I feel weighted down this morning as I have something heavy on my mind and heart. I'm so weary of some things going on and since I am not involved, it makes it more difficult. I've reached the point that I may just say something (more) - but still praying about what and how. It has just crushed me beyond measure, for sure.
Yesterday was a semi-productive day at work and all went well, but I found when I got home last night that I all of a sudden just felt so weary. Yeah, that was the word I came up with. Not 'tired' so much but weary. I was chatting with my little sister and at 7PM I was already in my jammies, sitting on the couch. I just felt so weary.
I wonder what is going on. Other than what is bothering me in the first paragraph, I don't specifically know of anything. Finances are always a problem - because I've made it a problem. But, am working on that issue and things will be ok.
I was praying for my children this morning and God has impressed upon me specific things I need to pray about. Most of all, praying that their eyes will be opened and they will see Him as Lord, and not the world. When we put things and issues and people before God, they have become our idols. God says that there shall NOT be any thing (or any one) before Him. We are to love the Lord our God with all of our heart, all of our soul, all of our mind, and all of our strength. There is no other option. God is to be first in our lives - not second. And definitely not last.
Some times it doesn't matter who is right or wrong in issues. It is how you respond; or not respond. If you let the issue remain, you have put that issue before God - and trust me, God will remove your blessings if you do not keep Him first. Think about that....... when I have difficulties and I don't know why... I always review my life to see if I am in line with Him, or with the world. I don't have to be right. But I do have to reconcile and agree to disagree if need be. I need to make amends no matter what it costs me. I have no pride when it comes to making amends. I have no rights. If I am faithful with God, then I need to make myself right with others. God first. Others second. Myself last.
Where do you stand in your world? Do you need to make a phone call, or write that letter, and just say "I'm sorry for everything. Please forgive me."? And then listen to what they have to say. Don't respond. Listen. and repeat, "I'm sorry for everything. Please forgive me." Just doing that will remove the heaviness and the burden from you, and your family. You taking the first step will free not only you, but those closest to you. And it will no longer separate you from God and His blessings.
My heart is sad for those who turn from God because of pride or because they think they are right or want to live their way. There is no other way than walking with God. Walking with God doesn't mean life will be wonderful. But it does mean that He will walk with you through the tough times.
For me, I want God on MY side. And to have Him on my side, I want to be on HIS side. Where do you stand with God? It's more than just going to church. It's more than prayer at the meals. It's relationship. What is your relationship with God? If it is right, then your relationship with others is right. Think about it.
Blessings!
1 comment:
Wow. In one post you brought family issues to the forefront, as well as spiritual issues (for those that are into that), and left just a tantalizing tidbit to make everyone wonder exactly what you meant. Really RM, write that book... I know I would read it!
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