I finally got both airline and hotel scheduled for two of the executives yesterday and it was exhausting. I'm still a bit 'anxious' in that I did it correctly. But, it's done. One wanted a window seat, the other an aisle - and for both - had to go to rows 25 and 26 because there was nothing else available. Oh well! That is about all I got done yesterday. Today I still have a lot of meet and greet meetings to schedule for my new boss and a few other things, but I will be taking my car down to AAA Repair to get my oil change completed at 8a. I'm still debating whether to go down and wait, or have hubby pick me up, or they run me home. Flip Flop. If I go and stay, I'll take my work computer with me so that I can work on the meet & greet meetings. An early morning oil change shouldn't take long, right?
Got my mystery boxes from EFF yesterday and there wasn't as much as last week - thank goodness! What was I thinking ordering two boxes again? Anyway - I did get two cases of tomatoes again, plus some other things. At least no more broccoli! I still three stalks in the refrigerator I must use up soon! Maybe I'll go get some velveeta cheese and make cheesy broccoli soup. That was the original plan, but I still haven't made it to the store. I do need to get milk as I see we are running low. I did take some things up to the DILove to share with some of her family if she wanted to. LOL Gathered all the cookies in a plastic bag and stuck a note on it - 'R says.... all the cookies are his, and he will distribute.' I thought it was a funny way to get to him - and he 'called me out' on it last night. Well, he did get his cookies, right? All in fun. Glad to get them out of my house for yesterday found me really wanting some!
Yeah, I'm trying hard to stay on this low carb plan to lose this weight and lower my BP. It was still high this morning (136/86) but I blame it on my left hip and leg hurting. The pain hasn't gone away yet. Ironically, it feels like the bone is aching, not a muscle or a cramp. I've mentioned this a few times before and will bring it up to Dr. Mark in January when I see him. I don't know where he can send me to have a bone checked. I don't believe it is sciatica as some think. I think it is more that I've worn that bone down in the hip as that is the side I sleep on and if I'm really tired, I don't turn over but stay on it all night. But then, it could be the bone itself. I don't know, but when I get up from this chair soon, I will be putting some cream on it to calm it down. I've already taken an Excedrin for it.
My son has asked me for more Christmas ideas. I added a brownie pan to my list the other day. I had loaned my brownie pan to my nephew a few years back and I don't know what he did with it, but when I got it back, the finish is off of it. I still use it, but can use another. Stay tuned as I think of other things.
I'm doing pretty good on this low-carb 'thing'.... but it is hard. Last night I cheated. Hubby was gone to his meeting and although I ate cottage cheese and yogurt, I used Yoplait and it wasn't the low carb one. Yeah, lots of carbs in it. Also ate a stick pretzel (wanted salt), which I probably should not eat as I need to back away from salt some plus it's the worst thing to eat on a low carb plan, right? But, even with eating those carbs last night, my glucose was down to 106 this morning. My coach from Virta and I have been exchanging texts on the app frequently lately. I don't know of anything to tell him today. I like his contacting me though, for it tells me he is encouraging me and offering suggestions, asking what I'm eating, do I have questions, etc. To me it is encouraging, anyway, that someone is 'tracking and watching' me. The first time I was in Virta I had a great coach too, and I told him all the right things.... but I just quit doing Virta and finally totally withdrew from it. Will see how long I last this time. But I need to be held accountable and if Virta is the way to do it - then I'll do it. After all, it costs me nothing as the company pays for it. I just, in good faith, need to do it right. Once I can get the weight off and keep it off for awhile, I can cancel again. Or, when I retire, (if I ever do), I will have to cancel for my insurance will be gone.
Messenger X (which is John Bevere's ministry website) sends me a quote every morning. This morning it is "Consecrate yourself and trust God's lead, even into the unknown.' Each day, if you think of it, leads into the unknown. We don't know what will pop up during the day. We don't know the outcome of each day. It is the unknown. Do we trust God to lead us through it - whether the news is good, bad, or indifferent? Can we say I trust God no matter my circumstances?
Trust me, there are many mornings that I just throw myself upon His mercy and grace and ask Him to lead me through the day. Days when I am overwhelmed with life, when I think I 'don't want to do this anymore'; days when the pain in my heart over disappointments or disagreements is so great I don't know what to do with it. Days when ... well, you can probably fill in the blank with your own words. Can you trust God no matter what the answer is to the situation you are wanting an answer for? That job? That medical diagnosis? That one answer you long for? Can we trust God in all things? His Word says that we can. No matter what, God is always in control. He takes even the bad and will bring good from it. Trusting God can be hard at times for we are a 'fix it myself' generation. But things get completed much better when we take our hands off and let Him deal with it. And I say that from experience. I have screwed up so many times in my life I often wonder why He bothers with me... yet, I know He loves me and will take even the bad things that come at me, and bring good from them. I have to give the situation to Him, and take my hands off. Hardest thing to do most times.
I asked my DILove last night if there is such a thing as a disconnect between the brain and the eyes. Her response troubles me, for it is one that I suspected, but didn't want to hear. Hubby is having difficulty at times - not always - either that or he's doing it to drive me crazy - but like yesterday, I had cucumbers in packages stacked on the counter. (I'm hoping to make pickles this weekend) He comes in to the kitchen, looks at them, and asked if they were tomatoes. Now I know he is color blind with red/green - but.... I always pause and look at him to see if he is serious. He was. I told him no, they were cucumbers - and then he says "oh, I was looking at them from this angle and they looked like tomatoes".... meaning he looked at the round end, but still. And I also told my DILove about the other night. He fussed at me about my mopping the kitchen floor as that is something he can do (why start now?). Well, later that evening I went into the kitchen and found several (like in 10) drops of salsa on the floor. So I called him by his full name and told him to come in and get the mop and clean it up. He couldn't see the drops. He got the mop and started mopping in an entirely different area. And got upset with me (as I was getting upset with him!) because I kept pointing out the area where the drops were and telling him he was missing them - "and that's why I do the mopping!!". This 'stuff' scares me for I don't know what to do. And really, there is nothing I can do. Not now, anyway.
I know that God is in control of every situation. Every stage of every age. Not only for hubby, for myself as well, for I know I am moving up in age. And that's why I try to stay active. I want to keep moving and not end up - as much as I loved my mother - sitting in a chair at the table all day long because of no strength to do anything else. I don't want to 'fall and can't get up' - that saying isn't as funny as it was 20 years ago. Right?
And with that, I need to get off here and get on the work computer, get dressed, and get ready to take my car down to the shop.
Have an amazing day - full of love, warmth, special memories - and good news!
Blessings!
