I have an extremely short week this week.... which isn't exactly a bad thing. Yesterday we were off work because of Memorial Day. Yes, I took time to think of why we even had this "holiday" off work. Today I am at work. Tomorrow I am taking a personal day to attend my adopted aunt's funeral. Thursday I will be working, and Friday I am taking a vacation day to attend a granddaughter's high school graduation. Next week will be a bear, having to come into work every day!! No more vacation days (currently) scheduled until August, for our anniversary, although I doubt if we can afford to go anywhere. But that's ok - it doesn't bother me to stay at home. Other than the fact I tend to not do anything.
I did attempt to clean out a closet this weekend. Actually, I finally got around to it yesterday morning. I was gungho on getting it accomplished and did get through a lot of it. I pulled out several boxes, yes boxes, of papers I had stashed - and I'm not sure what all of it is. I saw some bank statements, etc, but I know that isn't all of it. My thought was to sit down and start going through this paperwork and throw it away and try to organize it some.
Within a very short time I was interrupted several times with questions/comments - and then a phone call came from our daughter inviting us up for a lunch cookout. We did that and played a game with them before heading back home. Then I just couldn't get back to it. The boxes are back in the closet where they came from and the few tops I am discarding are sitting in a stack. Not a very productive weekend - at least not what I had planned. Not that the going to lunch was a big interruption - it was a welcome respite - but I guess I waited too long... but knowing me, and knowing the cirucmstances..... even if I had started Saturday it wouldn't have gotten much further. I need to be totally alone when I am in the mood to clean so that I can focus and get it done.
But then, when I am totally alone, who wants to clean? That's ME time!!
I saw a video on facebook yesterday that I really liked. And yes, it involved cleaning out closets, etc. It said to put all your clothes in a pile on your bed. Then one by one, take that item and ask yourself if that item brings you 'joy'. Meaning, when you wear it, does it feel good on you (does it still fit?!!), do you feel good in it. If it doesn't, then let it go. (I actually have several of those items I just haven't let go of because even if it doesn't 'feel good', I just might need to wear it as a last resort) I have several things I won't wear because they just aren't comfortable. Another thing they mentioned was instead of folding and stacking tops in a drawer (and always grabbing the top one or two), fold them and place them upright side by side - that way you can see what is at the 'bottom' of the stack. That made sense too. One more thing they mentioned was socks. That part was interesting. I have lots of socks for in the wintertime with my boots I love to wear different kinds of decorative socks. Some I need to get rid of cause my big toe has found the way through the end, but if I darn them, I can still wear them.... but they are so thin from years of use, one would think I would pay the $2 and buy a new pair. Anyway. they suggested to roll the socks and stack them side by side. Me, I grab a pair that matches and turn them inside out 1/2 way and throw in the drawer. My drawer looks like a jumbled mess.
Someone said once that the way our house looks - is also a reflection of how our lives look. And, in retrospect, I can see that. My house is fairly clean, but my closets and my two back rooms I have declared 'mine' - are extremely messy. Sort of like how my life is. I look neat and put together on the outside, but inside I feel like a jumbled mess most of the time. I want to straighten out my closets and clean my rooms, but I feel I get conflict every time I try to. I want to clean my life up, and make the inside as neat as the outside, and I feel I get conflict. Is this where I say, 'woe is me'?
No. This is where I decide who is in control. And it ain't me. And it ain't my hubby. God is. I need to clean my house for Him. I need to overcome the obstacles I face inside and outside, to clean and give it to him. It's hard to have my quiet time when I feel cluttered - inside and outside. I think it's time to spring clean.
What about you? Time to get up off your butt and do something in your area of messiness? What is hiding in your closet? What is hiding in your heart?
It's still springtime - let's clean!
Blessings!
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