what we want to believe. True statement? I think so. Hubby and I discussed yesterday morning, after I finished up in here, what he was mad about. But he explained he wasn't mad... just that I had hurt his feelings. So I asked him... 'was what I said true? And if it was, why are you hurt?' He once again explained what he felt he contributed to our finances... so I just commented that if he does all that with his social security check, then he doesn't need my paycheck, and I can retire, right? Blank stare. I just left it with 'we need to sit down and you need to tell me what all the bills are' (he has it in plain sight, but if I go look at it, he is immediately defensive as though I will question something (and I would)). Oh well. I guess I just need to 'suck it up' and keep working. At least for now. I know that if I was going into the office daily that we would not be having this conversation. It's because I am home 24x7 and with him most days 24x7 and I'm going nuts. Money truly is the root of all evil. If you let it. As I said before, we bought this place with the idea that if one of us wasn't here (or I didn't have a job), we could still survive. Enough of that.
The dreaded question came up yesterday by my boss.... board minutes. He actually sent an email and copied me, to the the person who covered for me last month when I was out of town. But she is off. So I responded to him that she had sent me the notes she took... but I haven't put in the proper format yet. Guess what I need to work on today. Sigh. Did I ever tell you I hate to do board minutes? And we have another meeting next month. At least I figured out where the 'record' button is in Teams so that I can record the meeting.
My other boss, the one I report to, sent me a self-evaluation form to complete and return to her within the next couple of weeks. Then we will meet and discuss it. After that, she will make her own comments - and my raise for next year will be based on it. Now I'm realistic. I just put what I do. She knows how to word it in her comments that I am great in my accomplishments. That's the sign of a good boss. She builds up, and doesn't just leave things 'as they are'. No wonder I have followed her around for 30 years, huh.
I slept good last night. I had hubby turn the fan up a couple notches (over the bed) and I slept until 4AM. But here I have tried to sleep some more this morning. I think it is more I'm fighting depression with being within these four walls 24x7 versus lack of sleep. I'll snap out of it.... I just need some mind stimulation. I love being alone, but because most times I must also keep an eye on the clock because of needing to work or do other things, I can't really concentrate on what I'm reading - whether it is my Bible, working on the computer, saying prayers, or writing in my journal. Always have to watch the clock. What would it feel like to not have to keep an eye on the clock. LOL No worries, I have hubby to tell me when to go to bed. And some mornings if I try to sleep a little longer, he will make sure I'm awake to get up. He doesn't let me stray far from routine.
I've got a bit of a sinus headache this morning... just enough to keep me distracted. Just saw the clock - 6:25AM - I will need to get up, get dressed, and turn on the work computer in a few. Since I turn off my computer at 4PM, I nearly always have meetings to schedule first thing when I turn it on in the mornings. My bosses work until 5PM or later.
And I got nothing this morning. I can tell you about God's faithfulness. I can tell you how good He is. I can tell you how much He loves you. But my mind isn't pulling in any scriptures this morning. Silly headache is too distracting. Hopefully tomorrow I will be more alert and give you something interesting to read. In the meantime....
Trust in God for whatever comes your way today. Turn your eyes, your thoughts, to Him, and seek His face. The things in this world will fade away, because 'He's got you covered.'
Blessings!
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