most days I work straight through lunch - and munch while I'm working. Anything and everything. And the people I work with are so kind - when THEY have a meeting, they always fix me a plate and bring to me. sigh.

Any addiction can get the best of you if you let it. But I am determined that I can beat my food addiction. With God's help, of course. It won't be easy, for I love food - a lot - but it will be for my benefit and my health. I can do this.

Stay tuned. I'll try to hold myself accountable. Starting today. Counting calories. Starting right now. Going to walk more. Starting Saturday (hey - I can't do it all immediately!!)

What do you need to change in your life? You won't be doing it alone. Join the fight! Beat that addiction! Go God!!

Blessings!